@zzz 3 weeks is great work ā loved the drumming video on the selfie thread too. Keep the momentum going strong @ncgolfer Way to go with jumping back into sobriety! The early days are hard and the only thing to focus on is not giving into the addiction. Stay connected here or in groups irl ā this helps let us know we are not alone. Donāt worry about the motivation to do stuff or the energy ā I slept soooo much in the early days as my body needed this time to heal. Be kind to yourself @holysquid sending healing vibes ā hope the antibiotics kick in soon @jules000 Sorry you feel lonely today. Engage here ā it helps when I feel alone. Glad you will be seeing your sis tomorrow @wahtisnormal hope you made the flight today and are enjoying some vaca time in Peru @danam56 was just thinking of you. Glad you are doing well (with your back, with the move and with your sobriety). Oreo cookies and crĆØme icecream OMG ā used to love this so much. YES ā so much better than the bottle. @lighter OOH I love that you are getting out and being social now that you have your sobriety sea legs ā¦. Starting off in a new group already sober is awesome as no one knows the past you. Love this for you Marie. ODAAT @tailee17 Girl ā you had me rolling ā I am imagining you walking around with kale at your feet Glad to see you are returning to your bubbly self and thanks for the laugh
Checking in on Wednesday evening
581 days free of alcohol and weed
996 days free of cigarettes
Started to check in this morning but then i needed a nap first LOL.
Woke up feeling off and it seemed that everything and everyone was on their worst behavior for my benefit I was so agitated and put off that i kept away as i did not want to spread my negative ju ju. Glad i realized it and worked through it so that it did not consume me. Even went for a nice walk with mom this evening.
Grateful that my timers are in tact and i did not blow my lid today either.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
It has been 6 days since I found out my mom passed. Initially, I wanted to drink to take away the feelings but I didnāt. I feel really content that I have made it through this so far without breaking. Now that the shock is subsiding, I have been talking to my momās sisters about what kind of conversations they last had with her and one of them said she spoke with her likely the day she passed away and mom told her that she was getting sicker than the previous day and was going to lay down. She was throwing up so much she thought she had food poisoning. She didnāt want me to know about this because she thought I would be worried about her and tell her to go see a doctor. She made a point to never go to see doctors. It was rough today getting these details, but, surprisingly, I never once thought about alcohol. I feel like even after just 60 days, I am much more emotionally equipped to deal with grief and loss.
Last day of my workweek, with a ānormalā nursing day coming up. Experience work yesterday was really good, had some great conversations that went pretty deep at times. Seem to have found a nice balance in my job this week. So letās keep that going. One day at a time and such. Than my three day weekend arrives yeah! Weather prediction doesnāt look too great but at least Iāll get to sleep in a bit.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean to begin with or nothing will come of it. I will. Love.
@Kris Very sorry for your loss Kris. Hope youāll find a way to deal with this all, seems you are, glad it doesnāt involve fleeing into drinking.
I have been deep cleaning around my house for probably about 2 weeks (not daily, but almost daily)
There are 7 people living here full time and another 1 who mostly just stores her stuff here but rarely sleeps here.
That said, thereās too much stuff here. And I have been trying to de clutter things. A new room each time. And the 3 big garbage bins outside have been overflowing the past 2 weeks when pickup happens. Think I need to buy a 4th.
Tomorrow morning I have an interview at a new place, but itās a group interview. Iāve never had one like that. Hopefully it goes well and I can get comparable pay there to what Iām making now so I can take a position there. I really need a break from the place I am now ,but canāt afford to not work at allā¦ So fingers crossed.
I have work after the interview until late. And then I have errands to run even after that. So itāll be a long day.
Feeling a lot of conflicting emotions currently and not entirely sure where theyāre all coming from but itāll pass. It always does.
Finally hitting the hay after a very long day .
I feel blah kinda short tempered and quiet, Iāve noticed its been getting worse over the last two days. nothing has really changed besides not drinking so I donāt know what would be causing it any advice would be appreciated. I feel like I need to get back to reading on here to calm my jets get me off edge and get some more tools to cope. its just been dang hard I feel like Iāve been burning my candle at both ends for to long and maybe itās finally caught up
236 days
Up early to get the kids to school. Then some training and exercise.
Groceries and made a start on dinner before it was time to pick up the kids.
Eldest had netball, first game back after holidays. Amazing how good sheās getting.
Work tomorrow so Iāll be up early tomorrow
Recognizing a couple of early warning signs that may mean increase level of care. I notice I am seeking out tools to self harm with. Iāve also noticed that Iāve been awake all nightā¦ Huge warning sign because Iāve been up all night planning the next time I self harm. Main reason I stay up at night: to plan and prepare for the next cut. However, I do not plan to give into these thoughts and urges. Instead I am waking up staff because I donāt want to slip upā¦
Checking in on day 2
I havenāt checked in for ages, thatās because after 4 months sober I got off track again some weeks ago. Yep, instead of reaching out e.g. on this forum, I chose my good old friend the bottle. Of course I only found misery at the bottom of the glass. In the last 4 months Iāve lost 2 of my cats very unexpectedly (the second one just 3 weeks ago) + my father passed away 7 weeks ago after a long disease and having spent (almost) the last 6 months in hospitals. Iām glad heās finally found some peace. I wish I hadnāt faced these incidents looking for comfort in the bottle, but heyā¦.learning the hard way, and dusting myself off one more time! Kicked off the day with a 7K walk, in fact I have been going for a walk every day in the past week. @JazzyS thanks for your support and listening to my never ending dramas in the past weeks!
Checking in on day 417AFAF.
Iām just back from an early appointment with my psychiatrist. Heās happy with my progress and reassured me that time is a great healer. He thinks we need to see each other a little less frequently going forward and that I should maintain my medication as they are at the moment. Iām happy with that.
Today my 12 year old is travelling to another town an hour away to meet some friends in person for the first time. We dyed the front of her hair green last night and I have to say we did a pretty good job, it looks great.
Iām going to spend a bit of time drawing in my new sketchbook today.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
@kris so very sorry for your loss. 60+ days is incredible and Iām grateful that you had this time under your belt to help you deal with this grief in a sober manner. Sending love and comfort your way. @Scorpn good luck with the interview love. A group interview? Never heard of itā¦you will have to tell us how it goes. Thatās some serious cleaning you got going on! @Lefty624 sometimes our emotions just go through cycles (with nature, our body tempā¦etc). Donāt feel discouraged. You have noticed this mindset and can now work to get you back to your happy place. Reading here is a great ideaā¦I find this forum and all the posts to be super helpful. ODAAT @Jules000 hope you got some rest. SH will not solve anything. You have come this farā¦ please do not give into the urge. You get to see your sister today. Think of that happy time and hopefully you will feel better glad you are seeing the signs of relapse and getting ahead of it. @Jesile you are so welcome. Grateful I was able to be there. so good to see you checking in and in the sober path friend. Looks at you kicking ass right out the gateā¦a 7k walk ā¦a love it!! @Deelzebub 417 days! Days are stacking up nicely. Glad your physiatrist is seeing progressā¦thatās huge hope your girl has a wonderful day trip. Green eh? I love it! Also loved your sketch you postedā¦I do look forward to seeing your creations
Checking in on Thursday morning
Gotta get moving. Itās 6 am and Iām running behind ā¦ Will be a chilly morning so get to wear a hoodie on my walkā¦I do love that lol.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love
#Day 2137
Unfortunally the leaking roof has caused a lot of damage. I think the whole cealing has to be renewed. But first things first: fixing the roof!
Tomorrow a roofer comes to check it out.
OMG ā used to love this so much. YES ā so much better than the bottle.
Glad to see you are returning to your bubbly self and thanks for the laugh
Think I need to buy a 4th.
so I donāt know what would be causing it any advice would be appreciated. I feel like I need to get back to reading on here to calm my jets get me off edge and get some more tools to cope. its just been dang hard I feel like Iāve been burning my candle at both ends for to long and maybe itās finally caught up 
Wish I was thoughā¦ It would help me escape from my mind which is telling me to harm myself 
ā¦ Will be a chilly morning so get to wear a hoodie on my walkā¦I do love that lol.
congrats on 62 days 
sending you strength