Day 39. Boy did this one suck 
Work has been and absolute nightmare and Iāve been ghosted by a friend. Absolutely love it when that happens. No explaination, no goodbye just deleted and blocked. Real class act.
No time to mourn. Day isnāt over yet.
Hope you guys are doing better than me.
Welcome to the site. Post often and stay connected 
Iām feeling overwhelmed. Taking a break. The list here is very long, but I want it all done today. I made a cup of tea. Will relax for an hour and read around here 
if I feel less frantic I can resume. Iām like a wind-up toy. 
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Congratulations! A fantastic milestone 
Congratulations 
thatās awesome.
MrFantastik thanks for this man! And youāre right, today would have been unmanageable if I was rough from the weekend. Actually turned out well. Glad your feeling positive with your work.
@Chevy55 It seems like weāre juggling similar balls at opposite ends of the pondš I appreciate your words bud. It really had a positive impact when I read it this morning. Things are getting easier and my suffering pessimistic mind is turning into one thatās seeing opportunities. I hope you donāt take on too much and get that gym timeš
@JazzyS your always so kind and wise and I hope you realise the positive impact your words have on people. Thank you 
I hope youāre phone calls werenāt as painful as the other day!
@Soberbilly happy birthday bud!
@Whereswaldo congratulations on 50 days mate, thats an inspiring number!
Thanks everyone for your stories, likes and supportā¦
Hope all is wellš
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Evening checkinā¦
Thanks for thinking of me @Chevy55 @JazzyS @Lighter @acromouse @happyfeet and everybody elseā¦
It is a gift to me to just share without shame, how I feel! In the meantime, I feel better.
A wise friend 
@Soberbilly reminded me very often, that itās about acceptence. The good and the bad. And impermanence. He is right.
When I am deep down in this mood, itās hard to find trust. Or not identify with my feelings. I will keep on learning 
Mood is much better after Yoga with Horst 
my new teacher. Physical therapy always is huge help to me. Hope I can bike there next week (donāt trust the tire pressure atm, and itās raining a lot!).
Maybe the milestone is a trigger, but I am not that much about the amount of days right now. It gets easier. But itās important to be sober at all. Even during hard days I didnāt crave.
Love you guys 
59 days smoke free & sober
Happy birthday Wish you All the best 
Checking in day 127 AF
I actually struggled today 
but im f@@king not going to give in , ive come to far attitude kicked in luckily
Sorry for outburst couldnāt be asked to post on other threads
Deep breath in sure it will pass
Congrats @Vanessa8 @Pattycake @tailee17
and Happy Birthday @Soberbilly
Sending strength to you @Twizzlers
Right on! Do not give in, it will pass. Youāll be 100x stronger for not giving in. Lots of support to you 
@leroy Way to go with your double 4ās 
@k_s love how we learn so much about ourselves and our environment as we trudge along the sober journey. Great work my friend. Keep it going strong
@jonase that does suck when a friend ends a relationship in such a manner. You donāt need that in your life anyways. Deserve to be treated better so donāt let it bother you (I know that is much easier said than done). I do hope you have a better rest of your day
@lighter Oh man a long list can feel overwhelming. Are you able to look at it and put the tasks in piles (urgent, can wait ā¦etc) ā after youāve had your tea and feel less frantic of course. I find that once I put my tasks into these piles I can attack them with less pressure and sometimes I even end up doing the entire list. Glad you are taking a break and hopefully that tea helped calm you down 
@danwood85 Awe thanks man ā really appreciate your words. Todayās phone calls did go a lot smoother gratefully. Hope you are enjoying your afternoon / evening.
@juli1 So glad that you are feeling better and great to hear that you did not crave during your rough patch. Keep pushing forward my rockstar friend ā you are a total badass!
@kvee No need to ever apologize ā Iām glad you were able to come here and let it out. You canāt hold that shit in. Iām sorry your day has been such a struggle. Grateful you are not letting it do you in ā keep strong friend. Feel free to vent here if needed ā we are here to help support you
Afternoon check in ā
so the weather and i are not on the same page today LOL - i did get in a walk but the cool breezy day turned hot and muggy near the end of my walk and caused my body to break out in hives. Luckily i was able to come home and shower and cool off. I then dressed nicely to run some errands where i got soaked and the weather turned super cold. GOOD LORD ā¦ glad to be home in my sweats ready to make a lovely meal. I am good today - i feel alive and well mentally and that is awesome.
hope you all are enjoying this magnificent day - sending you all so much love
Hope you feel better soon and get lots of rest 
So glad your feeling better. You are doing so well 
@Soberbilly Happy birthday
To you all, I am so grateful for all your kind messages today. Iām very tired but wanted to make sure I came on and said thank you.
With out you all I would be doing this alone 
@JazzyS thatās a great idea. The ācan waitā items tend to have outsized importance if I donāt identify them as can-waits. Itās weird, I get wound up and forget whatās urgent and what isnāt sometimes. Good to take the highest priority thing and run with it. Thatās done, plus a lot more. I did a lot today. Need a little exercise and reading time. Remembering how to live sober. Thank you
Should I make some green tea? 
