Day 375. Bit of a hump day at work for me. If I can stay focused tho that’s good.
I’ve decided to cut out alcohol free beers as I think other than the odd social situation I don’t need them.
I think i have three meetings this morning and one this afternoon so it’s not too bad.
214 days
Another day at work. Busy morning but quiet after lunch.
Lead some training, was really a 1on1 session but when its quiet and especially with this skill it attracts a few watchers hoping to brush up and refamiliarise themselves.
Its good but it adds some pressure to the poor guy whose just starting out learning the skills.
Day off tomorrow as I took the nightshift off to attend the kids sports in the evening
Day 1292,
Dishonesty doesn’t work anymore, I knew that. But sometimes my impulse to say no instead of yes, or otherwise slips in really fast. I know the reason I did it. Discussed it with my sponsor yesterday, I exactly knew what he had to say about it. But hearing him say it helps a lot, although my mind was like “f*ck you”, had a good laugh about. So I have to go back to that person and tell the truth…,…irrespective of the outcome. Bottom line, if I get a question I answer with the truth in a caring way 
Have a sober 24 
@Rob11 That’s tough work you are doing there, untangling old patterns. Impressive 
Thanks for sharing
@MrFantastik Just out of curiosity: What kind of training do you lead?
@Danwood85 Good to see you checkin in 
And thanks for sharing your story about being a role model. We sometimes forget that there are always people who will look to us and model their behavior following.
@Juli1 Wooohooo! You made it girl!!! 
So happy to read this 
Go on. Keep doing the healing
@Lefty624 Now I’m starting to hope for some pool photos 
@Vanessa8 To easier days 
@Just_Laura Nice win 
Enjoy your spoils 
@Mno You know, your words of introspection and encouragement were what drew me to TS and held me in my first difficult days. And you keep at it. Thank you so much
@JamesOnTheMend Good job on another day. You are doing good. Keep at it, share, connect 
@MrsOdh The banana thing really is a bummer. I can’t have most fruits myself, including bananas. Currently blueberries work. Fingers crossed you’ll find some stuff that works for you 
224 sugar
88 UPF
95 gluten
72 dairy
2 overeating
I already did my morning walk and groceries, and let go of some very intrusive thoughts. Life is good 
Today I am going to tackle a new part of my game design, either level design or the npc-system. I am not sure which yet. But it’s going to be great work either way. I want to try making gnocchi out of polenta for lunch. Very curious how this will turn out.
A walk, some stuff from my todo-list, yoga and recovery dharma in the evening. That’s for today.
Let’s try for peace, kindness and freedom friends 
@RefreshedPerspective congrats on double digits and for making it through the holiday weekend keep doing the right things 
@JazzyS thank you 
I hope your appointment goes well today 🩵 sorry about the fight with your mom, I hope things are smoothed over now I also hope your allergies settle, could the doctor prescribe something better whilst you are there?
@Jeanine congrats on 50+ days sorry about your dad, wishing him a full recovery 🩵
@Juli1 I’m sorry you’re struggling sending strength 🩵 yay for the free swim 
and an even bigger YAY for day 155, congrats
@Alycia keep fighting that ‘f**k it’ feeling, remember the desperation you felt before you got sober, that usually does it for me. Congrats on your running PBs 
@CHASE.E.U congrats on triple digits 
@Englishd happy anniversary 
enjoy your trip
@wahtisnormal congrats on 80 days
@HolySquid ugh, I’m sorry about that parent, I can relate from my previous role in children’s homes 
loving the Yap Yap updates though 
@JamesOnTheMend welcome back congrats on 2 days
1422 days no alcohol.
887 days no cocaine.
402 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
Checking-in with yesterday’s numbers…
Yesterday I was still so fatigued so I didn’t do much at all. I read half a chapter, and caught-up on some meditations. Then I fell asleep really early around 8pm. Prince woke me up at 23:30, I was awake until 3am, then he woke me up again at 6am. Cats
Today I need to do a cleaning blitz incase anyone does want to come to see me for my birthday tomorrow, it’s quite unlikely, but just incase.
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Noted
Girl this is amazing!!! So excited for you and happy to see you here stacking up the days 
You are a rockstar Jules…hope today is a much better day for you
Great to see you checking in friend and glad to hear that you are still on the sober track. How cool to know your son is noticing your life path and is proud.
I do hope you get some down time and can relax. Too many crazy work days can burn us out… remember to practice self care.
Thanks friend. Hoping today’s appointment goes well. Not much we can do for meds (my body rejects em and the side effects cause more issues so I’m just gonna ride this out). So far no sniffles or runny nose so today may be a good day).
I’m gonna go chat with Mom today and patch things up. We both needed a day to reflect yesterday. I was looking forward to celebrating yours and hers birthday tomorrow. Know I will be with you in spirit.
Much love dear friend.
I’m here I’m alive I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 126.
Changed my breakfast banana to pineapple canned in it’s own juice. Low calorie High nutrition content. Can’t eat fresh pineapple because I always react to that.
Not really bothered about the sugar content either, I need something sweet in the morning and I’m going to stick with that.
Had my morning tea outside,garden is a mess, the gardener won’t come back until a few weeks because he is on vacation in Vietnam.
But at least we have a plan.
Weather is supposed to turn in to rain any minute so I’ve got a plan of fixing some things inside this afternoon.
Besides that I had a walk to the store to buy some veggies, and have been trying to stay outside as much as possible. Good thing with rain is that no one requires you to do garden work. But in my opinion we’re getting way to much rain here as it it’s 
That’s all Folks, wishing you all a wonderful day 
Day 124
Good morning family
Feeling better- need to watch my heat exposure! I am dehydrated still. Makes me feel weird. Lots of water today and less time out in the 100s. I’ll go from one air-conditioned enclosure to another. Summer is much better than last year, so I’ve been outside more. Easy to get dehydrated. 
Can’t stand to be indoors but don’t want to pass out…haha
Watching that Beryl. She appears to want to give us some stormy weather. I’m a weather geek so this is fascinating. So glad I’m inland a ways. I’m preparing just a bit. We can get some flooding and wind from outer bands, but nothing major. The sky is so cool with the spiral bands. 
All the people vacationing at South Padre might want to skat soon.
Reading and domestic stuff today. And water
Have a great sober day
Banana used to be one of few fruits and vegetables I actually could eat.
But it’s okey, I’m used to it
It’s always been easier to make a list of things I can eat, instead of the opposite.
Checking in day 107.
Hope everyones having a great week.
Day 53
Thank you for everyone’s well wishes for my Dad. I’ll be traveling to go see him. It’s a toxic environment at his home so I am making arrangements to stay elsewhere. A lot of bad things happened to me from that family.
Hope everyone has a successful journey today.
Hey all, checking in on day 1480. I hope everybody has a good one 
Day 231. Had a good workout yesterday and then a nice bike ride. Got my buddy to go over to the gym with me that just moved from the half way house, and another guy that moved from the half way house came as well. They didnt stay very long but it was still cool. I was disappointed in my buddy a little bit bc he literally just moved from the half way house to where we are, he never left the half way house and lived there for two years. Yesterday him and the other guy got high smoking pot, so to me he just threw away his 2 years of sobriety. His d.o.c was something else, but still 2 years of doing nothing and not even two days in the new place your getting high. I kept my mouth shut and will keep it shut. I certainly have no place to judge. But today is a good day much love everyone
Hey all,
Fweling emotionally ick and my anxiety is up these past few weeks. I by chance (reading parenting things) came across an article about having gifted children, and it was interestinf for me to read. I dont live completely under a rock, but how I didnt know there would be lit about that is beyond me. I just thought i was an alcoholic introvert with anxiety. Still learning more about myself each day.
But it is too much of me lately; and this is the issue. Im alone often or working in the house and my brain tends to wander. I am questioning the difference between being empowered and entitled, being hurt and being a victim, being gracious and being a door mat. And the role of expectations in my life.
How I talk a lot, and I need to learn to ask more questions.
How needing to ve selfish sometimes can swing out of balance. And needs to be adjusted.
How I need to get out of myself a bit more now.
I have a tendency to believe rules do not apply to me. This can be a good thing, it also has a negative side and its understanding how this can effect others.
I tend to dominate conversations with those I love talking to.
I also tend to shame myself when I feel low about my defects, and shame myself over mistakes then react with guilt.
Time to work through these defects of ccharacter and make small steps. Steps forward, man did I ever think Id have it all figured out by now.
Easy does it. Xo.
2y4m20d
Woke up feeling much more rested than yesterday. I went to the gym to do some cardio. Didnt have enough time for weights so will do that tmrw. Today my son has an appt here at the home and then I have to make a few phone calls regarding when his upcoming MRI is. He has missed 2 scheduled MRIs bcuz he was unwell. So im getting anxious to see how his brain tumor is doing. Its been like 8 months since his last one. I want to make sure that its stable. Not much else on the agenda today. Want to add in some prayer and some gratitude also. Thats about it. Have a great Wednesday everyone! 
Morning all! I hope everyone has a great day .
Today is my Friday now if we could get little man back on a sleep schedule we will be able to get some rest 
I’ll be back later tonight
Just checking in on day 357. Started a 10 day countdown to one year milestone two days ago, so. 
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