@jeanine Sorry to hear about your dad. Hope the PT does help and that he continues to recover 
Great work on your 50+ days of sobriety 
@soberwalker Love the pic and your vacation sounds relaxing and lovely – glad you are getting this time to unwind.
@juli1 Speak to us Jules – what’s going on? I’m sorry that you are dealing with dark thoughts – sending light and positivity your way 
Planted a flower in your soul :flower: I LOVE THIS! Nourish it and feed it my friend – it will blossom. Hope you enjoyed the lanes 
Ah hell that sucks about the therapy. Don’t give up — something will work and help. The 155 days may be playing a cruel trick on your mind. Just because you relapsed here last time does not mean that you need to repeat that – you are stronger this time around. You have more tools and support. Your surroundings are different and better – new place to live, new job no more pool guy… keep at it friend – you are doing amazingly well 
@elyse Great job on seeing temptation and preparing for it with healthy routines. We do always have to be vigilant of our addiction but it does get easier and we get stronger with our tools and habits. 189 days and going strong
@alycia 825 days is mighty impressive! Glad that you are here vocalizing your thoughts. They can be sneaky and take root of our minds. You are kicking ass with sobriety and hitting personal bests – this is possible with your new healthy sober lifestyle. No good comes from that poison. Here for you friend – keep kicking ass and stacking up the days
@acromouse Love that attitude – already winners indeed! Oh what a concept – the birthday person makes their own cake? Huh – I can get behind that LOL – as long as there is cake 
Hope she has a wonderful birthday 
@chase.e.u CONGRATS on your triple digits!! WOW that is some serious reflections. I know that I am working on myself and my pre-judgements of others. I do find it helps thinking of the people we meet as those I speak to daily here. As this site is anonymous – anyone I meet in real life could be a member here and I then try to remind myself of all the chaos and pain that’s behind the daily masks – this helps me be kinder to others (even mentally and not pre-judge). Keep working your recovery friend – you are doing great!
@mrsodh OH NO! I know how much you love your banana’s and I’m sorry your body is rejecting them. I do hope that this is temporary.
@wahtisnormal Hope your day has gotten better and easier love. 80 days is amazing!!! 3 months is just around the corner – keep stacking up the days Zoe
@danwood85 Hows it going Dan? Hope you are just keeping super busy – miss seeing your check ins friend.
@laner you are most welcome friend. Glad that you were able to be gentle with yourself and skirt the urges. Yeah to day 90 tomorrow – keep strong! Healing and recovery are painful but also very rewarding.
@zse WOW I had forgotten that this was a new job. 100 days eh? Yeah you are so much better off being away from them. Hope you and your boy have a wonderful relaxing evening!
@bomdhil thanks friend – you are sweet! Yeah day 4! Yes to sleeping – I did need a LOT of sleep to help me get through the initial stages of sobriety. Glad you are listening to your body.
@Refreshedperspective Glad you have someone to talk to and are getting good advice. Making progress towards your mental and physical health is an amazing start – keep it going friend! 11 days and going strong
Checking in on Tuesday evening
Did get a nice walk and swim in this morning and then the day turned on me. Allergies hit hard an i’m still suffering. Really have drained all my energy and making me so loopy / fuzzy (not even taking anything for them as i antihistamines no longer work on me). Got in a fight with my mom today too so that put a lovely damper on the day.
Emotional and exhausted but not going to drink / smoke. I had a few thoughts and “fuck it” moments but then realized thats not gonna solve anything and i really can’t afford to go backwards. ODAAT!
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening! Sending you all so much love
Checking in day 183 AF 
Checking on day 356. Sending positive thoughts to all…
Thank you Dana
still 484
Second check-in. I had a mentally draining day. I tried to sort an issue with a parent from my volunteer work. A lot of texting back and forth and making arrangements. He shut down every suggestion I made to solve the issue, suggested something else instead and when I made the arrangement to do it like he suggested it, he found an excuse why he couldn’t do it like that. The last two suggestions he made I made arrangements for, but he just stopped responding. Then a colleague contacted me, they had a message from said parent, asking about the same thing, obviously trying to get a different answer from my colleague. So glad I have a great team and my colleague backed me up in my decisions without questions. But now the parent ghosted them as well and the issue still exists 
So I am pissed off about the behaviour of that parent. Trying to play us volunteers against one another and then ghosting us, when they don’t get their will 
Mini owl update:
yap yap yap yap yap yap yap
My other half calls it Yap Yap… I wonder why?
We love you. Good to know you practice what you preach. You are wise.
Oh that sounds super frustrating. Glad you work with some great folks and that they had your back
Hope the yapping stops soon 
…ear plugs may help? Sending you some peaceful vibes for the evening
Thanks love …love you too.
I’m learning from all those on this site and doing my best to keep my head above water.
Me too.
Currently it feels like I’m a living example of Murphy’s law.
Donald Ducks bad luck doesn’t stand a chance against me
But you know, I know that it’ll make a fun story someday.
Now I’m off to find another fruit a can eat (I’ll soon be out of options I guess)
I’m sorry that you had a hard time with your Ma and your allergies today. I know exactly how that feels. I hope your having a better day tomorrow.
Picking up never helps, and I’m glad you’re still keeping that streak up.
Big hugs from Sweden.
I’m so up and down- it’s like the circus! 
Carnival barker says I can’t miss it! It’s the Greatest. OK, I’m in! This must be the clownish part…hehe
I’m going to get lost in a strange show and sleep early. Just feeling blue. Wake up different. It never fails.
Good night 
Day 2 in the books! Day 3 is when I usually fall off, but I won’t let it happen this time. I got 10,000 steps today. Staying active, staying focused.
1852
Another day of experience work coming up. Feeling calmer this morning. I slept OK. I’m still a work in progress. One day at a time. That will never stop and that is the only way it’s supposed to be. In active addiction there was stagnation, regression, avoidance, disappearance, depression. In recovery there is movement, and most of the times this movement is forward too. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from my little square.
@JamesOnTheMend Success on your third day and every day thereafter James! Stay active, stay focused and stay connected.
503
Real tired day. I tried napping twice while my daughter was at her friends but couldn’t quiet my mind long enough. I did get a call saying I won the door prize from the boutique we were in yesterday, which is a necklace of my choice! I never win anything 
So that was nice. Work was lame and I’m sleepy. 'Night all
Checking in, just wrapping up day 87 sober.
My day has been irritating. Lots of little things just getting under my skin, and plans not working out as they should.
Lucky, I don’t want to drink but I am ready for today to be over.
Just checking in. Having a lot of work this week, but nothing to overwhelming. About to go for a morning run to get some sunshine an me time before the desktime.
Checking in on day 13
Today was super stressful at work I got one problem fixed only to create another so I’ll have to retrace that in the morning. We ended up getting our pool filled now all we have to do is wait for it to warm up. All in all it’s been a pretty good week thank you all for making it worth while
Have a happy Wednesday
… You know what this number means to me
Thanks again for all your caring words 
I have a healing feeling today. Will dig into it by taking things easy, reorganizing and a walk in nature later. Hop on the mat now.
Love you guys
Hey Jazzy, I’ve been missing my check in and keeping up with you guys too. Sorry to hear you had a rough day but good job on resisting the urge…I’ve had a few ‘fuck it’ moments too recently but then I would have so much shit going on, no sober days and feel terrible. I’m so proud of myself and you for doing this. I hope today goes better for you. Thanks for giving me a shout and keeping me on track… promise to check in more 
Hey all, sorry not been keeping up recently. Been busy with work and life but I really do need to prioritise this community. It keeps me on track and I miss you all.
Work is getting to me still. There’s no let up it just keeps rolling. I need to think of something else but not sure what yet. I might get a new phone and take a month off to think about the future. Maybe that’s all I need.
I was sitting with my brother, his wife and my older boy the other day and we were chatting about being sober. My brothers wife said are you not really proud of your dad for doing this? He was like yeah I really am and I could see he really meant it. It means so much to me to be a positive role model to him and the little guy. So much more than having a drink or anything else.
Hope you all have a great day
Day 74 