Checking in day 173 AF 
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Day 85 here.
Alright, gonna have to try something to get a handle on smoking cigs. Itās burning holes into my finances and into my lungs.
Going to go smoke free for tomorrow, canāt really stand the smell anymore. Got some nicotine replacement and home I havenāt touched since 2022 so I donāt have to āworryā about nic.
Want to add more days as time goes by.
Still not at the point where I donāt like it anymore. Iāll smoke at work for certain.
I donāt know maybe Iām just rambling but it feels like I can at least try to get a hold on this.
Otherwise doing good with sobriety when it comes to alcohol.
Here is a picture of a closed reststop, not creative I know but it brings comfort. 
Goodnight and see you tomorrow people.
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Day 220. Went out for a walk and girls rode there bikes. Didnt go crazy far, eh not much to say today much love. Hope everyone has a good day
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Hi Jonas,
So happy to hear youāre ready. Nicotine is a tough one. Went along with drinking, for sure
Iām a former smoker. I switched to vaping. Not sure if that was a good idea but it was less stinky. And I quit that too, in January. I loved vaping a bit too much! I could vape anywhere, so I didā¦especially in the car. After a couple months my chest was hurting. So I went with the gum for a month, then nothing. I think I would have just skipped the vaping part and gone straight to gum if I was going to do it again. It was kinda like I prolonged the whole thing. But others were very disciplined with it. I just loved to blast away on the vape pen with the strong nicotine juice. It was too easy. 
I was actually increasing my intake. But I didnāt have to smell anymore!
Do you have a quit date in mind? I believe thereās a grumpy a holes quit smoking support thread on here somewhere. 
. I sure was grumpy for a while too. But now I can breatheā¦
Hugs and support to you, friend! 
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Hi, yeah I used to vape for a while but I very much prefer classic cigarettes. 
I donāt have a solid quit date in mind. Honestly I just want to test the waters how itād be like to be a non-smoker 
The commitment isnāt there yet but Iāll try to move myself into that direction.
The longest Iāve gone without cigarettes was 9 days when I was 16 years old.
Of course I rewarded myself with smoking afterwards
I checked this thread out a while ago, still lurk there from time to time.
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@CHASE.E.U congrats on 90 days 
@GOKU2019 sending strength š©µ stay connected
1412 days no alcohol.
877 days no cocaine.
392 days no vape.
8 days no binge-eating.
Today I caught-up here first.
Then I watered, repotted, and topped-up with fresh compost, my plants. Two of my newest baby ones were sadly no longer alive. The rest stand a chance now.
Then, I walked to the fitness centre and spoke to the membership person. I explained what had happened and why I hadnāt been for such a long time, and asked to see the seperate room. We went into the male changing room, and it was a door you need a radar key for (I have my own), but it wouldnāt unlock, with their key, nor mine. He knocked a few times but there was no response, so unfortunately, I didnāt get to see inside it, but I learned that Iād still have to use the same showers and walk into the main changing area to put my stuff in a locker, so really, it doesnāt make much difference than using one of the two small cubicles in the corners. Which is what I was walking out of when I received the abuse from the two men. He asked me if I wanted to wait in there for him whilst he asked a female member of staff to try to access the room from the ladies changing room, but I said no, I did not feel safe in there AT ALL. I was still going to join, but instead, he offered me 2 complimentary passes to use at my leisure, to assess how I feel before committing to a contract. I thought this was a great idea, so I accepted them. The pool looked so quiet, calming, and inviting, I wished Iād taken my swimming stuff with me, I nearly did, but nevermind, maybe tomorrow.
I also finally cleaned my bathroom sink. It was horrifying (even for me), so I covered it in bleach and left it for an hour, then went back to clean it, it is now the cleanest it has ever been.
Itās strange how Iām always putting so much pressure on myself but never managing to do anything, but today, and the other day I said in my check-in that I wasnāt ācommitting to anything at allā, Iāve had more achievements. I need to back-off myself a bit, (or a lot).
I didnāt finish the chapter I was trying to read yesterday, but I have done 3hrs of educational reading, about the therapy I am now waiting to have again.
Thought Iād do todayās check-in today, its now 00:30am Sunday, so I almost got there.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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Checking back in. Iām very isolated, which is why I post so much. Seeing my nice ex-colleagues yesterday was good, but it rattled me. Brings up a lot of stuff. Iāll keep those associations to a minimum for now. I need the social contact but not really the old job type. Iāll see them every couple months, maybe, not on the regular. There are other people I can hang out with.
So strange how my personality changed now that Iām sober. Iām actually an ambivert, but get way more introverted when drinking. Youād almost think sober would mean serious, like pale skin, silence, sadness and endless weeks of painful atonement on an incredibly uncomfortable prayer rug. Not so! . Itās actually pretty lively and interesting being sober. You really pick up on a lot more and have better interactions with people. Alcohol brought the anxiety and self-consciousness, oddly enough. It made me want to run off with the other drunks and avoid āthe peopleā. Them . I truly felt apart. Itās not what alcohol marketing would tell you. The glossy alcohol ads donāt show that. They kind of depict long-term sobriety, if anything!
Iām feeling less lonely now. Thanks so much for listening.
Lots of love 
. Thank you
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Tomorrow Iām a week sober woo! I am SO so tired 
and really cranky my poor son Iāve had to apologize to him a few times today 
Iāve been trying to be on go but today I am just allowing myself to rest. Still made sure to take some vitamins and supplements though and made eggs for myself for some protein. Itās not much but itās something. Also went and got more drinks for my fridge so now I have some poppi, Gatorade, and a few different types of hydrating and replenishing types of drinks. 
also got some protein granola bars. I was going to get some more chocolate so I got some peanut butter chocolate ones to satisfy that craving but also get something better for me lol.
Thankful for another day sober.
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@lainenicole96 Grate to see you back at it and wonderful job on day 5! Sorry the early days are so intense. I do think it gets harder to get through the initial stages as we relapse and this is what we have to remind ourselves of this when we feel the urges to drink or think we have the addiction licked or that we can moderate. You are here and doing great! Keep at it friend ā we are here to support you on your journey 
@jeanine Way to go on your 40 + days! Keep going strong friend ā great work on getting back to the gym 
Sorry yesterday was so tough and grateful you were able to push past the triggers. ODAAT!
@s_unrelax Congrats on your double digits! Do you have plans for the weekend? You can stay strong if you are prepared for it. Remember that we are here for you and you are not alone . Congrats on getting back to the gym ā keep up the healthier routines.
@soberwalker Oh I love that you went to a dance club ā how was it? Hope you had a fabulous time 
I love that you had such a good night and enjoyed yourself!
WOW what a interesting celebration. I did love the flowers in your hair and love that you shared this with us
@maestro Nicely done on your 600 days friend - that is fantastic work. Keep it going strong friend
@dresdenlapage Great to see you checking in and wonderful job on your 8 months of sobriety. Grateful to see you doing so well friend ā keep the momentum going
@butterflymoonwoman SO sorry love. I know how frustrating it is when you are doing everything right and not seeing the results. Donāt give up or give in. I recently got the ability to start moving again and started some activities to increase my heartrate. For the first month I kept gaining weight. It was horrible cause I was doing intermittent fasting, calorie deficit and being active and I was swollen and gaining weight. I am so grateful that I had the opposite fuck it attitude and kept at it. I am now closing in on the weight I started with. It is good to see the numbers go down LOL. We just have to have hope and keep doing our best. At the end of the day we know we are doing all the right things and they do end up reaping rewards. Much love my friend GIRL those are amazing cupcakes ā you are super talented. Sure everyone really loved them 
@juli1 CONGRATS on your new job Jules! Such an amazing opportunity ā love this for you! Smart to acknowledge the thoughts and deal with them in a healthy manner. You are kicking ass with 144 days girl and remember that alcohol only brings empty promises.
@lisa-b Great work on your timers. I too find it super crazy that you have to be IDās to buy NA drinks with 0% alcohol. I stopped carrying my ID into the grocery store to avoid being able to guy drinks but then I was frustrated that I couldnāt even buy the NA drinks. I totally agree with you on the placement of the drinks tooā¦ so weird that they would place them among the alcoholic beverages. Hope you get a positive outcome from your letter
@lefty624 Welcome to the community and the check in thread Lance. Stay connected with us here friend ā we are stronger together
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@acromouse Congrats on your 7 months AGA of no sugar! That is remarkable hope you and your family enjoy Geburtstagskaffee tomorrow
@wahtisnormal Glad you are enjoying the festival so far. Sorry for all the emotions. I do hope you are able to get some sleep and awake with a lighter and happier heart. Much love my friend
@chevy55 Great to see you checking in Nick. WOW ā congrats on your new position ā glad you have a trial period to figure out if it is a good fit. Keep working your sobriety friend. So happy to see you excelling!
@catmancam Thanks Cam! Congrats on your 1 week of no binge eating! Sorry that you are feeling such anxiety and sending you comforting hugs my friend. I do think its BS to be weighed at every appointment. ODAAT my friend ā keep working on your recovery and sending you strength and loads of love Great work on getting to the gym. Iām sorry the separate room didnāt pan out to be much of a separation. Glad that they offered a few passes for you to get a feel. I am so sorry that those members made you feel that way Cam. Hope you donāt ever have to see them again.
OMG Scott ā I LOVE THIS! So very sweet and made my heart smile
@chase.e.u Congrats on your 3 months friend. You are doing amazing work Chase ā keep it going friend ā ODAAT
@stand_like_an_oak It is a huge accomplishment friendā25 days is impressive work an you can totally keep the days rolling in
@goku2019 Great to see you checking in friend. 980 days AF is impressive work. Sorry to hear about the loss. Sorry you are struggling. Not sure what is causing the triggers / urges. Smart to buckle down with your tools and remind yourself of what you were like on day 1. We tend to forget how awful those days were and think we have this addiction beat. You are doing great friend ā stay connected and vigilant
@kareness Hope you enjoyed your day with your mom. Great news on getting better quotes
@jonase Yeah 85 days and working on starting your day 1 of no smoking. I did start with nicotine gum a hypnosis app to help me kick the habit. Still keep the gum on hand in case I need it but luckily I havenāt needed it in over a year. Join us on the Grumpy smokers thread ā great advice and support there. Lets start your day 1 tomorrow and see how you can stack up the days
Checking in on Saturday night
549 days free of alcohol and weed
964 days free of cigarettes
Celebrated my 18 months of sobriety yesterday with a little more intensity in my morning activities. Had a lovely coffee / tea date with a neighbor for an afternoon yesterday but it was too much socializing and i still am not ready for it. Not sure why but i ended up with a migraine and feeling super ill all day / night. Glad I am better today. My sis came to visit and it was lovely seeing her for a bit. Grateful to be caught up on my Gratitude and check in threads today. About to be 10 soon so gonna get ready to call it a day LOL.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening ā sending you all so much love
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Thank you so much you are awesome and congratulations on 18 months keep it up.
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Appreciate you Chase - so sweet! Thanks friend.
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Checking in at the end of dat 42.
Not much going on. Hope all is well in your neck of the woods.
@JazzyS @CATMANCAM thanks! It feels good to be in the forties. Going back to the gym has been a definite boost. So need the endorphins it produces.
Good night
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Checking in at the end of day 3. it seems like working helps keep my mind motivated and focused, any time I feel the urge for one I come on and read. Iām thankful for all of you, have a happy Sunday morning everyone.
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2nd check-in today.
Just finishing day 77 alcohol-free. Went to a concert in the park with tons of alcohol being sold and tons of people drinking. It wasnāt too hard but a challenge nonetheless. Iām going to bed tonight sober.
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A working Sunday. Thatās fine. I get to start an hour later as the trains donāt run any earlier on Sunday. And the pay is better. So letās do it. Sober and clean. Have as good day as you all can friends. Make it clear and sober or nothing will come of it. Love.
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I have never heard that term before 
but it describes me perfectly! I really do enjoy socializing sober now, but too much of it without any alone time to recharge and Iām shot. I was really shy in highschool, and initially alcohol made me more outgoing and āfunā. But as the disease progressed, I ended up wanting to be alone and hid my drinking from everyone. Becoming sober felt like such a relief bc I didnāt have anything to hide anymore. Makes me feel free
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The humidity was suffocating today. When I was pulling up to work, I actually thought there was a fire in the kitchen bc there was so much smoke coming out of the exhaust fans. They were just prepping food for 2 parties and had every oven on. It had to be 120Ā° in there. With the added smokiness, I could hardly breathe when I had to go in for food. I felt so bad for the kitchen staff. My coworker noticed my breathing and offered me her inhaler, which helped instantly. When I was initially diagnosed with COPD 10 years ago and albuterol increased my lung function during tests, my doctor didnāt want to prescribe it and told me to workout more, which I already was working out alot. I think itās time to revisit that option for instances like today.
Anyway, work in the am. Iām praying for rain 
which would mean a slow day. After, Iāll have 48 hours off! Whoo hoo
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āGeburtstagcaffeeā, so itās your birthday? Ore your daughters? Congratulations if so! Also congratulations for the 7 months sugar free, thatās massive! 
@CHASE.E.U a late congratulations for the 3 months sober milestone. That was my biggest hurdle to get. My most relapses where around them After that life went easier, sober life went easier, at least for me. Again: congratulations!! 
Did you survive your dentist appointment @GOKU2019 ? 
Hope you feel a bit better today? Sorry about the mental turmoil and cravings. Maybe try to see it as a warning and give yourself some extra care and softness? Maybe a hot bath while listen to a recoverypodcast ore read a recovery book. Just to help you to reset your mind a bit??
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*Day 2104 
My muscles are very tired from training, work and the dancing night. So I decided to take a day of rest today. I skipped my crossfittraing today, a good decision I think.
Yesterday was busy too because of work and my Iranian friend and her husband went to see us.
It was nice and I think they liked it too.
They got me a nice Calla plant, and because I have no recent walking pictures to showā¦here it is
Today? A walk and some house chores. Tonight dinner with my brother and his wife.
Have a good day ore night all
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day 622
another hot day here in the mid 90s (35Ā°C) its been hard to get through the day without feeling rough, but im hanging in there 
looking forward to a cooler couple of evenings in the next week
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