Day 2 after a relapse. I’m struggling with motivation to do anything. My depression has been really bad since Monday.
The only way you’re going to overcome your depression is to stay sober and work on your recovery Sean. Big congrats on making it to day 2. You could do one day, you can do another. I’m glad you’re here. You’re not alone. Keep going.
Checking in day 205 AF
Checking in on day 1392
506
I’m back on antibiotics, so I should feel better in a day or two. I did take it easy today.
Love and strength to all of you, my lovely sober tribe


Thank you for this perspective
@Englishd Derek!
Sometimes we don’t c our own patterns.
I will get back to pause and just date myself.
176 3rd checkin
I found some peace in nature by walking with some soft music. Feel I cried a lot out now. Somehow cleansing.
Love you guys
Congratulations on day 2. Of course your emotions will run wild. Hold on stay strong you can get through this. Keep checking the great sober folks out here.
How did dentist appointment go?
Fair shout on your 16 days im well proud of you ….and I’m coming after you
Today’s been lonely. Still have a cold but getting a lot better. Isolation has been hard to cope with but tomorrow I see my sister!
Checking in 9 months 4 days
What uuuup?! Hope everyone’s doing well, I thought I’d take a few minutes to do a check in
Everything is going very well tbh. Sobriety is pretty steady and works going great - I have my best friend working with me whose also in recovery and a real pro at the front of house. So loving it!
Romances and finances are still difficult but I think they always will be! My sponsor said to me that the big book says “No relationships for a year but based on your sex conduct Josh, you’re on probation with women for 18 months!” So… I’ll do as he says I guess lol
I’m getting to 2/3 meetings a week still which is about all I can manage reasonably now but it feels like the right amount. Most of my amends are done which feels awesome and the promises are still coming to light everyday.
My biggest issue is balance. I find it really foreign to me to instil balance into my life in any and all aspects but I’ve also been able to accept that I can’t control everything and that help with sobriety doesn’t just mean help with not drinking, it’s help with life - It’s reaching out to the right people for the right advice for the right things and truly spend most of my days smiling in gratitude. Generally speaking, my problems are between the promises and the preamble.
I’ll be sure to check in again soon and will come back and read a bit more once I’ve got my kitchen sorted out and everything’s settled as well as I want it to be
Hugs not drugs
Day 164
Ok, things are getting a little strange now. Last night I dreamt I lost my licence for drink driving. I haven’t dreamt of drinking or anything previously.
2y5m11d
Wow have i ever fallen behind on this thread! I have been pretty busy today. The heat wave seems to have broke finally but the smoke here is getting worse. Its very hazy and has a strong smoke smell. I feel awful for those that are directly affected
Today, I did some cleaning in the morning (swept n mopped floors, vacuumed, & dishes), went on a work related mtg in the afternoon and then gave my son a bath afterwards to freshen him up. Its been a pretty good day overall. I feel accomplished
I didnt get to the gym AGAIN this morning tho but thankfully my eating has been good today! Ive come to the realization that during this summer break, even tho its been extremely hard for me to maintain exercise, it has taught me how to eat properly. Exercise has always been easy for me to do, but nutrition has always been a struggle (for yeats). This summer break has forced me to learn how to eat properly bcuz i havent been able to exercise often. Its forced me to focus on healthy food and healthy portion sizes and how to manage my ED when it pops up. So ya… if i can get to the gym, great. If not then at least im caring for my body thru a healthy relationship with food.
I had a small thought of using my DOC today. Nothing major but id love to get to the point where i rarely ever think of it.
Hope everyone is enjoying their wednesday!
Sounds like ur doing great in ur recovery and with life in general. I always enjoy reading ur posts. I could absolutely relate to the part about finding balance in life mow thay Im clean. Im very much and all or nothing kind of lady. I go big with everything i do lol I do my best to not get too carried away with one area of my life. Glad to see u checking in
Check in day 29 Despite setting myself up for what I thought would be a restful night, I didn’t sleep great again for the 3rd night in a row. I had a terrible migraine and kept waking up from the pain. Still got up and completed a modified workout before work. Work was pretty exhausting overall. While working with kiddos on the spectrum can be rewarding, some days are SO challenging. Today was particularly rough with a lot of aggressions. I know I’ll be bruised tomorrow. A coworker even said “After today, I need a drink!” Thankfully, I couldn’t relate. I’m thankful for no cravings today. I came home and took another epsom salt bath to relax. I saw a quote earlier that said “A bad day sober is still infinitely better than a good day drunk/high” and I couldn’t agree more. Peace, love and positive vibes
Thank you, my friend. Awesome that you’re also gaining sober days! We got this!
@Butterflymoonwoman I feel sorry for all of you with the heat you describe I’m from England we’re always bloody cold , it’s the middle of summer now but it was about 26 degrees today and raining. Glad to hear you ate well today and your sons ok hopefully you get to the gym soon
Tough
I have a 2hour deep clean tomorrow
Im getting numbed up and everything
3 fillings and a crown in the future about in a month i think
Brush your teeth kids
Checking in day 403 AF
Sobriety intact. Thank you all for your support and kindness. Instead of pounding a bottle of wine it was a pint of Oreo Cookies in Cream ice cream. Not a good habit to get into but certainly better than the other.
Thank goodness works been quiet so far this week which is allowing me to accomplish some other things for the move. Deposits are paid, mostly everything is packed. My back is holding up so I’m grateful for that.
Flirting with the idea of attending an AA meeting but I’ve already got so much going on, I may wait until after the move.
Feeling very blessed that all seems to be going well.
Day 145
Checking in late. Went to a big neighborhood social thing. Ice cream was the highlight, luckily. Not a lot of alcohol around. I could smell it but didn’t see it. Good Made some new friends. I’ve been feeling isolated. I needed to isolate for some time, until I was solid in recovery. Now I’m finally out and about. It’s scary but it’s time. I’ll keep close here. New people and all. The good thing is I can start off as a non-drinker. I’ll find the right people.
Social events sometimes rattle my nerves. I’m rusty and hate being the new person . Glad I made myself go. Couldn’t imagine doing this a couple months ago. I’m getting better
Love