Happy Birthday to your daughter. Congratulations on 100 days.
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Checking in day 197 AF 
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Checking in at the end of day 4.
Gone back to treatment and have been offered a place in a rehab centre in Liverpool - I live 205 miles away and Iām only 21, so Iām terrified. But, after my last relapse? Iām starting to think itās for the best.
I told my support worker Iād give myself āone more chanceā out in the community to prove to myself I could maintain my sobriety, but who am I kidding, I have no āone last chanceā left!
My last detox on the weekend barely worked because Iāve had so many previously and my body has adapted to it. I was told by the nurses that the next time I relapse, theyāll be no medication that will reverse the withdrawal and, at absolute best, Iāll end up in the ICU.
Scary, exhausting times and big decisions to make. But I promised my support worker Iād be completely truthful about my substance use (Iād started to pretend I wasnāt using anymore as I didnāt want anyone to know how bad things had gotten) so thatās a step in the right direction, I suppose.
In the meantime, Iām still breathing, still sober and still here, thatās all I can ask for.
Thank you for the love everyone. Iām still recovering and too exhausted to respond to everyone, but I have read and appreciate every message x
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Checking in day 8, alcohol and weed free. Although my reality feels still so disturbed and unreal, Iām starting to see some hope. I know I can do this. Heck, back in the days I was 5 yrs sober until my divorce from my ex-wife, mother of my three kids. After that shit I went really harsh downward spiral and started to drink booze and smoke MJ like a maniac which lasted over 10 yrs. Now I know that this time Iām gonna succeed, I have the right mindset, a therapist and AA/NA online meetings and all of you, guys!
These US Navy SEAL sayings have helped me a alot:
ONLY EASY DAY WAS YESTERDAY!
EMBRACE THE SUCK!
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Hey back here again on day 3 over the past few months Iāve absolutely hit rock bottom losing everything day by day and have been having health problems due to taking drugs and alcohol I just really need to stop and try and create a life for myself
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i just left work so right now Iām feeling okay just tired, it usually gets bad at night but I will check in if it does 
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Congrats on the milestones @Tragicfarinelli @Vanessa8
Hope you are doing ok @RosaCanDo
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Welcome back and congratulations day 3. Keep reaching out here and maybe try a outside or online meeting
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Checking in 140 whole days. I am in record territory for me. AA meeting this morning. I was told I was glowing. Will definitely post gratitude later. Sneak previewā¦ almost 5 months sober with no regrets or craving struggles, I have lost 8 1/2 pounds since July 1st Hip healing nicely, back to gym pool and I am having a great hair day!
I am looking at at least 25 pounds of home grown tomatoes on counter. Tomato sauce is on the agenda to freeze as much as I can. I love working in kitchen when the universe is smiling.
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Yes I will be attending meetings in my area aswel was at one tonight
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Day 23
Had a good start into the day with therapy and going to the library. Then had a breakdown after my boyfriend called and we had a disagreement. I just couldnt stop sobbing and felt so alone. But still i didnt start the games or youtube, just continued on my embroidery and even ended up going for a walk right after sunset. Looking at it objectively i think i should be proud, just a couple weeks ago this would surely have been the start of a gaming frenzy till at least 2 in the morning. But actually i feel empty inside.
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Congrats @tailee17 keep it going! I love having homemade food in the freezer. So good for those days where i cant be asked to cook something that takes a long time.
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Oh thatās brilliant. I do hope that you are able to do something to provide more support for others. Sorry today was a bit rough with anxiety. Sending you hugs ā you are doing great!
@butterflymoonwoman Sending positive vibes your way. Hopeful for great results from todayās MRI 
Glad you were able to go to the gym today and release some anxious emotions. Yeah to an amazing RT
@vagabond Whats going on? Work your recovery and you will make it to sundown and sun rise ODAAT. You are doing great with your 44+ days ā stay connected friend. This will pass
@lile01 OH man that is a big decision but I do feel like its your only option right now. Trying it on your own is not wise as past has shown and the thought that meds will not work if you relapse again 
That is some scary ass shit! Do this for you ā 205 miles away is what you need right now. You will not be alone ā we will be with you. Sending you love ā loads of love. ODAAT 
YES!! I love this! You have done this before and now you have more tools to utilize. Keep pushing forward friend ā you are doing great 
@mossy91 great to see you back with us friend ā congrats on day 3. This is a nasty disease and we can not win it over with willpower alone. I had to change up my patterns and routines. Reach out for support and find ways to keep me busy so that the urges did not consume me. Keep at it ā we are right here with you.
@sadmemequeen Glad you are good now and yes ā please do check in if you start to feel off. Big hugs Meghan
@tailee17 record territory!!! I absolutely love it! Glowing eh? See that sobriety shine on you Keep kicking ass my friend ā 140 days strong
@adultimprover Congrats on your 3+ weeks ā you should most definitely be proud. It is not easy to change learned behavior. You found a healthy outlet to deal with the disagreement. Great work!
Midafternoon check inā¦ I have not worked out today and iām ok with that. I have however been thinking about the hard liquor in our fridge outside. It has been calling me on and off all day. My pain is at an all time high and iām fed up and this would be a temp fix but at least temporarily iāll be at peace. NOT! i know better and i really donāt want to poison myself.
Its been a day on the go. I donāt feel like cooking so its a grill night. Got me my favortie Kombucha and iām ready to do this! I have decided that i will take myself to the movies where its safe. A new horror movie Longlegs is out and it looks interesting ā¦ we shall see.
We will continue to have shit days and our bodies / minds will make it hard for us to continue at times but remember that our DOC will never be the answer. We can NOT heal if we consume our DOC.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening ā sending you all so much love 
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Day 1306,
āFear is an opportunity to move deeperā.
Of course without the booze
Have a sober 24 Hours 
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I literally read this the other day and went back searching to find it today because of how much it resonated with me. I read posts on here daily and it helps me immensely. But sometimes Iām in such a rush I just read and donāt ālikeā or comment back. Or I think of a reply in my head but never put it into words. I would like to improve upon how much I contribute back to this platform. I know how much comments on here mean to me and I hope to get more involved and invested in conversations on here moving forward 
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Hi all! Iām doing quite well. I was hospitalized but Iām out and KILLING it!!
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Iām glad that you are well and doing better. Love having you back here with us. 
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Checking in today, 3 weeks sober! Iāve been seeing a lot of other posts/inspiration/support on other social media platforms and wanted to share a quote that stuck out to me recently. It was along the lines of āTrying to moderate your addiction is like switching your seats on the Titanic. Youāre still on a sinking ship.ā I could try to convince myself that I could find a ābetter seatā but at the end of the day my story still wouldnāt have a happy ending. The harsh reality of it is that if I want to make it out alive, I shouldnāt board that ship at all. So today I stayed sober. I will continue to do so ODAAT! 
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I completely agree with everything u mentioned. I always appreciate the replies back (just like I really appreciate ur message). Im trying to be more involved as of late but the past couple days have just worn me out. I find that some days im just too tired to respond or comment, ot i lack the energy 
hoping to do some reading tonight on here tho 
hope ur doing well by the way. I see u have 3 weeks sober!!! Yay!!! Thats wonderful im so proud of u! 
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