It could be the hottest day of the year here. I’m working. Let’s see how the climate control at work keeps up. Closing curtains, doors and windows at home. And advising Luna to keep her cool, and activity low. Which is not too hard for a 19 y/o kitty.
Thankful I’m no longer under the illusion that drinking would quench my thirst. That’s just another lie my addiction told me. Alcohol dehydrates and that’s why I drank even more when the weather’s hot. Never again. Have as good a day as you al can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing else will come of it. Love.
The weekend has been a success, I got most of my hay hauled and put away. The a/c in the house is working great. Our horses got out but we found the break in the fence and got it repaired. I put an alternator in my mother in laws trailblazer. I almost relapsed Friday a coworker and I got into an argument it got fairly heated we both said what we had to say, I don’t think he thought that I wouldn’t stand up for myself (I usually don’t I just fold and cave ) but I’m really trying to not fold on things anymore. But the stress of the whole situation just made me want to drink, the thought of resetting and having to start back over and all of the things I’ve learned here helped me step back from the edge of it.
Day 415. Working 8-3.30 then off the rest of the week. I need to get back into the habit of checking in every morning and focusing on the day ahead. All good here
I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 166.
Another wonderful Sunny day.
Ma called last evening to check on us. More or less the first time she had done that.
Said she was worried about my husband.
She also said that I need to start working on getting a driver’s license. I know I do, because there’s a risk that my husband won’t be able to drive for much longer.
Then Ma told me that her elderly neighbor (The lady is 105 years old, thwy where old when I was born and they babysat me)
Didn’t got her license until she was 60.
The lady and her husband had a hunting cabin in the North, where I’ve been multiple times with them. And when her husband got a bad heart and couldn’t drive them there anymore, the old lady decided to get a driver’s license so she could drive them and she did. I’ve known that lady my entire life and had no clue about that.
It was so inspiring. That lady is still amazing with her 105 years. Still out doing Garden work, still ride her bike to the store. Still drinks her morning coffee on the tiny porch.
Hopefully I can afford to start working in my driver’s license this fall. Unfortunately I’m really afraid of driving a car. But I’ve gotten over many things I’ve been afraid of in my days so I guess I can do this too.
Day 2334. Our grant for a green house was approved! Mixed feelings as we had no time for our garden this year. Ms. Monkey’s sister has agreed to come out on my days off to help babysit the grandson. That should free me up to get our garden back up and going. No way i could sleep as my mind was racing about all this. Everything I need to do now, to make the spring easier. The potential to donate more next year than we did last year. Not just food, but plants as well. So many ideas!
Gorgeous day here in England, it’s supposed to be the warmest yet with 35 degrees predicted in Cambridgeshire.I’m grateful I don’t live near there and I’m sorry for all of you that are dealing with much hotter weather got my step work to do soon thank you to all who helped me about this yesterday. Im a good girl now I get good advice and I actually listen (who’d of thought Little Miss I don’t need anyone actually does !! Revelations…. then a call with my sponsor ,exercise class this afternoon and a meeting tonight .full day planned oh my days who thought structure and healthy plans could feel so good
@Thirdmonkey Congrats on that green house grant Scott! It does sound very exciting. So if you have the time do share about your process with us. I am always curious how people to stuff I don’t. @MrsOdh Sounds like that driver’s license is shouting out to you rather loudly I remember how my mum was afraid of driving and even doing the lessons and taking the test. But in the end she did it and it has proven to be a very important part of her independence. Got for it! We are here to support you. @Lefty624 Congrats of dealing with all that stress without using! That’s a great achievement And thanks for sharing the hay picture with us. Just out of curiosity: How big are those bales? @Mno Sending some waves of cool and fresh air into your city @JazzyS Misread your post and read ‘dinner-breakfast’ and thought about the strange ways of people in foreign places And then put on the reading glasses @DanaM56 Sounds so nice how you already met a welcoming AA place, a sponsor, and a new sober community! @Bones_80 Sorry to hear about your osteoporosis @GOKU2019 Speedy recovery! @Seb Congratulation Sebastian! Six months is huge! @Vieira91 Welcome Well done on two days! Keep coming back.
264 sugar
128 UPF
2 gluten
2 dairy
4 overeating
Back from vacation, back to daily life.
Today is going to be all about getting into the usual daily rhythms: laundry, unpacking, sorting stuff out, watering the plants, chores around the flat, maybe the pool, recovery dharma in the evening.
Let’s keep our hearts and minds open friends: in peace, kindness and freedom ODAAT
@icebear another month in the books . Way to go Drew! @mno hope you are able to go slow and stay cool today. @Lefty624 arguments always would have me reaching for a smoke or a drink. Not a healthy way to deal with the frustrating emotions. So grateful that you were able to stay clear of the urges. Another day sober @Scorpn hope you get the meds soon and start feeling some relief @mrsodh that was sweet of your ma… great reminder that it’s never too late to do anything. I know it feels scary now but I’m sure you will be great at it … remember that it doesn’t have to happen overnight…take your time in learning and feeling comfortable behind the wheel @Thirdmonkey another huge congrats on the grant. Just think that next year your grandson will be older and may even be helpful in some ways. You had a beautiful set up last year and I know this year kinda didn’t happen but you two are great at this…I’m sure you will do a wonderful job with setting it up and getting it started.
Cracking me up…I too need them glasses at times. Glad it made sense eventually . Welcome home. Your vacation sounded amazing.
Happy Monday to you all
Didn’t sleep well but am up and going to try and go for my walk shortly. It’s pitch black…I am missing waking up with the sun.
A busy day ahead so I better get started… wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day
Sending you all so much love
It was a fairly easy application process. I called the USDA, told them I was interested in the grant. I applied to get my farm number (basically saying i run a farm and can sell stuff). Once I got that, a member of the USDA walked my property to ensure I was actually producing food. Thrn it was just filling out paper work.
Day 935 here - I have been focused on working a lot lately, and I am grateful for the work along with being able to to do my job effectively. However, I can feel the exhaustion in my body and recognize that I need a break. This a benefit of sobriety - I have gotten to know how I feel physically and mentally because I have a clear head!
Off work today. Made it through a busy weekend at the restaurant. Was crazy busy and is only going to get busier with school in session and the winter months coming up soon. Plus catering season kicks in. Busy is good. Have my counseling appointment for probation shortly. The person who leads the group has been sober since the 90s. He was a manager at Burger King then went back to school to be a substance abuse counselor. I get a lot from the groups. When I first had to go to these groups I didn’t feel to excited but now I’m learning to take away something from the class. with the rest of my day will get on my bike and see where it takes me. Get some lunch somewhere new and definitely try to hit a earlier AA meeting. My parents are in Denver Colorado visiting my brother really wish I could be out there but once I complete probation I’ll be able to leave the state. It’s probably a good thing I’m where I’m at and taking care of my recovery and mental health. There will be plenty I’m time for family and travel in the future. I’m grateful for days like this where I get to enjoy my day and be a part of life. In my addiction I was always avoiding life and everything good. I know one thing… I’m not picking up a drink or drug! The only way is forward. That’s about all for now. I’ll check in soon.
got my step work to do soon thank you to all who helped me about this yesterday. Im a good girl now I get good advice and I actually listen (who’d of thought Little Miss I don’t need anyone actually does !! Revelations…. then a call with my sponsor ,exercise class this afternoon and a meeting tonight .full day planned 
oh my days who thought structure and healthy plans could feel so good 
I remember how my mum was afraid of driving and even doing the lessons and taking the test. But in the end she did it and it has proven to be a very important part of her independence. Got for it! We are here to support you.
And thanks for sharing the hay picture with us. Just out of curiosity: How big are those bales?
And then put on the reading glasses 
Well done on two days! Keep coming back.
ODAAT
. Way to go Drew! 
. Welcome home. Your vacation sounded amazing. 
