I am very happy to check in today! It’s been an interesting night.
I thought I was having a nightmare. In this dream I was feeling real emotions: fear, anxious, worried. As soon as I woke up, I smiled and laughed with god for playing a trick on me.
15 years ago I was faced with a very difficult decision. The dream was my life, if I had made the opposite decision. If visions are real… This was definitely one.
Needless to say, I woke up in an amazing mood! Now, my wife is in a good mood too I’m in my routine, enjoying my coffee with true happiness in my heart.
Up way before decent folk. Up before cats. Kind of a bad sleep, but better bad
Turning the corner into a new phase of sobriety. Calmer of mind. It’s easier to exercise. I’m losing a little weight. All sharp edges are less so, now. I like it. I’m healing up.
Day 259 Drug free
Day 141 Alcohol free
Day 3 nicotine free
Checking in early morning. Been getting up early for my spiritual breakfast. Prayer, meditation, reading and yoga. Great way to set a positive intention for the day!
@Laner that most definitely is a win @siand I’m sorry to hear about your break-up but well done for accepting help 🩵 @tailee17 congrats on 90 days @Lisa-B congrats on 150 days @Lile01 safe travels @vagabond welcome to the checking-in thread @SKhan congrats on 2+ weeks @icebear sorry for the rough day good to read from you though @SadMemeQueen I’m glad you are working with a psychiatrist, hoping together you’ll find what works for you, sending strength and hope 🩵 @sarath_unrelax congrats on your week
@SoberWalker I hope you get your hearing back and are feeling better soon 🩵 @acromouse I hope the coffee helped 🩵 @MrsOdh congrats on 90 days @BJonns congrats on your week @Tragicfarinelli I can relate alot solidarity 🩵 @JonasE congrats on 60 days
1386 days no alcohol.
851 days no cocaine.
366 days no vape.
3 days no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
I didn’t end up doing what I said I was going to do (finish the chapter, watch TV in the lounge), but I did meditate alot, and I watched TV on my phone, BGT, which was a much needed 1.5hr distraction from obsessing about food.
I’ve decided to allow toast later in the evening, if I’m genuinely hungry, but I have to wait an hour after my evening snack, so that I know it’s genuine hunger, rather than eating just because I’m standing in the kitchen. It worked well last night, and now I don’t have the guilt.
I only slept from midnight til 2am, so my brain is lagging today. I am anxious as I’m anticipating a reply from the charity I’m currently having theray with, regarding CSA. I will find out if I can restart it once I’ve completed the therapy with the psychiatrist. I hope they will allow this, as I was so patient whilst I waited 4 years for it.
I have deliveries coming today so I’ll be waiting in for those (not like I ever go anywhere ). I will finish the chapter after this, and then maybe watch the last 2 episodes of Sex Education on Netflix.
Working 7-4 today. Feeling OK. Weather is a bit rubbish still but I feel OK. Mood is calm
I am sober. Not drinking today and just keep moving forwards.
Hey @CATMANCAM there’s nothing wrong with toast if you agree on a portion size and stick to it around good healthy meals. Maybe do something around the routine of the toast to make the experience feel comforting to your body? A really nice plate could be used, use plant sterols spread (great for cholesterol), and a wee smidge of marmite (vitamin b’s). That should turn the experience into something positive and know that you have loved and honoured your body in the process. Honestly, I’m very proud that you are trying this out and eating real food that your body needs and deserves. I’m hoping this curiosity will work out super well for you.
I’m in my routine, enjoying my coffee with true happiness in my heart.
. Enjoy your day
but well done for accepting help 🩵
). I will finish the chapter after this, and then maybe watch the last 2 episodes of Sex Education on Netflix.
