That’s an awesome milestone Kaitlynn!
Congratulations 
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Thinking about the “what if’s” and making your own plan how to deal with difficult situations will deffinitely help. Holidays are difficult because of the link with alcohol is strong and it’s easier to think: I deserve one.
I hope you will have a great sober holiday Sarath!
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*Day 2095 
It wasn’t an easy day yesterday, but I survived as predicted. But ended up very tired so we prosponed our eating out so I could crash on the coutch.
Today? Last meeting with my coach soon to be ex-coach to evaluate. Then work and tonight a catch up with a friend for a talk and a movie.
Have a good day ore night all 
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Day 356.off today. I’ve got two on line interviews later for a course I want to do. One is in a group and one is with a lecturer. I’ve not told people I’ve got an interview in case I either don’t get on or it’s not for me.
I’m late on in my career so it’s not something which will help me with promotion. I’m happy in my role. I don’t need more. I do tho think it could make me better at what I do and able to offer my skills to the wider system.
Anyways we will see. Weather is shocking again… Good for the plants but bad for all the local shops who have had a rubbish season up to now.
Feeling a bit tired. Got a week off from next Friday so I’m hoping to relax, explore and enjoy being outside.
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Day 28 today feeling great! 
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195 days
Took it easy today. Went out and got a gift for my daughters birthday next week.
Was a lot of rain today, hopefully thats the worst of it, needing good weather for tomorrow.
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Day 517.
Well… today I’m 18 months sober, which is really difficult to grasp. There was a time when I couldn’t imagine life without my nightly bottle of wine. Sure, some nights one bottle would turn into 10 + 3gs of coke (my dealer had a “deal” for getting 3 and it somehow made sense in my little head. I actually thought I was saving money by buying more of the poison 
).
I spent the better part of 20s and early 30s walking around with a death wish and thinking there was no light. No joy. No way out. I was beyond saving. Beyond love. Beyond redemption. I was a walking ghost with nothing left to offer but misery for whatever soul unfortunate enough to cross my path.
And now… I’m here. My head is clear. I’m sober and I don’t drink. No matter what, alcohol is never an option. Things are far from perfect, but they’re not supposed to be. I’m just supposed to keep making the best of each day. Some days are better than others, sure. But every single morning I get to wake up fully remembering going to bed the night before. That’s fucking priceless and something I’ll never take for granded.
Thank you for being a part of my journey. I love you guys. 
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@Amy30 Congratulations on one and a half year. 18 months! Unbelievable. 
Yeah! Many thanks for sharing about your journey. I am very glad you found your way out of the darkness into the mixed weather of reality. Good to have you here friend.
@MrFantastik I hope your health is improving and sending you lots of sunshine for tomorrow. I don’t need it tomorrow so it can go and do its work on your side of the planet 
@FalloutSign Congrats on four weeks! 
Great work!
@Timetochange Good luck with your interviews. 
And even if they don’t turn out the way you want them, it sounds like you already want something more skills wise. Opportunities will show up.
@SoberWalker Enjoy your evening and so many thanks for the image. It brightens my day 
@s_unrelax Good idea to have a solid plan for your holidays. You might want to make an emergency plan in case you feel like using.
@Mno I hope your session will bring more clarity for you. Do something nice afterwards. Reward yourself for all the hard work.
@CHASE.E.U Hugs for you friend 
. Sounds like it’s time for self care. Something nice and soothing for yourself. What do you enjoy doing? What relaxes you? Maybe meeting a friend? Or a game? Spa? A bath? A walk. Some hobby. You have done something very courageous. Give yourself a nice, caring reward.
@Butterflymoonwoman Sometimes your mind will replay difficult stuff from your past because you are ready to get a new perspective on the topic. Our memories are not something we remember as things happened, but stories we construct anew every time we ponder on them. So maybe your mind thinks that you are ready to find a new way to relate to these parts of yourself. After all we construct our Selfs continuously. Thanks for sharing.
@tailee17 Nice to hear you got some caring words in your relationship. Keep on healing 
205 sugar
69 UPF
76 gluten
55 dairy
17 overeating
I finally have gotten a full night’s sleep without waking up and no panic, anxiety either. What a blissful state And I had the wildest dreams of using and having to reset my counters here on TS. The silliest stuff really.
Today is going to be the last day of work on my paper prototype. Just wrapping stuff up, checking for loose ends. I’ll continue with digital prototyping after my vacation.
I’m planning on finishing our preparations for our upcoming trips: my daughter’s to the UK and mine to Rotterdam.
In the evening we are going to meet friends for games and a playdate. One of the few occasions where I actually need a car.
Somewhere in between I want to squeeze a walk and some yoga. And that is going to be it for today.
Let us try to keep peace today, a kind outlook on to life, and enjoy freedom friends 
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@Amy30 your posts are always inspirational, and congrats to quite a significant achievement. And I can absolutely relate to those feelings of desperation, depression, kind of isolation from everything and from your true yourself back then. That’s past, and now, for recent 18 months, you have been on a path of a progress to live your life under your control.
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Chin chin, checking in 
Feeling better than yesterday, well better than last 7 or 8 days after previous 7 days of being sober and fall again into trap of active addiction. 24 hours of being sober as of this morning, night started with some kind of a tension in my head despite doing a meditation before in bed, took me like an hour+ to fall asleep (of course it started with horror dream, but woke up quite early and then other dreams that came were ok). Slept well overally, which counts! Guys, do you dream a lot? I have like 2 to 3 dreams a night, but I remember them only if I don’t drink. My daughter inherited this from me, when she wants to tell me her dream, she must first send me an hour long invitation into my calendar, literally
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Congratulations Amy. You are an inspiration
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XI
So few months ago got this new truck. 4 axis. 316 kW. One of the softest I ever had. Feels like a ship. So in a way I am captain Z now 
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Day 161 AF,
Chugga chugga choo choo
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Day 105
Feeling sick and fatigued today. Did not sleep much. Cold sweats and adrenaline all night. I’ve been doing so much better. Think I overdid it. Health wasn’t too good going into recovery and I’m still trying to get better.
Sober rest day. Tomorrow will be better.
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There you are girl. Here we are. Thanks for being here and sharing your journey. Love it and love you. Huge congrats.
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Congratulations @Amy30 !! Soooooo happy for you! You changed your life around! Big congrats and hugs!
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Congratulations Capt Z.
It’s nice to have you back posting!
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Checking in on a early day
401 no alcohol
332no vapes or ciggs (41 no form of nicotine)
30hours no form of pot
Got.my drivers licence the other day. Feels good to have that.
This past pot relaps cant happen again
I simply cant handle being told no dont do it right now if i think i want to. Its either 100% on pothead junky or 100%off, normal life
Im at work waiting to clock in
Be back in a few
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Happy Friday!
Day 6
Woke up with a bad headache but it’s slowly getting better. Now just need to survive the work day.
I’m glad to be back here!
OFDAAT
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@wahtisnormal congrats on 60 days I’m glad you’re in therapy 🩵
@Mischa84 congrats on qualifying and getting a place on the course 
@Thirdmonkey congrats on 30 days tobacco free
@Laner congrats on 70 days I hope you mamaged to get some rest 
@Seb cool catch 
congrats
@KaitlynnRager congrats on 5 years free from SH
@CHASE.E.U sending strength 🩵
@Timetochange good luck for your interviews 
@Amy30 great share my ex dealer used to have a deal for 3 bags too, and I believed every single time that I was savimg money because I’d “make it last 3 days” 
, which never ever happened, it was gone in 3hrs. We are not in that place anymore, and I never take it for granted either 🩵 congrats on 18 months
@acromouse enjoy games night
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