38 days sober 
today has been a bit better than the past few days but Iām still not feeling myself. I didnāt sleep well last night again and have been anxious all day but I feel more hopeful. I have felt so all over the placeā¦one day happy and doing great the next wrecked and feeling terrible. I know things can get better. Iāve read a lot of you write that it gets better after being sober for a longer period of time or something like this. But I also know I need to face my past again but I donāt really know how to do that in a healthy way anymore. Iām just so tired. I want to be better, healthier in how I deal with things but really donāt know what to do. If I lived in the west Iād probably get counseling again but thatās not possible here. And I canāt afford online counseling which is frustrating. I looked into it today and couldnāt believe how expensive it is! 
Iām really afraid of my ptsd getting worse. Guess I feel a bit lost in my thoughts and in my past.
Iām still not homeā¦maybe we will leave tomorrow. I feel safe up here away from temptation and a bit glad for a few days of isolation but also so glad my friend is with me.
Day 2241ā¦spending motherās day with the newest mother in the family and the grandson.
Checking in on day 305.
Congrats on your 20 days, @K_S , love the quote, thanks for sharing it!
@Juli1 , thunderstorms charge the air and feed the earth, you are doing so well , keep rocking it!
New commitment to exercise, @CleanHeart , that inspires me to get back on that track.
Wowza!!! Happy Birthday and congrats on the incredible 2500 sober days!!
Thatās a good way of looking at it. Im sorry you missed it too! Hopefully there are more opportunities for us to see it in the future 
and thank you
For real! My knee has been hurting this morning and Iām thinking I hurt it getting out of bed to fast!
Huge congrats dame! 2500 is a beautiful number. And happy birthday! Hieperdepiep hoera! 
You are inspirational as well.
2500 days wow Congratulations.
. Made me laugh. Slow down my friend you probably were running for that coffee!
Weāre gonna have to get you a mobility aid, sir. Me too, haha. Itās really amazing how fast I can walk with a shopping cart now! 
Iām hoping I can reverse what decades of drinking did to my knee joints. Some of it, anyway. Happy Sunday, friend!
Iāll have to start out with just sitting first and planning my next movement 
Day 74 Sober. Happy Motherās Day to everyone. My mother passed away when I was young. I would search every year after for Motherās Day card for Dad. Hallmark always came through. Although you may not have children I am sure you have many motherly qualities with pets and other peopleās children.
Enjoy a loving sober day my friends.
Yaaassss! Being that grocery shopping in Texas is a competitive sport, Iād get you one but Iād probably have to steal it!
Could really put the beep-beep scooters that always block the aisles in their rightful placeā¦ha
What an amazing accomplishmentā¦ Congrats.
Well done. Stay strong 
Awesomeā¦ My first grandchild come in 10 days. I love him already 