Nice chilling Sunday ahead going to get a few bits in town but no rush ,I’m taking things slow today watched a bit of comedy this morning, I don’t normally put my tv on it’s like a big black ornament that sits there but I enjoyed lol and it’s put me in a good frame of mind . I’ve also written a list for the stuff I have to get today so I don’t worry or panic about my poor recovering addled mind 
hope everyone s having a good 24 hours .love and sober blessings to you all:+1:
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@Mno That vid is rad 
I’ll have to try the second method for getting ON the bike.
@19801 Do go to the Netherlands, get on a bike, start pedalling and never stop. It’s the best thing 
And if you are really into cycling I would suggest something less crowded than Amsterdam itself 
@Timetochange 400 is so f*$king impressive 
@Thirdmonkey Good to read TS is part of your balance cause your contributions - especially to the RD thread - are a significant part to my peace of mind too 
@MrsOdh Sorry to hear about your brother’s behaviour. It’s tough to experience this with someone close on and on. And yay to not giving a s**t. 
@Juli1 I get you on the YT evening drain. I realised I needed some way for my mind to unwind after the day and YT was my attempt to do so. But it also did not work too well. What I found that really works for me are buddhist based (Recovery Dharma) online meetings instead of mindless YT. I have a set time frame, there will be a relaxing atmosphere, a reflective reading, a very calming guided meditation and sharing. You can opt to listen only. But always works for me in terms of winding down, calming my mind and getting me into a great mindset for bed. I usually do a very short bit of bed yoga and then I’m off into dream land.
@SoberWalker Look at all the luck headed your way 
What kind of exhibition are going to see?
@Just_Laura What is your strategy or your tools for dealing with the thought chaos in your mind if you don’t mind me asking?
@DanaM56 A book club is something I was also entertaining to join. I think I’m going to look for one after the summer break. How many are you there? And yay to online meetings.
@Scorpn Sending you strength and a good vibes for your current funk. I hope you get out of this very uncomfortable situation soon 
249 sugar
113 UPF
120 gluten
19 dairy
2 overeating
Back home from my vacation. Today is time for my weekly review, where have I been, where am I now and where am I heading. Household chores, laundry and such. A bike ride maybe later, some yoga in the late afternoon and Recovery Dharma GEM in the evening.
Whatever the day may bring: I’m going for peace, kindness and freedom 
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@acromouse i definitely need to go to the Netherlands sober!!! I’m gonna love it ,such a beautiful country and gentle people
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It’s a big concern here too. 25km is legally the maximum speed. But it’s easy to make m go 50 or 60. Parents giving their 13 y/o kids one is just crazy. Many accidents. When they’re made faster and accidents happen they have to pay, or the parents when they’re underage. But really dangerous situation. Electric motorcycles on the bike path driven by 13 y/o’s looking at their phones.
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Day 167
Sunday night check in. Had a fun weekend despite the constant rain/drizzle.
I really enjoy reading everyone’s little wins across these threads. Just knowing people are achieving so many different things sober is really heart-warming.
Keep kicking ass folks
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Day 256. Had a good evening yesterday, went to heathers after work and made us some good dinner. Then we sat and she colored while i drew lol. Then i went home and did some laundry. Probably going to go for a bike ride after work. Lately i feel this urge to just cry, i feel kinda sad for some reason. Had a funny dream last night where i was a cook for a restaurant and they fired me bc i was to slow. Idk i woke up giggling this morning, ill take it over relapse dreams. Much love
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239 days
Nice family day. Went to the gym early, then took the kids for their swimming lessons. Out for lunch then home for a quick nap
At the gym this morning a guy made mention of it being better than being hungover on a Sunday morning, had a laugh and could only agree with him.
Currently on nightshift at work. Not too busy but a bit of training and some admin stuff.
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Checking in early on a Sunday morning, 16 days into year two. Sending peaceful vibes to all!
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Checking in day 132, at hospital with our baby girl, Eleanor. Everyone happy and healthy. I’m so proud of her and her mum. They did so great.
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Day 205 free from addiction
Life is becoming more and more about living it and finding things I enjoy doing. Not just work, though that is something I love to do, but all kinds of things.
Yesterday after installing new saddle bags on the bike, I went for a 5 hour cruise. So sore and tired but just an amazing day. First day off from working in 21 days so was awesome to just treat myself with an amazing and beautiful day riding everywhere and anywhere.
This Friday coming jumping on a plane for a trip to Toronto and taking in a concert with wife and friends, and spending the next day hanging out in the city biking and eating, just enjoying all it has to offer.
My friend and wife will be imbibing I’m certain, but it doesn’t even register as an issue for me. I’ll enjoy there company until I’m tired and hit the hay.
Well that’s this day as it is. Best decision I’ve ever made was to quit the cycle of drink/hangover…
Now off to do some more mowing. Grass just keeps growing. Haha
Pic of bike after ride, all nice and clean… well kinda!
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21 days. Feeling hot hot hot
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@Whereswaldo Congratulations 
. What an angel.
@Timetochange Congratulations 
@Juli1 Shorts really can get their hooks into me. I won’t spend two hours to watch a movie I want to see, but will idle away the same or more watching pointless shorts. I hate it.
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Day 149!
Yeah they’re adding up and I feel like a person at last. I’m not sure who I was before.
Congratulations to @Whereswaldo !!! She’s lovely 
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1447
Well, had a bit of a meltdown yesterday. Curled up in a ball crying hysterically kind of meltdown. The surface cause was not important, but there has just been a string of small failures that have added up to me feeling worthless. And then guilty that I am getting upset over insignificant things. And feeling lonely that I don’t have anyone to talk to about these things. Many of them are based on me understanding the surface meaning of things, but not understanding the implications. But because I understand the surface meaning I don’t realize I don’t understand the implications until it is too late. I feel like I should be living perfectly without these misunderstandings after 20 years abroad. I am beyond the highest level in the Japanese Proficiency Test, and it is still not enough. I just feel like I want to crawl into a hole and stay there and not deal with school, or homeowner association people, or my kids schedules.
Edit just to say, but part of being sober is dealing with these things sober. Just feeling them, then putting on big girl pants and moving on.
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Checking in during break time at work on day
445 no alcohol
376 no vapes or ciggs 85no form of nicotine
45 no form of pot
Wifes doing great
Babys doing amazing
Im in the moment andvthats what works for me
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Congratulations she’s a beauty.
Wishing you good luck and all the best for your new little family. And as always take it one day at a time 
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One day at a time Flo. Thanks for sharing. We’re in this together. All of us. Grateful you’re still here with me
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@Whereswaldo oh wow! I hope all went well 
🩵 just seen your update, congratulations 
@JazzyS yeah, I just have to remind myself how bad things were before the meds, and how bad things can get still, even on them. I hope you are migraine free today 🩵
@Button83 keep trying, stay connected🫂🩵
@Juli1 omg your guest looks so cute 
@tailee17 congrats on 5 months
@stand_like_an_oak congrats on 60 days
@Jessica2 welcome 
congrats on 2 days
@Scorpn sending strength 🩵 I hope work goes fast and that you sleep better tonight
@Thirdmonkey I’m glad you checked in 🩵
@Timetochange congrats on 400 days
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@TheWolf congrats on 3 weeks
@Misokatsu that sounds very frustrating sending strength 🩵
1447 days no alcohol.
912 days no cocaine.
427 days no vape.
0 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
I only slept for a total of 3 hours last night, and the night before. Yesterday I had no energy, but I caught-up here, finished the book that my Monday therapist lent me, did my steps, did half of my morning routine, watched 3 episodes of The Masked Singer US, I only have the final left to watch now. The final of the other program I’m watching is tomorrow night. Then I’m not going to start any new shows in my bedroom for a while, and will go back to having early nights instead. I’m hoping this will eliminate the binge-eating.
Today, I also have no energy and my blood glucose is the highest it’s ever been, so I’m not feeling well. I will read a chapter of the Kindle book I’m reading, do my steps, my morning routine, and catch-up on last night’s episode of the show I’m watching. I have a freestanding shelving unit that I need to build, but I also need to create space for it in the spare room, so I’m not sure if that will be achievable today or not.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
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Day 85 
Really feel like I’m missing out. I know it’s silly and I’m trying not to give these thoughts the time of day…I just know how my last relapse started and it was with fear of missing out, not having any friends to do exciting sober stuff with or even non exciting stuff just to have human conversations and company.
Feeling like I’m just sitting alone all the time just rotting away trying to be good
I know it’s silly thinking it’s just not budging.
I think from tomorrow I am going to go on a healthy body detox if eating soup packed with nutrients and get in the gym everyday and swim because it’s boredem and being alone all the time and being full of energy causing me to feel like I want to go out and drink.
My son is so sensible for a 21 year old man and his the only reason I am staying sober right now - or the reason I have not drank. ( There are many more reasons but my mind is like tunnel vision ATM and I can’t see all those other reasons although they are there)
So staying in the house means I stay sober but I also am so bored and lonely and I’m fed up feeling like I’m in constant battle with myself. Fed up not having anyone to just go for lunch with or a walk with. Problem making friends sober.
Think I’m seeing all the problems around me but not the problems of myself and how to navigate what I am perceiving as problems.
Rant over.
Now book a gym session and swim for tomorrow.
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