Just woke up, slept little more than 6 hours, which is below my expectations. I did run yesterday and it keeps happening on days with trainings even not that intensive ones. Just can’t fall asleep after 2200 which is my usual time. So, I won’t go to bed that early on these days and will fill those days or time until noon with reading, hot bath etc. Happy there is a coffee😂 have a great day
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Checking in
I hope everyone has a safe and sober Friday
Morning
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My weekend’s here. First going over to my therapist for another emdr session. I don’t really feel like it but sometimes you have to do what is right and this is the right thing to go and do it. Afterwards I have to take Luna to the vet for her solensia shot. We don’t like that either but it has to be done. It’ll be OK. After that I it’s home and watch some more Olympics. Eat a good meal. Relax. Breathe.
It’s grey and there’s some rain about. Maybe that helps in feeling a bit down this morning. There’s nothing obvious wrong really. So I’ll kick myself in the ass and make this as good a day as I can and expect the same from all of you. Sober and clean of course. Love.
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Morning check-in
Feeling much better today than yesterday! I slept like a baby, and woke up feeling good this morning. I’m trying to focus on living in the here and now, and not to dwell on the shame and guilt of my past actions. Off to work now! 
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@Lighter oh gosh, I’m so terrified of wasps! 
but I’m glad you’ve got people coming to take care of them in a gentle way 🩵
@Laner ouch! 
I’m sorry about your arm, it sounds very painful, definitely a good plan to have an x-ray done to be sure it’s not broken 
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@JazzyS thank you 
🩵 aww what a nice compliment 
@zzz this is so cool! 
@Refreshedperspective I hope the dinner went okay and that your friend was supportive sending strength 🩵 just seen your update and I’m happy your friend took it well and you enjoyed your evening
@Rob11 grateful that you chose the meeting over the drink 
@Mira_D I hope your nephew’s overnight goes well
@JuliaLuna congrats on all the 3s 
and your week nicotine-free
@DresdenLaPage ew! Sorry it turned out that way, but grateful you’re somewhere much better now, and so quickly too 
@wahtisnormal I’m glad you enjoyed your trip but I’m sorry you had to say goodbye to someone you developed feelings for 
🩵
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@Butterflymoonwoman ugh, I’m sorry you travelled all that way then had a last minute cancellation 
but I’m proud of you for being assertive. I hope you can get a new appt asap
@Just_Laura I hope your pains settle once you’ve slept 🩵
@Scorpn sending calming vibes 
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1459 days no alcohol.
924 days no cocaine.
439 days no vape.
12 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Not much to write today, feeling peaceful since the inspection was over yesterday, slept quite well. I have therapy at 1pm. Before that I will meditate, read, and do my morning routine.
🩵
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Day 2
Im new here and taking each day as it comes. I face temptation every minute it feels like! Im annoyed that I feel like I cant be present or do basic tasks or enjoy life without it.
Im trying my hardest for my health to stay sober, the mornings and nights are the hardest.
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Welcome Sarah!!! Congrats on making it through day 1 and reaching day 2. Day 1 is the hardest by far. Done that. Now on you go! Coming here can be a great help. Hope to see more of you, learning, sharing, supporting and getting support. Read around and get to know the place. Wishing you all succes on your sober journey. It will get better when you put in the time and the work. We’re in this together and that’s why this works. Big hugs.
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I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 163
Still can’t stop smiling because my husband is back home.
Had my morning coffee out on the stairs today, dreaming about that porch. Hopefully we can get it done before Halloween. It would be so much fun decorating it for Halloween, and even for Christmas.
It’s another rainy day, they’ve harvested everything except the oat here. Kids School starts in 10 days. It’s Impossible to not get fall vibes.
That’s all Folks 
Wishing y’all a wonderful day.
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251 days
Good day today.
Wifes gone to work and kids are in bed. Glad I’m no longer drinking as times like this would have been no good
Thanks @Lighter and @Just_Laura . I’ve been reading your conversation about your experiences going back to drinking then not finding a way back for a long time. It’s something that I’ve been wary of so its good to read your thoughts on it and agree it is scary.
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261 sugar
125 UPF
132 gluten
31 dairy
1 overeating
On vacation.
After yesterday’s hiking in the storm adventures I want to give cycling a try, hoping for less rain. Weather right now looks good.
This is my last day in Kudowa. Tomorrow I’ll be traveling back to Wrocław and need to do some prepping in the afternoon.
Let’s keep our hearts open friends: in peace, kindness and freedom 
ODAAT
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@MrFantastik Your welcome 
Believe me when I tell you, it’s no lie when they say it only takes one. One was all I had that first day, but that’s all it took to open the floodgates. If I never had that one, I could be closing in on 5 years sober soon. I don’t like to think about that bc it’s a one way ticket to the fantasy land of ‘what if’, and I belong right here.
Dumb, stupid insomnia check in 
I can’t believe I’m still awake right now to respond, it’s almost 6am! Wait…yes I can. Wtf is happening with my sleep?! I’ve never had insomnia like this. Or really at all. I only got up bc I was hungry after laying in bed for 4 hours. Trying to fall asleep apparently burns calories. I probably shouldn’t’ve picked up my phone, but I didn’t want to turn anything brighter on. And I’m actually feeling tired now after having a banana and some milk. Maybe I need to start eating a bit before bed 
I’m glad I slept so much yesterday. Maybe it’ll even out, haha (no). One thing I do know for sure is, no matter how shitty I feel tomorrow, it won’t top a hangover, and it won’t convince me I need a drink to get thru my day 
Ew, the damn sun’s about to come up. Back to bed for a tiny while 
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I think I will have odaat, and I dont know if i put in some more there: like sobrity triangel or something. Not sure yet. And I think Im going to have it on my foot 
Whats yours like?
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Yeah I think it is. 1000 days is really something. I never tougth I even reach a year. It was so F’ing hard!
I feel very up and down. No energy, feeling completely exhausted and tired all the time. I have an appointment at my docotor in a few hours.
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I can’t catch up on this thread and I’m not happy about it.
Here? All fine. I’m 2 weeks into tampering my antidepressants, 2 weeks more and I’m done with them completely. All fine until now.
I have some romanticising thoughts about getting drunk today. I will not drink, no chance, but I feel kind of sad today that I can’t. My life is much much better without alcohol in it. I’m totally happy with my sobriety, proud of myself and don’t want to go back and yet still missing this shit sometimes. Not gonna drink today tho. Tomorrow most probably also.
Have a good day/night bravehearts 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1517. I hope everybody has a good one!
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@s_unrelax It takes a while. As a teacher, I was always leaving admin til the last minute, just following the textbook, forgetting students’ names, when I was drinking. It took months or even a year, but I started getting more organized, creative and involved, just naturally as I stopped being in survival mode. I’m sure it will happen for you too.
@1in8billion I hear exactly what you were saying. When drinking I was running away from myself, sober I realized I didn’t really know myself. And as I knew myself there were things I didn’t like, and needed to work on. Progress not perfection.
@Jesile I did that so many times. My ability to believe I can have “just one” was absurd. It does stick eventually.
@MrsOdh So glad to hear that.
@Rob11 Great you used your tools. Those ‘dodged a bullet’ times really make me realize how precious sobriety is.
@Lighter X100 That is exactly how the romantising went for me too.
@JuliaLuna Great catch!
@wahtisnormal It is hard to feel a connection like that, and there be obstacles. I guess you just have to process it.
@Butterflymoonwoman Oh my, that is frustrating, especially as I guess getting around with your son is not simple. Glad you could be assertive.
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Thanks Jazz
Checking in day 144. One job for work tomorrow, looking forward to it to break up my leave a little bit!
Have a good weekend everyone.
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Day 268. Passed my 6 month mark at work, was happy about that. I really love my job, but i can say the pushing, shoving and taking advantage of is getting tiring. I know i cant say anything bc i can already tell my boss doesnt care. Yesterday she came and pulled me from my 26 rooms i had to clean bc her other 5 dc people were busy and i know for a fact they werent. She pulled me about 1230 anf rudely asked so what else do you have left like i was supposed to be done. Idk what sucks the most is the minute i express myself or get snippy back im the one who is in the wrong. So idk just taking things a day at a time and moving on. I did order myself a nice little toy for the milestone and plus my 9 months of sobriety is soon. So yayyy much love
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Day 133.
Welp, so much for being more active on here I guess. 
Not to worry though, my sobriety is still very much intact. Just in night shift mode at the moment. 
Meaning a new rythm and a new challenge for me personally. Nothing too challenging though.
Honestly the biggest challange for me personally
is the relationship between me and a friend of mine who revently discovered that she has substance abuse issues as well.
I don’t want to go into too much detail since she might be lurking here and I can’t be sure if she actually blocked my profile like I asked.
All I’m willing to say is that I am not going to deny anybody help with their problems but not at the price of my own well being.
The thing I am most proud of lately is putting up boundaries. And as much as I like her as a person, this is something our relationship desperately needed to keep it healthy for me.
These are the most important news at the moment.
I’ve been invited to a wedding in late august and I’m excited to take my vacation there. 
I hope everyone else had a pleasant week and I have to admit that I’ve missed the people on here. 
Take care everybody and thanks for sticking with this lengthy post^^
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