Checking in day 139.
Becoming more resilient, mindful and patient each day.
Have a great week everyone!
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Day 903
Morning friends! Just enjoying my coffee while on the way to work. I managed thru my 2nd overnight shift thankfully. Feeling not 100% like myself but i think ill manage. Just 1 more overnight to do and we should have care for the rest of the month 
I was quite emotional last night. Did too much thinking. I read something yesterday that really resonated with meā¦about being angry that I am an addict. I felt this. Im angry that i am an addict and that ive had to struggle. To be honest, I dont even know what its like to not be an addict or what life would look like if I wasnt one. Ive struggled and fought my whole life. In one sense im angry that I am, but in another sense I am grateful that I am an addict. I know that sounds strange but i most likely wouldnt be as spiritually connected or as compassionate if I wasnt. I am the amazing woman i am today bcuz im an addict and in recovery.
Last night i was also really down bcuz i binged on food. If its not drugs or alcohol, its food. I know that being tired has its effect on me. Thankfully i dont binge overnight anymore so thats progress but i ate wayyyy too much at supper/evening snack. I felt sick and then i realized that I am killing myself with food. I want to be as healthy as i can be and here I am stuffing myself with unhealthy food. Heart disease runs in my family and i certainly dont want to have a heart attack. It sort of āwokeā me up when i realized that im slowly killing myself by eating the foods that i do.
I think ive thought enough for one day lol i AM going to make changes tho. I have to. If i want to be around for my son and to live a long life, i need to take better care of myself. It will be nice when i get regularly get to the gym (once my son is in school). That will help tremendously.
Anyway, thanks for me letting me get my thoughts out there. I hope u all have a fantastic sunday! Much love 
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4 months sober today! 
Well the funeral is over. Was a rough few days but I got through them.
Tomorrow Iāll be meeting with my new counselor online again. Iām feeling a bit anxious about it. I keep getting paranoid about stupid things like the internet going out or the electricity going off. Donāt know why Iām worried about these thingsā¦seems pretty stupid. I guess Iām just feeling anxious about it. I made some plans after to have a long hike before getting into work things. Am relaxing now and think Iāll go to bed early tonight. Hope everyone is having a good day and staying sober.
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I have 4 sisters and 3 sister in laws. I learned the hard way to keep my opinion to myself when it comes to their marriages. Iāll be their sounding board and spend time listening to them vent, but I have to bite my tongue constantly. Taking sides is a big fat NO. The only advice I offer is āwould you rather be right or would you rather be happy? Compromise is a huge factor in a successful marriage.ā And I leave it at that. If theyāre looking for someone to agree with them, they know by now, they wonāt get it from me.
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Best sober codependent life lessen out there!!
Oh and by the way that meme you posted @Lisa07 was fire. You got game girl.
Significant 
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Checking on on lunch break at wor on day
452 no alcohol
383 no vapes or ciggs 92 no form of nicotine
52 no form of marijuanna
Thinking of my lil family
Easy day today at work
Im comfy in my own skin
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I usually go that route as well, and youāre right itās probably the best way to handle anything. Sometimes I just canāt, like in this mess.
The main reason that sheās mad in the first place is that he wonāt do things her way.
Word doesnāt work like that.
Compromise is key.
Theyāve solved it during the day, and will as usual do things her way. Sheās still mad at me, but for now, I donāt care. 
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Checking in with 119 days sober.
Yesterday was rough with one of the older kids. This one is my stepson. I see a situation brewing and donāt have the influence Iād like to fix it. Itās super frustrating to see a great chance of failure headed his way.
I wanted to drink my feelings away but I didnāt. Today will still be stressful but Iāll stay sober today too.
I keep repeating the serenity prayer to myself.
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DRAMA! Stay strong ! Sending you hugs. I will say a prayer for you all!
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Congratulations on 4 months sober! I have been with you the whole way!
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Day 27, checking in. I took a long walk today in the nature and in the middle of the walk it started raining. I got wet but it was worth it. Now Iāve been watching series and thinking should I order pizza although Iām on a diet trying to lose weight. The struggle is real, haha! But I donāt have any (other) cravings which is good. Have a fabulous Sunday yaāll!
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Checking in day 159. Hubby just left for a couple days for a funeral. Thought to myself now I can sit back and relax just a bit. But ānoooā
Kitten would rather climb my bare legs then play with toys. 100 pound dog moping on the couch because she didnāt get to go with dad. Just like a friggin teenager. She even heaves loud sighs every few minutes. ā¦ I have kitchen work I must attend to but that does make me happy. I have to get to pool today as last few days we have had company and been busy.
I am thrilled with my sobriety. Very happy with current status of relationship with husband. Caught up on laundry and house still tidy!
If any newly sober person is reading please know from my experience a sober life is the best. It does get better. Donāt want to preach but having God or higher power has been the answer for me!
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Pizza? Iām there. So nice to read your post! My first couple months ignored calorie intake. Now I am focusing on healthy eating and exercise.
There is time for all things. Not indulging your DOC is the first priority!
Have a great day!
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Thank you for your message! Youāre right, the priority in this early stage of recovery is just concentrating on sobriety, no matter what. My problem is that Iām too harsh to myself, I should learn some selflove and compassion towards me. Oh well, one day at a time.
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Day 1324,
Checking in. Feeling some challenging feelings, trying to reach my intuition and staying out of flight, freeze, fight modus.
Have a good sober 24 
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Feeling so much better this weekend. I know I did things yesterday to help me feel better today, and Iām going to do things today that make me feel better tomorrow, like not drinking for one. Iāve been realizing that I get locked in a routine and that that can make me feel depressed. I need to break out of that routine even if it is to do something small. Looking forward to finding out what that thing will be for today. Have a happy and sober day friends.
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Itās always drama in this family.
Thatās the main reason I want to live on an Island far far away, where you need a long flight, a long buss ride that takes day, a long boatride over a stormy sea with pirates, sharks, and maybe kraken, then a two weeks walk through a dangerous jungle, and finally youāll need to climb a mountain to get to my house.
Then Iāll probably will get some peace and quiet.
If it aināt my side of the family that creates drama itās my husbands side.
We try to stay away but it kinda creeps up on us anyway.
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I do see you are handling it amazingly! Remember that island wonāt have WIFI. We would miss you something awful. 
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Day 2 , looking forward to day 3
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