Good morning everyone. Day 208, havent really done a check in. For the most part things are good, i was supposed to go home this weekend and idk i got hit with a pretty bad little spot of depression i guess? Idk i called in Thursday and friday, which im not upset with myself about. Im off probation and i did it in a timely manner, and i had plenty of pto. I had like a really bad relapse dream again which i really have been having alot of but idk sometimes they feel so real and i just dont move after i have them. I did up my medicine so idk if that possibly had a little part in it. I did try and get myself out of the funk saturdayā¦ things with me and sarah are still good, im not obsessing over anything with her, we communicate well and idk i feel safe atm. Other than that im doing well with not wanting or thinking about drugsā¦ last night i did have a funny haha of something i did while drunk, this one night i was going to a friends house and it was in a complex where every apartment looked the same, i just remember walking in and taking my my shoes off and turning around to this older lady sitting in her chair looking at me saying " who the hell are you"ā¦ i was like oh shit im in the wrong house and she was like yeah you fucking are. I dont even think i put my shoes on i just grabbed them and scooted out the doorā¦ i will say sober i still make some silly ass decisions
Checking in day 84. Have a great day everyone.
Oh that IS funny Mike! Back in the day I waited for over an hour in the wrong house for some friends. Iām glad no one was home 
Itās been a minute since I checked in. Shitās been tough, friends! But I am doing okay, doing better. My husband is on a work trip so Iām home alone for a week and Iām going to make the most of it. Bought more plants for the garden yesterday, I am in search of a couple more. Weāll be doing a container garden this year just for the ease of it, this fall I think Iāll be ready to dig up more turf grass and get real garden beds established for next year. The joys of homeownership. Itās been quite a journey this first year. Iām immensely grateful to have been sober in this journey too.
Sending out some love to my friends here, to all of you. 
Itās good to see you in the check-in thread Rosa!
Thanks friend!!!
Congrats on your sober baby! 9 month is a big milestone. I hope it feels good to you.
Lol i am very fortunate that i live in a area where you dont get a bullet shot at you for stuff like that. Well atleast thenā¦now days my town is very different, lots of people arrested for smuggling high power rifles and hand guns.
Day 101
Thank you for all the shout outs 
. The trips feel great!
Something happened around 90 days, everything shifted. And not in a fresh hell way, the other way. It doesnāt feel like super early sobriety anymore. Itās calmer, steadier. Gaining a little confidence. Iām getting healthier. Iām more comfortable in my own skin because itās actually me, not some weird toxic creatureā¦ And further away from all the accoutrements of that life I had, you know? Iām ready to start a new one. Maybe it will involve traveling. 
. Itās wide open right now and Iām so grateful I got the monster off my back because it kept me down and stuck.
Happy 9 months Julia.
Lots of love, enjoy your days
@Jeanine way to go on recognizing the triggers and keeping focused on the bigger picture. Today is day 30ā¦ Woohoo 1 month milestone 
@PaigeTurner condolences on your loss. The year anniversary can bring up many emotions. Grateful that you are able to work through your feelings. Grateful that you are sober and working on your recovery and I can relate to mourning all the lost time we gave to our addictions. Grateful that we are no longer bound to those chains and have a chance to fully enjoy life on lifeās terms. 
@DanaM56 sorry you woke up in so much pain. Hope you are feeling better today. Just breathe and do what you can with one thing at a time. Wtf indeed on the driving 
ā¦hope all goes well 
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@Just_Laura aah that makes more sense and I agree that he actions lately should account for something. Sorry that you all are having to deal with this. Wow ā¦thatās awesome that your manager listened to the bar manager and is making positive changes within herselfā¦hope it lasts. I too get a funny vibe from your neighborsā¦trust your gut
@Seizetheday glad you enjoyed a fun sober night out. 161 days and going strong
@Mindofsobermike sorry about the dreams and the depression episodes. Glad you were able to take time off for yourself and practice self care. Hopefully it all lifeās soon my friend. That is a funny story 
@rosacando sorry that itās been toughā¦glad that you are doing better. Hope you are able to enjoy planting and gardening 
@JuliaLuna woot woot! Check you out! Way to go with your 8 months of amazing work
Checking in on Monday morning
Grateful for good sound sleep. Still in pain and swollen among all the other symptoms but mentally good. Was able to get my delivery completed and am gonna push myself to go for my morning walk.
Itās gonna be a fabulous weekā¦ wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
Just checking in. 334 days of freedom. Happy Monday all!
Thank you so much 
xx
Day 154 Alcohol free
Day 272 drug free
Day (reset) nicotine free
Checking in. Hope everyone has a wonderful day! We recover ODAAT! 
Way to go on 9 months!
Checking in 104 days sober today
Physical Therapy today after 2 1/2 drive to get there
Drive is always a challenge as I am a sitting target to be told how awful I am and I do nothing good for relationship.
I have prayed and praying before I get into the car to God to bring peace to me mind and environment.
Just not drinking is never enough.
May all you stay strong and have a great day.
Day 36
Meet Jack. We met one night on Halloween at a tattoo party while drinking many Jack and cokes. I had a hole in my jeans and decided to give myself a tat. I have quite a few ādrunk tattoosā on my body. Anytime I wear shorts he tells the world hello. My tats are great conversation starters lol. Happy to be sober today!
Hi Jack. And jbaldwin congrats 36 days
Checking in. 64 days sober. The cravings were strong this weekend but I pushed thru.
Iāll stay sober today too.
67 days-
Iām too tired to write much tonight but all is well.