Day 30 - one month in the books, feeling good, but also feeling like I need to be diligent understanding that sometimes my biggest slips have occurred after milestones. I am being sure to continue with my therapy, and foundations that keep me healthy like food and activity.
I am looking ahead to next month, which is my birthday month to set myself up for success and avoid celebrations that revolve around booze. That all said, I want to try to enjoy this accomplishment too.
Keep on going TS, much love to you all; especially those that have relapsed recently! You are you and you deserve to be happy
I’ve been working myself really hard with a constant barrage of activities and “to do” lists. None of which have given me any satisfaction. I actually felt very run down and miserable.
This week (starting yesterday), I decided I’m just going to do a few things a day, in routine and very well. Strangely enough, I’m starting to feel like I’m on track.
Morning everyone I’ve not been crying so long this morning I’ve accepted it now I felt the wobble and emotions and spoke to my higher about it and to guide me today through my emotions and my fears . I’m going to go and get a few bits for the flat today . I’ve lived here a year but probably only stayed here about thirty days because I’d end up drinking and passing out on the street so it’s about time lol ….ps I got to day 8 and only had to Once this time it works if you work it
110 days sober
Today I meant with the ministry of social services and we discussed me translating alcohol recovery materials into Kyrgyz and then how can we distribute these in the future. It was a great meeting. I came away thinking that this is something I can do that will help other people and also think it’ll help me.
So I’ll see what happens. If I take it on I need to then travel around the country to distribute and introduce the new material.
I’m gonna start research on what material would be good. Any ideas? I’m looking for something simple that gives information on alcohol addiction/alcohol recovery.
Next Monday I’m going to have a video call with a counselor for the first time. I’m feeling anxious about it. I hope we will click well.
Day 251. Let me tell yah if there were some trees around me id rip em out of the ground. So to any trees out there todays your lucky day. Jk its a ok day, rainy ride to work, said my gratitudes and just looking forward to getting home and putting new part in my bike. Tomorrow off and thats good. Much love
Reached 30 days today, ive had some pretty good days going to the library and even workong from home. Except today maybe, but i managed to do at least a little bit. Now i’m going to visit my boyfriend and maybe he can help me a little with replying to some e-mails. I got invited for another job interview today . From the job description it seems like a job i might want.
@Pattycake that it an amazing number! Congrats! @19801 seems like youre working on coping with your emotions in a healthy way. That is a big thing for me as well. Wish you all the best!
I pulled a trap muscle, feels like. Ick. Stretch time. I need to see if I can do an indoor walk, too. Maybe I can do this intermittently all day. And ice and heat. What’s on streaming? Need to move.
Nothing silly about it. We are always growing and evolving so it makes sense that we would learn new things about ourselves. Moreso now that we are free of our numbing addictions and actually paying attention Oh I too lived in a spiral of low self confidence and being afraid of what others thought. Not sure I’m completely cured but I do think age gives us a bit of “fuck off” attitude freedom and I’m shedding my care of what others think. I also think when I got sick and no one was around that this opened my eyes to why the fuck did I put so much energy into what they think when they are not really “in this life” with me. Working on your self confidence and self esteem is a great start. I think the more you work on this the less you will care of what others opinions are. I have also realized that most of the opinions are based on the cookie cutter version of what we should be like at any given point in our lives and that is just not realistic. You are living a happy and healthy life in the manner that suits you – Its your life and fuck that others find it weird. Be proud of you and what you have accomplished
@positivethoughts Good luck with your meeting. You do have this – hope you find time to rest and recover. Solo parenting can be tough but I know it would be way worse if addiction was involved. @whereswaldo Sending healing vibes to your little one. Hope he feels better soon. So very cool that you are coming up to your ½ a year of sobriety. I love how being sober becomes part of our daily routine and the days stack up so nicely @refreshedperspective WOW 1 month Glad to see you being diligent and protecting your sobriety. So true that our addict minds tell us that “wow this was easy enough – why not have one – we can do this again” The lies go on and on. We never know when our last recovery will be so its best to hold onto the one we have. Smart move on pre-planning your celebrations for next month and staying ahead of any triggers. So happy for you and your recovery @19801 A good cry can be cleansing. I hope yours was Our emotions do tend to run wild when we start our sober journey. All the time we suppressed them with our addiction and now they are allowed to be free – it can be very overwhelming. Stay connected, reach out for your support and remember that this will pass. We are learning new and healthy ways of dealing with our emotions and day to day struggles. ODAAT @adultimprover Way to go on your 1 month milestone Keep the streak going strong Good luck with the job interview today
Tuesday afternoon check in… I was able to start off the way being active. Luckily my brother made pancakes for breakfast so I didn’t have to prepare anything. I am feeling drained and run down so going to rest now. At least I did get some movement in today. Hoping for a quick power nap but will play it by ear.
Wishing you ALL a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all so much love
Doing okay, picked up some extra shifts the next few weeks at work, doing all the usual things otherwise. Still been anxious and even had a dream last night that I was asking to use again, which was wild. I remember being worried about disappointing my husband as well though and never did end up getting any. Not the worst anxiety dream I’ve had lol.
Things are okay though for the most part I would say.
Have a good day all