Checking in daily to maintain focus #68

2193 days. 6 years yesterday and going strong.

We do recover. :heart: :v:t3:

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Oh my! 6 years is tremendous. Thanks for sharing great news with us!
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I went for Ron Mueck, I follow him for years.
Love his work!
It like reel! And if you see it you want to touch it (but are not allowed to :blush:).


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In a good place today, exercise and eating well. I’m actually looking forward to getting the working week started tomorrow.

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Congratulations mate she’s a beauty😊 lots of love to you and your wife

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Hey friends. And others I haven’t gotten to know but we are all friends here. It’s been a tough weekend alone, reliving some trauma. I had a first therapy session with a new person on Friday and was brutally honest for the first time in therapy. I really had a hard time connecting with online therapy. Face to face is a whole new experience and I’m feeling that. My husband is visiting friends this weekend and after that therapy and dealing with this depressive period I’m in I’m just hanging in there. Man, stress lately has me down. Anyway just wanted to reach out.

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I’m sorry to read that you’re goin through some rough times… not really much I can say to lift you up I guess, te mando un fuerte abrazo! :hugs:

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Checking in day 209 AF :blush:

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Gracias amiga :people_hugging:

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Sorry to hear you’re going through a depressive period. But you’re not alone, we all are here for you. I’m only at day 20 and it’s been a rollercoaster ride switching from extreme sadness to ecstacy. Today was a good day before overwhelming sadness just poured in and then came the depression out of nowhere. Hang in there, better days are coming for all of us! Just gotta stay strong.

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The thought that I haven’t really given AA a chance did pass through my mind when I writ my post.
It provoked me to think about what’s the real reason for not going - In a positive way.

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That’s so cute 6 months old :hugs:
What a lovely name too!
Still catching up here :laughing: there is so much that I miss as so many posts - id rather blame that than my memory :blush:

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Yay! Congratulations on 6 years @Eke!
That’s a whole lot of 24s you got there.
:tada: :partying_face:

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Day 6 checking in. Feeling better after getting through the weekend alcohol free! Even played 2 rounds of golf without touching a drink. Proud of myself and grateful. Hope everyone enjoyed their weekends!

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Well it’s 22:53 here and it’s taken14 days …. Im naturally tired :slightly_smiling_face::slightly_smiling_face::slightly_smiling_face::pray:t2: I love the way my eyes are dropping and I haven’t had any alcohol or drugs night night everyone . I’m taking full advantage of the gifts of sleep

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2y 4m 26 d no self harm

almost relapsed. still not entirely sure that I won’t

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Having some extremely intrusive self harm urges and thoughts. I’m tempted to buy some blades at the drug store… It’s just easier to give in than to fight it. It’s an internal battle in my mind… To self harm or stay safe. I’m stressed I dont want to mess up and get kicked out of my group home I have nowhere else to go… Advice?

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it’s not worth it!!

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@button83 How are you doing Julia? Hope you are enjoying a beautiful Sunday :hugs:
@jeanine 77+ days is great work! Smart move on passing on the winery tour – I don’t think I would be ready to put myself in that environment. I loved all alcohol but Red wine was my kryptonite :laughing: Hope you are enjoying your weekend
@stand_like_an_oak YEAH! 2 months + is amazing work – Keep up with your solid efforts :muscle:
@justkaitlin That is an impressive active day! Love the energy and strength that we gain with sober living! Many more adventures ahead :heart:
@jessica2 Welcome to the community Jessica. Grateful to have you here with us and working on your sober journey! Lets keep stacking up the days :muscle:
@butterflymoonwoman That sounds like a hell of a dream! I know even though we know it’s a dream our mindset and general being can be off after a realistic dream. Glad you did not put yourself in a draining situation at work after such a dream but practiced self care instead. Glad the gym helped :hugs:
@sadmemequeen How are you doing Meghan? It is exhausting to still have to battle the urges after such a long period but sometimes our minds need time to heal reconfigure it so that we can find better coping mechanisms. Our minds need to relate other ways to deal with our bad days / moods etc. There is no time line on when this will happen and that is the sucky part. You have gained a lot of tools friend. You are working your recovery daily and you are kicking ass each day! Glad the list helped. Remember to always check in and stay connected. I find reading here helps me keep on top of my tools as sometimes I forget the simple ways of dealing with my urges when they hit hard. Much love to you :heart: :hugs: Hoping today was a better day for you. Just saw your update – OH GIRL I’m sorry love – do not give into that urge. You are too precious to harm. Please reach out here – spend time reading / writing whatever! Reach out to a help line or a friend. :hugs:
@scorpn Hope you had the energy to get through today. Sorry your sleep was so messed up last night- hopefully it makes for a good sleep night tonight :pray: Not being fully alert and energized can cause our defenses to fall. This is when we have to stay connected and vigilant. Sending you strength and energy friend. Remember that SH will not help you but will only cause harm to a beautiful woman. :people_hugging: :heart:
@just_laura So happy to see how much you have grown in a year’s time. Grateful that you are not dealing with panic attacks and are finding it easier to deal with the chaos / stress of it all. Hope you enjoy your time to recharge. I try to elevate my legs as much a possible. 90 degrees is best at least once a day but at night I put my foam roller under them for some time (it ends up on the floor by the time I get up but at least I get some elevation time in.
@juli1 180 days and going strong :muscle: Looking forward to celebrating your milestone with you soon :hugs: I find it very easy to get sucked into the rabbit holes of social media. I get sucked into You Tube shorts when I am looking for something totally different (it has delayed a lot of my projects). Hope you enjoy your swim and BBQ – sounds like a perfect Sunday

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@thirdmonkey You were missed Scott. I totally agree – this place helps me stay centered and motivated in my sober journey.
@mrsodh That is some BS! Glad you handled it well and are setting up your boundaries!
@timetochange WOOT WOOT! 400 days is amazing work :muscle: Keep stacking up the days! :tada:
@mindofsobermike Waking up giggling is a great way to start the day. I think we go through pockets in our recovery where we release the pent up emotions that we have hit so deep inside. Grateful that they don’t all come out at once or we would go mental (this is my take on why we feel some random emotions out of the blue). Keep kicking ass friend – 256 days is amazing!
@whereswaldo OMG such a beautiful picture and baby girl – welcome to the world baby Elenor :heart: Grateful that baby and mom are doing well. :hugs: :heart: Much love all around!
@thewolf Nicely done with 3 weeks – love the feeling and keep it going :muscle:
@misokatsu You are right that being sober means dealing with our feelings and the situation sober and then hopefully moving on in a healthy manner. BUT – you can reach out and connect so that you are not dealing with it alone. You are not alone and you are not a worthless. I know that not getting the results we want with what we set out to do can mean failure. I think this is the nature of what is taught to us and some cultures are harder on enforcing it than others. You have nothing to feel guilty about. It is natural to feel down when we don’t meet our expectations (or those of society) but the key is to know that we tried our best and we will not let not meeting the goal hold us back from trying again! The time zone sucks but know that I’m here if you need to vent or talk. :hugs:
@twizzlers 85 days girl – look at you go! So close to the triple digits :tada: The silly thinking is silly but valid if you know what I mean. It does suck living a sober life when you leave so much of your life behind and don’t have sober activities / friends to fill the void. I am glad that you are going to start the detox and go to the gym (I do love a good workout and swim). Are you also able to look into book clubs / meet ups or hiking clubs in the area (activities that will help you meet and engage with people in a non alcoholic environment)? Can you write down the reasons as they come to you for why you are not drinking (maybe re-read some of your old posts to help) so that you have them in front of you and don’t get stuck with the tunnel vision? Sending you love and strength my friend – we are in this together – just remember to stay connected :people_hugging:
@laner That totally makes sense and I am so glad that you were able to host the Sunday group today. Love that you are focusing on some of the good memories of your past too. So great to see you not letting your traumas overtake you! Sending you good vibes for your meeting tomorrow! :people_hugging:
@eke Great to see you checking in and with 6 years!!! That is amazing work :muscle:
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