Day 21 - it is a scorcher where I live! Doing some fun morning errands and got in a light workout. Looking forward to maybe chilling out a bit with my partner before we head to a concert tonight with friends.
Always grateful for you all and wishing you another wonderful day.
Congratulations on 100 days! 
7y6m29d
Checking in from the mountains. Itās very peaceful and relaxing here in the cabin we are renting. We are hanging out in the cabin this morning. After lunch we will explore the area a bit. I have a couple of very short walks planned for the twins and me. And then I hope to get into the town and explore the shops. Hope everyone has a good and sober day/night!
Checking in 97 days sober. No plans for this weekend, so Iāll need to be creative in this heat - 109 degrees today.
Iāll stay sober today.
You can break the pattern @wahtisnormal. It definitely doesnāt have to be that way for you. You have a therapist and have reached out in ways your mother hasnāt, and that is a very healthy sign! Sometimes tears are a good release and Iām glad you were able to let things out a bit. Sending virtual hugs. 
@Dan.h84 congrats on your week
@wahtisnormal congrats on 90 days go view the house 
@Pattycake congrats on your year 
@Bomdhil congrats on 2 weeks enjoy your pilgrimage 
@Butterflymoonwoman sorry for your loss 
@Thirdmonkey congrats on 60 days tobacco free
@Whereswaldo I can relate to never having been together in the first place and not knowing how to rebuild, thanks for sharing š©µ
@Noshame congrats on 70 days no cigs and 30 days no marijuana
@Laner congrats on triple digits 
@RefreshedPerspective congrats on 3 weeks enjoy the concert 
You are doing great Mike ā coming up on 8 months eh ā that is amazing work. I know how hard you are working and it can be frustrating to see people around you not pulling their weight but getting rewarded. Are you able to talk to your boss openly? Or possibly bring it up when you are up for review? Unfortunately, every work place has similar situations and it is maddening. Keep working your recovery friend.
Congrats on your 3 weeks! 
Have fun at the concert tonight
Checking in 5 days sober. I wonāt lie, being sober is extremely hard and Iād like to smoke pot, but I know it would just make everything worse just like drinking booze which Iām also craving. This has been a really hard day, but in God I trust. I hope you all have a great day/night!
@Mno @acromouse @Alisa @JazzyS thank you all, aside from the journeyās there and back, the actual visit went really well
1433 days no alcohol.
898 days no cocaine.
413 days no vape.
3 days no binge-eating.
So I visited my WhatsApp friend who I talk to on there throughout the day, every day, for years now, but had only met him once irl back in 2015. The journeys there and back were quite horrendous, 2.5hrs each way with a change each way too. On the way there my signal wouldnāt let me play music or listen to podcasts or audiobooks, so that didnāt help. I was also facing backwards and my seat was at a table section so I had 2 people opposite me, which is a big nightmare of mine.
When I got to my friendās house, all 3 of his dogs were very enthusiastic about meeting me! His biggest and strongest dog, an American Bulldog jumped on me, pinned me back into the chair, and proceeded to lick my face all over 
his Husky was friendly and just kept asking for more attention, sheās a rescue bless her, and very placid, then he has a Jack Russell who was friendly and wanted attention too, he barked a lot at anyone who walked by. I had worried I might be awkward and find it hard to speak in person, but we got on just as well as we do on WhatsApp so that was nice My back was f**ked before Iād even left home, even more so after the trains, but I still wanted to attempt a walk with them, so we went to the closest park, and after about 20mins I just couldnāt carry on so we headed back, had a salad, chilled for 30mins, then it was time to leave. I was only there for 2.5hrs. I didnāt want to be too late home to my cats.
The train home was delayed by 30mins and I was in so much pain standing on the platform, there was nowhere to sit. I considered sitting on the floor but the platform was rammed with people. I got home eventually, an hour later than planned, but nevermind, it was really good to spend a bit of time, with my only friend, in person.
This morning I could have easily gone back to sleep instead, but I pushed myself to attend the online Survivors group, and I was really glad I did.
Fatigued but Iāve somehow managed to stay awake all day, Iāve mostly been catching-up here this afternoon.
My tooth socket pain is improving slightly but it tastes funny so Iām hoping thereās not infection forming. Iāll do some more warm salt water rinses and see how it feels after a couple more days.
I hope youāre all having wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
Checking in at Day 46! I hope everyone is having a good weekend 
Yaaaay!!! Congrats to you friend on 100 DAYS!! 
Checking in day 194 AF
165 days sober
Not questioning sobriety.
Being sober is freedom.
Love you guys 
Thank you so much, i am reminding myseld of this and know I have a way better shot at living a healthy life. 
Thanks jazz, you always know the right thing to say!
Day 6 today. 2nd night of my little holiday. Drinking a cup of tea before going to bed. Wild times
Had an intense therapy session today. I feel like Iāll never get better. But I wonāt entertain those thoughts. I know where that would lead me! Itās addiction talking. (Oh, why are you bothering, youāll always struggle with this, why sufferā¦ fuck it and have a beer. It will make life easier and less painful.) NO!!! ā¦if I canāt think positively Iāll stop thinking about it.
Itās just uncomfortable, unfamiliar and scary. Iām safe. And I have no idea if Iām doing better or not with trauma stuff. It takes time to unwind this mess. I know that much. I will keep going. Because what if I could be free of it? Sometimes you need to just hold ā donāt need to change anything, nothing is wrong with what youāre doing, youāre right where youāre supposed to be and all you have to do is what youāve been doing. Keep walking. It is the consistent, daily efforts and not the spectacular, sudden events now. Itās just different.
Happy to be sober today.
