@butterflymoonwoman Hope your son had a wonderful birthday celebration. I had meant to send a Happy Birthday this morning and realized that it never went through. @Lighter Great work on your triple digits ā just love celebrating this with you @laner Lovely to see you postingā¦ glad you are enjoying your trip ā hope you and your friend enjoy visiting the town. @timetochange Great plan! Stay vigilant and focused friend ā ODAAT! @acromouse WOOT WOOT 200 days no sugar and 50 dairy free! You are crushing it Way to friend ā glad you enjoyed your game night and did not indulge in any of the temptations @just_laura Dang! That is a bs system if I ever did hear of one. WTF is wrong with our system? Iām sorry that your ex is being treated this way ā never heard of them bringing up past felonies for punishment. I would be super frustrated and mad as hell too. All of this can FRO! @seb Glad you saw the bigger picture and protected your sobriety! ODAAT @sussexguy you are most welcome and Iām glad that it gave you a pat on the back. We are here to help each other through this journey ā glad you are with us friend! @vanessa8 AH yes ā way to go on bypassing that craving and surviving another 24 hours sober We do get stronger with each day! @CATMANCAM Big hugs my friend! I am sorry that you are having a hard mental day. Hope that you are able to give yourself some love and care. That you will go to the appointment tomorrow (like you said, it will get you out of the house at least) and hopefully you will be able to be seen. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you Glad the TV show is helping you lift your spirits. Sending laughter and positive energy your way
Checking in on Sunday night
536 days free of alcohol and weed
951 days free of cigarettes
I started off the day with a bang. Got my walk in with my mom and a few small items tackled and did a few workouts. Then i went to a friends daughters graduation party. Was meant to be from 1-4 but with so many friends meeting after many years it ended up being a longer day. I finally had to call it quits when my swelling became too severe and my shoes were causing trouble. Also my stomach pains were super intense and havenāt been this bad since early after surgery. I almost said fuck it and drank tonight but then i remember that it would not help matters any and i have come a long way in the recovery for my health. I am home now and grateful that i didnāt cave. It is 10:24 so iām gonna call it a night and take today as a win
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening ā sending you all so much love
Checking in at the end of day 29. @acromouse Thanks! 4 weeks feels good!
The weekend was amazing. I wasnāt around alcohol and the people I was with werenāt around it either. But, I still had a pretty strong craving yesterday and today. Today being very strong. I think the circumstances and the people I was around triggered me, even though no alcohol was involved, my brain recognized there usually is with this group of people. The salesman came back too, but was only able to get his foot in the door. I played the tape through, focused on the bigger picture, prayed and reminded myself this will pass. And it did. I Fought the fine fight today.
I struggle today. Not with my.recovery but the faxts of all the lost time with loved ones.
Tomorrow marks 1 year since my Dad passed away.
I know he found peace in the fact that all of his daughters were sound, sober and by his side as he passed.
Today thoughā¦it all hit him.
The ridiculous amount of precious time lost to my addiction and old lifestyle.
I know I cant get it back.
I understand Im doing amazing amd reversing all the curses I placed on myself.
The pain of loss is real.
Thankful I know how to cry today.
Thankful I can express myself and process sad feelings in a healthy way today.
Thankful I choose to do this for one more day today.
You are an inspiration! If only I could be so charitable at offering work for free. Seems just working with/for myself is too much at times. Thanks for sharing.
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Just wanted to do a quick check in Birthday party was AMAZING!!! They had so much fun! I feel beyond blessed and grateful for my recovery today. Im heading to bed shortly so wont say too much but wanted to wish everyone a good night. Hope everyone is kicking butt in their recoveries!
Checking 357 AF
Woke in a lot of pain this morning. The stress of my upcoming move and obsessive thoughts of all I need to do before the move. The thought of packing feels daunting.
Didnāt see the grandkids my son and daughter canceled over night. Instead they thought it was a good idea to teach my 11 grandson to drive. WTH! Sometimes I wonder how theyāve made it this far in life and become as successful as they have. Granted it was out in a vacant field. Lord help me!
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Had an easy weekend, hope I had enough rest for this upcoming busy week. To many things planned and that always gives me a bit anxiaty too. Also have to work extra in another store.
Iām very out of my confort zone if Iām working in another store then my own. Canāt find anything and even the tiles are different. And my hearing is still bad, so that will be fun all together
Little problems, I know
@JazzyS I probably worded it wrong. He never got 2 felonies(surprisingly). I did, but got a lighter sentence than him. 3 years probation, tested positive for alcohol twice(one was accidental) with no consequences, and was released early after 1.5 years. Then immediately went back to putting peopleās lives in danger He was sentenced to drug court for petit larceny(misdemeanor) in 2020, tested positive for weed twice and they kicked him out. That violates the condition of his release which means he has to be sentenced all over again. Yeah heās dumb for smoking weed, but he was stealing bc of crack and alcohol, which he hasnāt touched in 4 years. That has to count for something. Anyway, sorry for the long explanation. Iām glad you didnāt cave today Itāll never be worth it.
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Good day at work. My friend, the bar manager, spoke with our manager about how negatively she treats us. Told her if she keeps it up weāll lose all respect for her (some already have). Sheās mostly left us alone the past couple days
My daughter asked my mom if she could play with her friend in our building, so she dropped her off 2 hours before I got home. Idk about these people She was there yesterday and I text the mom to send her home in 5 minutes bc I had to go to work. She said āokayā. 10 minutes later I text āwe gotta get goingā. āOkayā again. 5 more minutes and I walk up there. I could hear talking but it took over a minute to open the door. The dad said the mom was at work and he didnāt even know my daughter was there! Wtf?! When I got home today, they came and played here a while, then went back upstairs. I said she could eat dinner there if she was allowed. If not, come home when they eat. I got her at 8pm and she asked me whatās for dinner. I said āyou didnāt eat?!ā She said they didnāt eat dinner. Her friend said āwe just had a lot of snacksā. Later I asked what kind of snacks and my daughter said they didnāt eat anything at all! Something seems off. Plus they smoke in their apartment with 3 kids I think her friend will only be coming here from now on.
Didnāt mean for such a long post Iām going to bed now. Yay day off! Hope you all have a good one
Day 352. Back at work but I feel really tired this morning. Will weigh up if I can get time off v working.
Was an okay weekend but I found myself needing to sleep in the afternoon which isnāt like me at all. Going to grab a coffee. Look at my work calendar and have a think. I donāt take much time sick as I always worry about having to catch up.
I know what will happen. I will get a coffee. Log on. Remember that Iām on my own if off sick so I find that tediousā¦ So I will end up working
Got the one day off. Itās raining and it will for quite a while. Well, I have enough stuff to do in and close to home. Itās OK. Iām sober and clean. Going to write a bit, even when creative writing class has finished. It did give me an appetite for more. One day at a time as in all.
Have as good a day as you can all. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love.
@CATMANCAM Youāre doing so much positive things for yourself and your mental health. I hope you see that too. Iām seeing much progress my friend. Keep going. @PaigeTurner These days are part of life too. We need to grieve whatās lost. And then pick up the pieces and go on with our lives. We made going on possible for ourselves by being in recovery. Iām grateful youāre here. Hugs.
@Timetochange Hope you feel better soon. @Just_Laura I totally get the off feeling with the other family. I would be concerned too. Especially about the smoking. @SoberWalker I do get the anxiety. We all are sensitive to changes in our daily habits. But sometimes getting out of our comfort zone can give us a new feeling of accomplishment. So I hope you will feel more accomplished than stressed today. @DanaM56 Iām sorry you are in so much stress and pain. Moving is a huge task. Sending you energy and some good vibes. Youāve got it! @Butterflymoonwoman Nice to hear you had such a great party! Sleep tight. @PaigeTurner Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. Hugs and love on a day like this friend @Jeanine Well done on throwing the salesman out. The voice of addiction will find all kinds of situation to get triggered. @JazzyS Well done on getting out of the mind funk of addiction instead of caving. That definitely is a win! @CATMANCAM But you did make a start! You did something about the boxes and you took stuff out. This is literarily doing something. I feel like you might be to hard on yourself friend. And do go for that session. Better trying than not doing anything. @Vanessa8 Well done on beating the cravings. One day at a time
201 sugar
65 UPF
72 gluten
51 dairy
13 overeating
I still find it impossible to register my satiety and hunger signals due to hormones. I hope to get a new dosage of HRT soon.
My daughter woke up in the middle of the night with a really bad migraine. I did not get much sleep tonight, but at least her pain lessened. Letās hope it goes away for good today.
I want to get a new round of prototype work going today. Have an appointment with my doc later in the day to change my meds. My last class this school year with the younger kids is going to be today. We are going to have some fun with video sensing. Doc and school means a bike ride, yeah. Yoga in the afternoon. I also want to read more in the āyoga for addictionā book.
Have a good day of peace, kindness, and freedom friends
Iām ok. I just need to focus on cracking on with the day. Iām off for a few days when itās my sober yearā¦ So Iām looking forward to that. Have a fab day
Day 352. Decided to just get on with it. Working 7-4 today. Iāve got some time off in a couple of weeks. Just need to focus and keep working.
When I get to a year sober I really want to get back to you just focusing on each day rather than adding them up as I think being vigilant and aware I can mess up at any stage is my priority
Way to friend ā glad you enjoyed your game night and did not indulge in any of the temptations 
Glad the TV show is helping you lift your spirits. Sending laughter and positive energy your way 
Birthday party was AMAZING!!! They had so much fun! I feel beyond blessed and grateful for my recovery today. Im heading to bed shortly so wont say too much but wanted to wish everyone a good night. Hope everyone is kicking butt in their recoveries! 
He was sentenced to drug court for petit larceny(misdemeanor) in 2020, tested positive for weed twice and they kicked him out. That violates the condition of his release which means he has to be sentenced all over again. Yeah heās dumb for smoking weed, but he was stealing bc of crack and alcohol, which he hasnāt touched in 4 years. That has to count for something. Anyway, sorry for the long explanation. Iām glad you didnāt cave today 
Itāll never be worth it.
She was there yesterday and I text the mom to send her home in 5 minutes bc I had to go to work. She said āokayā. 10 minutes later I text āwe gotta get goingā. āOkayā again. 5 more minutes and I walk up there. I could hear talking but it took over a minute to open the door. The dad said the mom was at work and he didnāt even know my daughter was there! Wtf?! When I got home today, they came and played here a while, then went back upstairs. I said she could eat dinner there if she was allowed. If not, come home when they eat. I got her at 8pm and she asked me whatās for dinner. I said āyou didnāt eat?!ā She said they didnāt eat dinner. Her friend said āwe just had a lot of snacksā. Later I asked what kind of snacks and my daughter said they didnāt eat anything at all! Something seems off. Plus they smoke in their apartment with 3 kids 
I think her friend will only be coming here from now on.
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