Day 164
Landscapers are here! Hard scape, mulch, extended beds and drip-line irrigation this week. Plants in September when it begins cooling off. I’m spending my drinking money on rocks! Haha, at least I’m not pissing it away 
. I’m really excited and happy to watch and learn. It means a lot. 
Enjoy your sober days, 
AMAZING!!! triple digits no nicotine and 2 months no MJ !!! Way to go friend… you are crushing it 
@JazzyS thank you 🩵 your Sunday sounds lovely 
@1in8billion honesty and openess is a good start 
I’m sorry you’re suffering with depression, I struggle too, but I always feel better when I do my daily routine things, and I’ve learned not to beat myself up if I don’t ‘achieve’ everything. Meditation is my biggest tool and has been for 20 years now. I lost all my friends due to mental health challenges, but maybe it’s not to late for you to reach out to yours. Wishing you peace 
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@acromouse thank you 🩵
@Laner I’m so glad you went for the x-ray, sorry it was broken but hopefully it will heal up nicely 
I’m glad you took a friend with you and enjoyed your coffee and a shower
@tailee17 congrats on double digits for no added sugar 
@Vieira91 welcome congrats on day 2
@Seb congrats on 6 months
@Timetochange enjoy London
@GOKU2019 thank you feel better soon 🩵
@Bones_80 sorry for your diagnosis
@Lefty624 wow that’s a lot of hay 
hope you got your horses back in okay. Glad you didn’t drink over the arguement at work
@Scorpn I hope the medicine helps 🩵
@MrsOdh that sure is inspiring 105! You can do it too 
@Thirdmonkey congrats on the grant approval 
@Noshame congrats on triple digits no nicotine 
and 60 days no marijuana
@Lighter that sounds exciting! Rocks are cool
1462 days no alcohol.
927 days no cocaine.
442 days no vape.
15 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Not much to update. Yesterday I did my laundry, caught-up here, did my meditations, and fell asleep around 7pm. I was awake between 11pm-2:30am, then slept again til 5:30am.
Today I had what I thought was my appointment with the specialist for my back, but it turns out they were supposed to only book me a phone appointment because it was just the physio updating me that the specialist team have accepted my referral. So I was in the city centre from 08:45 and therapy wasn’t til 11:15. I sat in the Sun with a Starbucks, bought 2 pairs of shorts, cards for my brother and eldest step-brothers’ birthdays, and some hand cream, it passed the time. I spoke briefly about the photos. I am getting annoyed by how much time I spend talking about my dad, but I guess if that’s what comes up, it’s bettter to release it.
I came home, had lunch, and recovered from being out and about in the Sun. I’ve done over 8K steps today, my feet and back are sore but I’m okay.
Tomorrow I am going to the cinema with my eldest niece
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Checking in with one year and one month sober. Sending love and peace to all.
Checking in day 708, and today happens to be my birthday. As I turn 36, I reflect on this past year with many ups and some down, with particular challenges lately. I’m remembering the importance of allowing myself to experience joy when I’m able. For the year ahead, I’m setting the intention of living my 36th year with as much presence as joy as possible.
Wishing everyone a magnificent sober Monday 
Checking in with 127 days sober.
I had some cravings this weekend but realized they were a craving for an instant dopamine hit. So, I did what I could to earn one honestly by being a good mom, good wife and good to myself.
It’s going to be a busy week with some high emotions since our son is moving far away to college. I’m grateful for being sober. I’ll be the rock my family needs this week.
And I stay sober today too. ODAAT
130 days sober
I’m looking forward to going home tomorrow. 2 days in the city is enough for me. I always get very anxious when I’m here. Cities make me feel uncomfortable and over stimulated. And there’s not really the best walking places.
But I visited a friend who lives there and we did a bit of shopping today got coffee beans and some spices that aren’t available at home. And got fabric so a friend can sew me new trousers and a shirt.
I had to reschedule my appointment with the counselor because of needing to go away to get my arm looked at. Hoping to sleep better tonight…it’s much hotter here than at home and I’m not used to this heat.
Great to see you posting and on such a lovely milestone… happy 36th bday. 
What a great aspiration, thanks for inspiring me! Happy Birthday!!
Day 141. I woke up super positive today but that faded quickly. I am a foreman for an excavation company and I have been having issues with an employee who happens to be the nephew of one of the owners. He always side steps my instruction and calls his uncle and gets direction. So i called the owners and asked them to stop causing confusion if they are on the job they dont know what needs done. They told me i have a history of being hard to work with. Which made me wonder why I doing all this work to be a better person if I am only going to be judged off my past. I am extremely frustrated today
Speaking my own story…i drank for decades, the damage accumulated. I was told Rome wasnt built in a day…so dont expect all my past wounds and issues to heal overnight.
141 days is amazing! For many of us, it took longer to repair past damage.
Keep working on you, and in time things will come together. Healing ourselves, healing relationships, growing enough for the outside world to see our change takes time.
Day 35. I’ve been extremely stressed lately because the uncertainty of my financial situation. But today I got good news and the suffering is over, thank God! During the weekend I seriously considered of buying some benzos to calm my crazy mind, but I didn’t buy them, I didn’t give up. Still sober and going strong.
Day 911
Not much to report. Its been a decent day so far. Just plugging away at a few things like laundry, dishes, tidying up my sons room, vacuuming etc. Trying my best to stay focused on my health today so i can start feeling better mentally and physically as well. Hope everyone has a great Monday 
It does suck when we are working so hard on becoming better and others are constantly seeing us as the past us. Keep working on your recovery friend. In time people will start to see the efforts and seeing you with a different view. We can’t control how others see us but we can change our own perspective of us. WE can walk with pride for all that we are doing daily.
Be proud of your 141 days and all the mental / emotional growth you are doing. I do like what Scott said too … healing is not linear or quick. Be patient friend 
Hey friend – so very grateful that you did not give into the urge. It would not have helped calm anything down and you are much better today for staying sober
So glad that you got some good news are are no longer suffering Grateful that you are here with us friend – ODAAT!
Checking in on day 5
Today I was off, and the truth is I didn’t stop all day long, keeping myself busy. Walk in the morning, dyed my hair (getting rid of that grey hair! 
), pedicure, breakfast at the “plaza”, some shopping, cleaned my car, batch cooking for the week, spent some time at the pool, and now I’m finishing some bits and pieces before I’m off to work tomorrow!
I did most things alone, but I felt good. Alone doesn’t always mean lonely. I guess I’m a loner!
Thank you, my friend! Yeah, I’m really happy that I resisted the cravings and I’m still sober. I love you, guys, you are so awesome! ODAAT!
254 days
Just finishing up a nightshift. Was a pretty quiet shift.
The steps to become a trainer at work is rapidly progressing. Just been informed they can fit me onto a course for revalidation of current trainers to observe and get experience. Will be battling that imposter syndrome with all these guys being very experienced in the role.
Have a week to prepare and hopefully sharpen up a bit.
@Seb good work on 6months mate
