238 days
Another day at work, pretty quiet Saturday. Thenout for dinner with the family.
Pretty good day. Hopefully up early tomorrow for some sunday morning sparring at the gym.
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Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 150
Was up way too late playing games on the phone/computer with the boys yesterday.
Theyāve been wanting a " Really late Gaming night) and yesterday was the perfect time for it.
Today itāll be much earlier to bed because weāre up early again on Monday for the Cowboy/Western theme park.
Cleaned the entire house and did some Fixing yesterday, today I need to got and buy some wooden beams and building material to Finnish the boys room.
My husband and brother have decided that they want to arrange a garage sale here tomorrow and next weekend. Iām not impressed If I was in charge I would just take everything to the city dump instead of trying to sell it.
Itās going to be me who do all the work anyway, my husband still have problems to move and my brother is simply lazy, trying to tell us via the phone how he wants to sell his stuff. He wonāt even be here in person. And when they havenāt sold anything because people are on vacation itās going to be me who packs it and takes it to the city dump anyway.
Now Iām going to take a walk far away from this garage sale mess, and enjoy the few rays pf sunshine that goes through the clouds. Looking forward to next week when the weather is supposed to be amazing.
Thatās all Folks 
Wishing yāall a wonderful day.
But at least they have hope, and thatās a good thing.
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Day 13/Day 11
Hi everyone hope weāre all ok odaat . I had a great day yesterday with my daughter. my second weekend sober with her and my days was it amazing I was present, I was active ,I was at fucking peace for once, I wasnāt worrying about trains being late and not being able to cope with my daughter for an extra hour at a train station . Not visiting toilets to have a drink of jack or making excuses to have a quick half Every hour and not fuckin STONED and knackard,my god Iām starting to realise how difficult addicts make life . Iām so much happier now at day thirteen yeah I got a bit anxious when she was at the pier ploughing 2p s in the machine at the rate I drink pupil s dilated and running around in the bloody madness (Iām gonna have to keep an eye on her sobriety in a few years !) but it was ok I had the calmness and ability to lead her out when she was upset that itās all gone !! (Shit I know that feeling)Because I wasnāt half cut or stoned I didnāt get cross I acted like a parent should .weāre back to net fishing today and I can do that today and want to do it because I can stay sober today odaatšblessings and love to all on ts
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That sounds like a big win! Good for you. Youāre showing up for your daughter in the best way. Keep it up 
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Day 1809 no alcohol
Day 4 no binge eating
Life has been extremely busy this week in a good way I like being busy but I have a week holidays now and Iām at the airport with my daughter waiting on our flight to Egypt, 5 years ago I wouldnāt of had the patience to organise booking and packing everything to do with a holiday all I was worried about was I hope 
we didnāt do too much so I could get stupid drunk and make an eejit of myself and destroy everyone holiday but now Iām sitting in the airport content with myself and reading a book
Hope everyone has a great day 
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Day 255, i am seriously looking forward to my one on one monday. All is pretty good, but idk its just nice to see my therapist. Work is ok, i say my gratitudes in the morning and look at all the good in everything i have. My girls are safe, i am safe, i have a very decent job that i do love and some days will be much more difficult than others. My neighbor that i share a bathroom with has been coming home drunk alot lately, last night he was slamming the toilet seat and making growning and moaning sounds in the bathroom all night which was getting pretty annoying lol, but it also was a big reminder of wtf im not missing out on. I didnt say anything about the girl heather im talking to bc idk i just feel like every time i talk to someone it dont last or i usually write a post saying well that didnt work out. But i am very grateful this girl came into my life. I had no intention of dating after that last girl. But heather works in sterile processing department where i clean and started reaching out to me so i figured id see where it would go. This was a cute little note she left me yesterday and its nice to get little things like this. Much love sober fam, happy Saturday
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@Bluekoolaid thanks for sharing, sorry about the consequences 
but Iām glad youāre sober and doing things for your recovery now 
congrats on almost 5 months 
@Laner Iām so glad you poured it away, you showed yourself it really is not what you want
@JazzyS thank you, it did š©µ those F**k it thoughts are my Kryptonite, congrats on dealing with yours in a healthy way 
@acromouse Iām glad youāve had a great vacation safe travels home š©µ
@Mno 
@Lisa-B sorry about the panic attack hoping the hike does release some of those darker thoughts 
sending strength š©µ
@MrsOdh congrats on 150 days
@Conor80 enjoy Egypt 
@Mindofsobermike that is cute
1446 days no alcohol.
911 days no cocaine.
426 days no vape.
0 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Therapy yesterday was intense, but good. It felt like only 5 minutes, sometimes Monday sessions feel like that too. I spoke about my flashbacks and identified why they might be coming up now.
I also spoke about some disturbing new memories from the night I experienced sexual violence back in 2012. I also said how I wish I could have a preview of how I would be and feel like, without all of my many medications. None of my doctors or psychiatrists Iāve spoken to about it have agreed to help me come off them, they all say the risks outweigh everything else. The psychiatrist (therapist) didnāt express an opinion, he just asked me why I think Iām reading the book thatās making me feel this way. (Lost Connections).
I have listened to my body, and figured that 1300 steps is my current limit before agony. So now I can only walk 650 meters down the path and then back. Itās frustrating but I know I have to pace myself in this way, in order for my back to improve without more setbacks. I am doing my rehab exercises as well.
I read a chapter of each of the books Iām reading. I plan to finish one of them today, then I can return it to the Monday therapist who lent it to me.
I did my morning routine and some meditations.
I took all my rubbish and recycling out to the bins. This doesnāt take very long, but it always feels good.
I have my next tenancy inspection on the 8th Aug so Iām planning to start some decluttering today.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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Thatās a wonderful post. Thank you for being honest and reaching out. Posts like this help to feel connected with the community here. We canāt do it alone and we donāt have to do it alone.
Itās great having you on board Trevor. Sending love and strength your way 
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Checking in day 131.
Uhhhh so it looks like weāll be meeting our little girl tomorrow! A week ahead of schedule. Wish us luck 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1504. I hope everybody has a good one 
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Checking in on day 4
This morning I had breakfast with a friend of mine, weāve been friends for almost 25 years. Sheās the type of person that says I shouldnāt āexaggerateā when I say I need to stop drinking, and that things have gotten out of hand. She barely drinks, and besides that I used to be the perfect in the closet drinker, always lying, hiding stuff, coming up with excuses when people want to meet, cause Iād rather drink alone. I think, till this day, sheās not aware of the extend of my problem. When we see each other, alcohol is not even discussed, which is good. This has to become a small and irrelevant part of my life, alcohol has been the main protagonist for waaaay to long! 
This friend lives on a finca, and has a fruit an vegetable garden. Today I left there loaded with onions, tomatoes, green peppers, egg plants and melon! I just made salad called ātrampĆ³ā with most of the ingredients! Life can be good! Iām grateful for that!
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So true love. We have to find that balance of dealing with things while trying not to let that process swallow us whole. Sleep is my go to escape too. Hopefully you know that you are strong as hell. You have made serious progress! Hope you find time for self care 
@Kareness hope you are able to relax and enjoy the weekend. Sometimes when things start piling up at work and compoundingā¦thatās when I need to step back and take a breather. Hope that you are able to distance yourself from it this weekend and hopefully that works 
@Lisa-B sorry to hear of your panic attack. They are awful and can feel so overwhelmingly suffocating. Glad you started up the therapy and will be out in nature hiking today. Hoping that this helps bring calmness to you. Big hugs love. Here if you need
@MrFantastik Happy birthday Marty!! Have a wonderful time celebrating you today. 
@Conor80 have a safe tripā¦ hopefully we will see some travel pics. Egypt is on my bucket listā¦have a great adventure
@Mindofsobermike listening to slamming toilet seat can be super annoying but yeahā¦a great reminder that you are in the better path. Hope you managed to get some rest. Such a sweet note Mike 
@CATMANCAM do take it easy and glad you are not testing your limits. Do what you can and hopefully your back shows improvement soon. I donāt like depending on medications but sometimes we need them to help us get better and hopefully in time we can ween off of them. This may not be the time to give me up. Keep working your recovery friend.
@Whereswaldo ooh thatās excitingā¦all the luck and love my friend. Much comfort to your wife
Happy Saturday everyoneā¦didnāt sleep well and Iām fighting a migraine. In bed with some coffee 
ā¦not a bad way to start off a Saturday
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love 
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Hi everyone, im back on day one again. Im struggling this time. I really need someone to reachout throughout today and say " hey Julia dont drink anything tonight!" Like a reminder or something. Im going to hop on a zoom AA as well today.
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Day 179 AfmfA
On tuesday I will hit the half year mark.
And I WILL
Thought about a visit at a beautician as a gift, as I have some blemishes (actually I have great skin, itās just minor things), but I have to clarify first if she can handle hyper sensitive skin.
Pause swimming today as I have sore muscles from the wardrobe yesterday 
Learningā¦
After deleting all the dating shit and positioning this as a non priority in my life I feel peace here in the āgirls villaā.
My guest Luna poses how we feel here ā¦
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The container says to mix it with water to make PB. I personally use less water than the suggested ratio because I prefer a thicker consistency. My tip is to start small and add a little at a time until you get your desired texture. I rarely use the powder to make just PB though, I love adding it to yogurt and smoothies. My favorite combo is adding the powder straight to vanilla yogurt. It almost turns into a PB dip for apple slices or sliced bananas. Iāll also add the powder to smoothies for an extra flavor and protein boost
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Hi Jazzy! Thank you for your kind words. Despite everything, Iām okay and still sober. I donāt have cravings, Iām just sad and depressed. Part of the game. I know this will get better.
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Hey Julia! Donāt worry, shit happens and you can always start again. Just be gentle to yourself. You got this, we got this. Stay strong!
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Just checking in day 77. Another invite to a winery tonight. I donāt think Iām ready for that just yet, so Iām going to decline. I wish they had non alcoholic options, but i guess what would be the point.
Itās a sunny day here in the Midwest. Have a great day everyone!
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Thank you. Im going to reach out to my sponser too. š©·
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