Going good :DDD Just been doing the things my sponsor says to do. I need to pickup the slack on joining meetings every day, about to join a meeting though
Checking in onbday
438 no alcohol
369 no vapes or ciggs 78 no form of nicotine
38 no form of marijuana
I was thinking about pot today after work because of the stress level here at work and at home
I feel like today, everything i did wrong this past year and a few mistakes at work came back to me in the form of irradiated people.
Today i was told by my grandparent in law i can dissapoint him with all these little things i do or forget to do
Thrn the beginning of the day at work was stress out the gate
Then i talked to my wife at lunch and she communicated she would like me to br more present in the tasks of the baby and with the baby
I ligit felt like i had no1 and pot wont hurt and will actually help me rest
I told my wife i thought weed sounded like a good relese and recover from days like today. She said im a grown man and can mske my own choices
Then i thought of all the support i get here snd you all and how i feel when i relese my stresses over talking sober snd the advicecand help youve all given. I thought relesing and recovering on here is better then pot
So i messaged my wife snd said i dont want thc and we got this and dhe said ok i love you then i came here to vent.
Works almost over
My backup showed up after all day by myself
Wow! What a day ur having! But ur handling it like a boss! Uv come such a long way and are doing things differently now. Ur right! U dont need pot to cope. Bcuz we all know where using leads us and how it makes us feel afterwards. Guilt and shame and disgust and dissappointment. We are here for u friend Stay strong in ur decision as u go about ur day
Me too. It’s part of what made me an addict too. Finding my own path, not relying on anybody, do it all myself. Part of change and recovery (discovery) for me is to learn to accept help. Learn there are limits to what we can do on our own.
I think it’s very nice you have a friend willing to help you in this way. And I think it’s not even pride that makes it so hard for folks like us to accept any help including financial.
Let’s speak for myself. It’s the fear for people wanting something in return for their help. For being dependent on another. For falling short in taking care of myself because I have to rely on someone else. Someone else who is not to be trusted anyway. I think it’s very good to accept some help from your friend. And be grateful for it .
Yes thank you for noticing ive come a long way. I only have 38 days streight no weed. Ive used every excuse possible to pick up. I know for a fact when i pick up pot or when im activity smoking it, my rock bottom is a puff away. It NEVER ENDS UP GOOD. its even kind of funny how that works for me. Pot is a huge trigger for me for some odd reason
I haven’t checked in in a few days. I’ve had terrible internet and cell service lately, but it’s been kinda nice to feel “off the grid” for a little bit. Day 26 for me today! It’s been a great sober weekend. My fiancé has been part of a beer league softball team for a few years now. It’s been a huge part of how we spend our weekends in the summer. As his biggest cheerleader, I was always drinking while cheering on the guys. This past weekend was a true test for me… he’s played in 5 games since Thursday night and I’ve gone to every single one. Surrounded by everyone drinking. I even had people offering me free drinks when the games went into extra innings. I stood my ground and politely declined. I held strong to my sobriety and I’m so proud.
@john_connor1337 congratulations on your 3 weeks! Impressive work @Planipennia I’m not in Germany but that sucks. @Noshame sounds like a super stressful day. So grateful that you did not pick up. Grateful that you talked it out and came here to vent. Hope you are at home and your day has turned around @justKaitlin wow…be proud for sure. Glad you are working your recovery and protecting your sobriety. Btw…sober looks great on you- just saw your latest selfie in the thread. Keep up the great work
Just about to lay down. Yesterday I slept for three hours after an early morning and I have since been up for 22 more hours.
.I’m so happy to be able to go to bed early. Even if it is only for a few hours!
I saw the new twisters movie. It was good, but I was so tired I almost fell asleep a few times
But now I’m home. Yay!
@Noshame you’ve had a day of it well done for muddling through the shit to get the day done sober only 35 days …. Pot may of been our best bud excuse the pun ,but it became our worst motavation killing communication killing and emotionally killing worst enemy . I haven’t ever had 35 days yet in 25 years but I want to keep remembering why I can’t so I can get to 35 .your doing ok don’t let the fucker take you back
Day 14. I have had a very busy day. Done all of the housework, went for a run, cut my lawn and some other bits. In preperation for my kids arriving tomorrow for a week. I actually took a moment on a couple of occasions today. I stopped, smiled and thought being sober is amazing. It’s been a tough few months personally, but I’m seeing the light today. I wish I could bottle that feeling up and give it to someone who needs it. For those still struggling, don’t give up.
@TheWolf thats a nice post you’ve worked hard today I get fleeting moments of happiness and pride too (I think it is bottled but it’s only visible for us to see when we’re winning the battle…… :ps your kids are gonna ruin your housework
For all forum members who live in Germany ,
Stay strong in ur decision as u go about ur day
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well done for muddling through the shit to get the day done sober only 35 days …. Pot may of been our best bud excuse the pun ,but it became our worst motavation killing communication killing and emotionally killing worst enemy . I haven’t ever had 35 days yet in 25 years but I want to keep remembering why I can’t so I can get to 35 .your doing ok don’t let the fucker take you back 
I get fleeting moments of happiness and pride too (I think it is bottled but it’s only visible for us to see when we’re winning the battle…… :ps your kids are gonna ruin your housework 
