Day 4 checking in. The wife is on a trip so I’ll be alone in my thoughts this weekend. Just need to keep busy and remember why I’m doing this again.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
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113 days sober
I’ve really been struggling today. Cravings have been bad and I’m feeling like an emotional mess. I came so close to drinking today. I mean really close. I bought vodka and poured it into a cup then just looked at it pathetically. Then it was like the sense got knocked into me and I threw it out. I called my friend and told her what happened. I’m so glad I didn’t drink it but I’m afraid about how close I came.
I hate this addiction. I drink to numb my feelings and I hate that I feel like I need that.
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I’m glad you made it through this one. Next time you get this strong an urge try something else instead of getting booze and pouring yourself a drink. Coming here and talking about the craving might help. Calling your friend before you buy a bottle might help. Joining an (online) meeting of any denomination might help. Something else might help. This is not going to end well when you keep going like this friend. Think of alternatives. Write them down. Pin them on your wall or mirror. I’m glad you’re here. I’m gladder you’re sober. Hugs.
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I feel disappointed in myself for not doing these things first. Writing a plan is a good idea. I will do this tomorrow. I’m scared at how close I came to drinking today and don’t want to let myself get to that point again. I’ve been working hard on myself and don’t want to go backwards. Thanks for the advice and support.
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You made it through though, and you made the right decision in the end. You didn’t give in. This is hard stuff. Be proud. I am of you. 
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Thanks for saying this I needed to hear it. Next time I hope I handle it better. I need to put a plan in place and stick to it but I am so glad I didn’t drink in the end.
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Checking in on day
443 no alcohol
374no vapes or ciggs 83 no gorm of nicotine
43 no form of marijuanna
Gotta work and save
Very important for me
Spent 2$ on canned food for lunch
2$ on a drink
The rest of the day is supplied free water
Its possible to grow
We got this
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Day 18. No cravings at all, but I’m feeling extremely sad today. I miss my kids and life with them. It’s so hard to face the reality and all the shit I’ve been doing in the past.
Just took a long walk and now I’m drinking coffee. I hope you all have a great day/night! Love and peace to ya’ll!
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You’re a winner because you didn’t drink. That’s so awesome! Don’t be too hard on yourself, shit happens in life. You didn’t relapse and that’s a win. We got this! Stay strong!
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Day 26 sober from everything
Wow!!! I’m finally past the longest I’ve ever been sober!!! Picking up my 1 month CA chip soon :DDD Have a great day yall
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Checking in on day 3
Today I spent the day at the pool with my mom, a friend and her mom. Ladies day! 
we had some nice lunch (everybody had to bring something). Once I got home I decided to go for my daily 7K walk! Now it’s 9:00 pm already, quick shower, dinner, some TV and that’s about it for the day! 
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178 days AF
Not questioning sobriety at all.
Dogsitting time with Luna 
Assembled a new wardrobe for one of my rooms today. My car got a fresh professional polish and it was so worth it. 
Deleted all dating shit! 
Love you guys 
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Checking in after 33 days no gaming and youtube. Was quite productive and tried hard in the gym. Sadly got 2 replies from companies that didnt invite me to interviews. But on the other hand im really looking forward to interviewing at 2 different companies next week.
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Day 894
Had a really good sleep last night but still woke up tired. Managed to get myself going at about 9am. Took my son for a nice long walk and then walked to the grocery store for a few things. Came home to have lunch and now to tidy up. Still feeling a bit tired but im alright. Thats about it for my day. Hope everyone is doing well 
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Ya it is! Lucky 
777’s
Very nice 
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Day 1315,
Winning a tennis match after losing the first set with 0-6 and by changing the strategy to serve and volley and stick to that plan and win feels pretty damn good 
Putting the resilience most addicts like me have in their usage into healthier things feels much better…
Have a sober 24
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That’s a beautiful post @Bluekoolaid you Should post more often 
“don’t look back your not going that way “ it’s a quote from someone and I like it ,all we can do is make amends and live life doing the next right thing …peace and blessings 
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@Bluekoolaid fantastic, honest post. Minimal effort won’t do it- I’ve tried and failed every time. Once things start getting better the ego can take over and tell you you’re cured, that you have nothing in common with people who are struggling with relapse, that it can’t happen to you.
I went six years, once. At that point I thought work was all that mattered, and put it in front of my sobriety. Threw away six years.
I feel good today, like my life is starting to come together. Feeling better physically and mentally. You’d think I’d want to go out and ride that natural high on a Friday night. No, I can’t live like normal people! I’ve been so busy with my life this week that my sobriety was taken for granted. I’m only 4 months sober. My Friday night will be recovery. Sometimes it’s the good times that bite us. Everything gets so good that I forget I’m an alcoholic and only a few months sober. Going to do it differently this time and not stray.
I’m proud of you for reaching out and adding to your support and connection. So glad you’re here with us, friend!
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Definitely pays off to spend lots of time in these safe places, reading, writing. It’s the connection that is so amazing. We write, sometimes thinking we’re just helping ourselves but many invisible people are reading. Whether it’s struggle or victory, someone might be inspired by your post. Maybe lots of people. It’s a beautiful thing.
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@mrsodh Congrats on getting in on the gardening program. Hopefully you will find out about the Library program placement soon enough.
@catmancam Sorry for the flashbacks friend – I do hope the therapy helped 
@karenkw Sending healing vibes your way. Being sick especially in the summer with the flu is total hell. Get better soon
@misokatsu OOH karate camp sounds awesome. Hope the kids have fun. Man that is bs – I do agree that 4 years of you being sober should be proof that you are not the same person. I am not sure why some of our friends / family members refuse to see the change. 1445 days is boss Flo—should be super proud of yourself as I know we all are of your progress!
@whereswaldo Hope all is well with your wife and baby. Glad she is at the hospital being looked after (I would be way too anxious at home). Sending you positive comforting vibes my friend. Any day now you will be meeting your baby
@ncgolfer Nicely done with day 4 Sean. Best to have a concrete plan to keep busy and make sure to have your support systems in place (like this site) – reach out at any time to connect or read. First weekends can be hard – we got your back!
@laner So sorry for the rough day friend. I am sorry to hear how much you are struggling and how close you came to a relapse. SO very grateful that you poured that poison out. Glad you were able to come here and also talk to a friend in real life. Don’t feel disappointed in yourself. You did not give in! This shows strength and you learned of more tools to add for when the urges arise again. Remember that you are not alone
@mrmoustache Sorry for the sad feelings friend. I don’t know your story but feel like hopefully if you continue to stay sober and work your recovery that maybe you will be able to reconnect with your loved ones. 18 days is impressive work. Don’t let the past or your previous actions dictate who you are today. Be proud of your progress and your daily efforts.
@john_connor1337 That’s awesome man – way to go! Looking forward to celebrating your 1 month milestone with you 
@bluekoolaid Great to see you checking in Trevor – wow 5 months or close to it is impressive work grateful to see you putting so much effort into your recovery. Hope to see you checking in often
Checking in on Friday evening
583 days free of alcohol and weed
998 days free of cigarettes
Was a decent day. Had some emotional stuff that I needed to work through – feel a bit lighter now. Dealing with some issues with goals not being met and backslides. Trying to think positive and have faith. Grateful that I did not cave into my cravings today. Not so much cravings but more the FUCK IT why am I even bothering with this much effort type thinking. Sometimes when we don’t see the results we want or see us going backwards (even 1 step) we forget how far we have actually come and how much progress we have made. Grateful that I took a moment to pray and yell into the void. The release helped me realize just what I would be giving up if I caved.
Another day sober – another day of healing and growing.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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