It’s addiction that is causing you to fear sobriety. Do not look at sobriety as the big picture right now, it’s too daunting. I’m in early days too, and all I want to do is get out of withdrawal and dependency stages for now. I’ve no intention of going back to drinking, I’m just taking my fences one at a time.
You need to do the same. Just handle one day at a time. Get up each day, and say ‘today I am going to stay sober’, and mean it. Use whatever sober tools you have to make that a reality. Every day is different, but keep up the consistency of checking in here to keep yourself accountable. Some days, I’m okay. Other days really test me, I had one of them recently. The wonderful people in this community came through for me and were able to get me to refocus. Drinking only delays pain and stress, and when it comes back you can add guilt and shame after drinking.
Hang in there, we are here for you. There are better days ahead
@binx
Happy birthday beautiful . I know you are dealing with a lot these days. I do hope you find time to celebrate how amazing you are today. Remember you are not alone . Wishing you a day filled with love
Awh thanks Jasmine! I don’t know how you keep up with us all! You’re such a thoughtful person
The only thing I wish for today is a closing date for this sodding house!! I don’t do cake, but my 7yr old daughter has insisted that there should be cake, so we will do that a little later. Maybe a takeout this evening, totally write off today diet wise
Day 149
We had some chemical explosions and huge fire 5 minutes from my workplace today which was quite unsettling. Thankfully no one was killed at that worksite.
Day 382.on call again for work so thafs me working pretty much till tomorrow morning… A few meetings this pm and I will take it easy in case it’s a busy night
Feeling a bit unsettled. Not sure what about. I know it will pass
I have a very good feeling about the days ahead. Watching several pairs of cardinals hopping around my front garden bed. How could I not be happy? Things are coming together. I’m starting to know what to do, that fog is gone. Life is richer and more colorful. I was just thinking I have so much to look forward to. Being someone I always wanted to be. This is freedom. Yes, I’m still not healthy but improving so much.
It’s in-between land. I can relax with it. I’m right where I’m supposed to be today, recovering. Watching some Native tribal dancing to start the day. Then I saw the beautiful birds. My mother’s favorites. Mine too. I had a hen turkey come through. She stopped and made a funny purring sound. Almost like a cat They don’t gobble in the summer, they cluck and purr. It was so cute she seemed to recognize me. I always talk to her when I see her. It’s been a great morning for them with the recent rain. Plenty to eat.
Slowly working on things here but stopping to enjoy. When I feel strong I’ll speed up. So hungry for some Mexican food so I’ll be in the kitchen when I’m not talking turkey
94 days sober.
Really enjoying being in the mountains with my kids. We had a super busy, but fun day yesterday. I love being in nature with them.
Today I’ll remain sober. Today we will explore more nature and hopefully enjoy each other’s company.
I hope you all have a good one.
. I know you are dealing with a lot these days. I do hope you find time to celebrate how amazing you are today. Remember you are not alone 
. Wishing you a day filled with love 
I don’t do cake, but my 7yr old daughter has insisted that there should be cake, so we will do that a little later. Maybe a takeout this evening, totally write off today diet wise 
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They don’t gobble in the summer, they cluck and purr. It was so cute 