Checking in day 164 AF 
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70 days
Today I was a guest in someones home and really struggled seeing them drinking. It is strange for meā¦previously I would NEVER drink infront of other people. I never would drink with others or accept alcohol in any public place or when a guest in someones home. And it was never a problem to say no but today I struggled to say no. I said no and stuck with it so all ended well.
Iām still not home yet. My friend became ill so we will wait to travel until she is better. I am really feeling out of my routine and a bit out of wack. But Iām doing okay just tired.
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Day 55
Just checking in
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@EmWiz way to go with day 4. Donāt let the sad and angry emotions consume you. Be proud of yourself for getting out of that spiral and healing. Onwards to a healthier sober you! The negative emotions are just your addict mind trying to get you backā¦ stay strong 
@Vanessa8 check you out with 67 days! Thatās impressive work. Knowing you will be tested in the upcoming celebrations, you can prepare ahead of time for the triggers and urges. Keep non alcoholic beverages available for you (Iā like to have one in hand at all times so Iām not asked for a drink). Remember this site is active all the time so reach out if you need. Keep your amazing momentum going
@wahtisnormal awe thanks love. I too enjoy the sound of thunder storms. It was a beautiful start to the day.
@Thirdmonkey way to go Scott. Impressive work on 1 month milestone of no smoking 
@Laner yeah day 70!! Sorry that you struggled today but grateful that you protected your sobriety. Hopefully your friend will feel better soon and youāll be able to return home to your routine 
@SelfLove_42 yeah double 5ās ā¦ great work
Evening check in
Not an active day ā¦not doing well so listening to my body and sleeping / relaxing Grateful the muggy air has cooled off.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ eveningā¦ sending you all so much love 
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Have you got quotes from other insurance agencies?
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I havenāt but I could do that. I have a loyalty discount I would lose since Iāve been with my insurance agency for so long. I also have a ticket on my record right now. 
Definitely worth asking around.
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Thatās a really cool catch 
. Keep stacking up the days
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Awesome! Congrats
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I made it to 5 years clean of self harm!
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Congratulations. I am thrilled for you.
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Checking in 107. Real busy today. That always makes āhubby happyā. He even told me once today to sit down and put my feet up. Headed to dinner at daughterās and I get some week old kitten Funtime.
I caught up on all the great posts here. New goal is to make a summary of recognitions in future posts like our seasoned warriors do here.
Have a wonderful sober night.
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Its been a decent day but my mind just doesnāt want to stop. For some reason im replaying alot of past events in my head, especially regarding my past work as a sex trade worker. Idk what brought this all up. Im not overly distressed by it bcuz i know im not there anymore, but its still a bit disturbing. On the other hand tho, i can see how I have gone thru a huge transformation over the years. Im honestly pretty surprised that I survived what I have. Thats how I know there is a HP who kept me alive, bcuz left to my own devices, I would have been dead for sure. I honestly am also baffled that I am where I am today, clean and sober, living life and actually enjoying it for the most part. Its mind-blowing for sure.
Today I went to the gym for a good workout. I started the fondant cupcake toppers for my order next week. And i cleaned the apartment. Made supper and am looking forward to a nice shower later. Hope everyone is enjoying their day addiction free. Much love to my TS fam 
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Congratulations on day 4. I feel what your saying as far as not much support in life. I to have always felt like i didnt belong. Until i started attending NA i dont know your history or doc but i will tell you i felt welcome as soon as i stepped foot in the meetings. I have made some great friends who actually care about my recovery. I still feel like an outsider a little bit because most of these people have been friends for years and I am the new guy, but it is getting better. So maybe thats an option for you. Hope this helps a little
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2nd check in. Had a good day with my daughter and son-in law. Nothing real eventful, just a very pleasant day.
Good night all.
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Day 81. Things are going well. I met with my sponsor for an hr today and went over some of my step 1. I brought up a situation i have never spoke aloud about. That was the night i was going to end my own life. It felt good to get it out as hard as it was for me to talk about. That was my lowest point in life. Talking about it brought up some emotions and i am kind of struggling tonight. It dont help that my fiance isnt here and wont be for probably at least another 6 or 7 months. So on top of those emotions i am lonely to.
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I met with my sponsor tonight and said these exact words. Then i read your postand thought see i aint the only one.
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Ended up being a pretty good day. Iāve realized to cut myself some slack bc thereās only so many hours in the day to get things done, even when Iām still motivated to keep going. Gotta stop and wind down in the end. Big weekend ahead. Hope you all have a good one!
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My three day weekend is here. Therapy session this morning, Iām feeling slightly anxious for it, some serious stuff to tackle in the coming sessions I feel. Stuff from my adolescence, when I started hiding in huge cloud of weed smoke, my sexual development, social relations and my intellectual growth all thwarted and stunted by that cloud. And only now some true growth occurs within me. My journey of discovery continues. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. I will. Love from the
to Utrecht.
@Laner Youāre going from strength to strength friend. You planned your trip so well, with sobriety and recovery in mind. Now something unexpected happened and you had to adjust. And youāre still keeping your sobriety intact. Only logical you experienced some craving. You made it though them though. As you will again when needed. Keep going. Youāre doing fantastic.
@kait Huge congrats Kait! Thatās so great!
@Seb Nice one Sebastian. Congrats.
@KarenKW Glad to see you checking in again Karen, and back on track. Letās do this.
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Check-in Day 4
At office today having a black coffee. Starting holidays from tomorrow until Wednesday (4 days). Iām planning AA Meetings, i want to stay away from parties because i donāt want fall down again.
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