Just Checkin
I’ve been going back and forth for a year. What is this insistence on when the only thing I should do is the path I followed before? Long story short, I’m starting again. This time, I will also take medication supplements to support me for the first month. Wish me luck 
Day 3
Oh man this is scary! I do hope he is ok and they are able to remove the blood clot without any complications 
. Do keep us posted. Much healing energy sent your way 
Day 408. Back at work. 7-3 today
All good. I forgot to check in yesterday. I will make sure to stay more attentive.
Checking in on day
453 no alcohol
384 no vapes or ciggs 94 no form of nicotine
53 no form of marijuanna
Im pretty good thismorning at work
Nothing really going on. 
My stamina is ip
Work days go by fast
I still have to work on getting out of bed like a set schedule or routine
5am workdays?
7am days off?
I feel like thats a good idea
Right now i want to strive for more
I have my job
I got my license
I kinda dont know what to do next
I guess right now
At this very moment
Maintaing is ok
@MrsOdh thinking of you, Sophia! Hoping that all will be well and he’ll be home soon.
Checking in day 
and officially 23 months sober! 
Haven’t checking in for a while because it’s been a really complicated time, but sharing a bit below- TW for death related to substance use.
Early in my sobriety journey, I left my partner or 7 years as I couldn’t stay with him and stay sober at the same time. We stayed in touch some, and he could never quite get it together. About a month and a half ago, he passed. It was heart breaking and tragic, and the end of his life was very sad. We still owned our house together, the one he passed in, so it’s been pretty terrible cleaning it out. But I finally got it on the market and accepted an offer.
Part of the difficulty for me was realizing the last year and a half of his life was so tragic, while mine has been the best it’s ever been- feels like survivors guilt. I know life had ups and downs, grief and gratitude, love and loss, joy and heartbreak- but I’ve never experienced them all at once. I’m more grateful than ever for my sobriety and my supports, I’m with a partner who doesn’t drink and makes me feel valued, and I was up fresh(er than I would if I were drinking) every morning. I’ve been really sad, but also very grateful. And while the loss is awful, I’ve started to feel the overwhelm of grief starting to lift some.
I know he felt very lonely. And with that, my message is that you may feel lonely, and that feeling is completely valid and I believe you- but you aren’t alone. There’s support around for people in our positions, more than you might think. And people would rather see and know that you’re struggling than not see you again.
Peace and love, and wishing everyone a magnificent sober Monday 
Hey all, checking in on day 1513. I hope everybody has a good one!
Checking in day 140.
Hope everyone’s had or having a good Monday!
I’m sorry to hear this. Hope that he gets the help he needs and the issue is quickly resolved.
Great post! Congratulations on 86!
Oh no! Hope everything works out for hubby!
So sorry for your loss. Big congratulations on 700 days. You are awesome.
123 days sober
The session with the online counselor went well today. I was anxious after but the walk after helped work that out. The counselor took a look at the trauma workbook I’ve been going through and she said it is a great resource. She agreed that it is good for me to keep going through it but will have her so won’t be doing it alone now. I like her and felt comfortable talking with her.
I got some good work done in the afternoon. I got the copyright permissions and a grant to start on my new translation project. I’m excited about it.
Then I meant with my new friend who will teach me Karakalpak…I realized when we started talking that it is incredibly close to Kyrgyz so definitely will be an easy dialect to pick up. I don’t know this lady very well but really enjoy our conversation. Am looking forward to getting to know her better.
Day 2327. I have been letting a custome from where I work live rent free in my head. I have worked with the public for decades, and for some reason I cannot shake him out of my head.
This to will pass. Just annoying
Thank you! 
@Laner congrats on 4 months I’m glad therapy went well today 🩵 and it’s so awesome you are starting this new project, I’m excited for you 
@JazzyS thank you I hope you slept well last night 🩵
@Jeanine congrats Grandma-to-be 
@Just_Laura thank you! I’m glad the big day went well 
I hope your shoulders are not too sore 🩵
@Mno I hope your back heals quickly 🩵
@acromouse I’m loving your vacation updates, today sounds particularly pleasant with the walk in the river congrats on double digits for no overeating
@MrsOdh sending well wishes for your husband
@Sunny11 welcome back congrats on day 3
@MooseTracks sorry for your loss 
but congrats on accepting an offer on the house 
and for 700 days / 23 months sober
@Thirdmonkey that does sound annoying 
wishing you peace from it 
1455 days no alcohol.
920 days no cocaine.
435 days no vape.
8 days no crisps, no binge-eating.
Yesterday I was still fatigued from not getting any sleep on Friday night, despite sleeping reasonably well Saturday night, I just couldn’t get going. I did take 4 big strong boxes to store in the garage, and broke down the rest of the boxes and took them to the recycling bins. The spare room looks more organised now. I also caught up here, did my meditations, and read a chapter of the book I’m reading.
This morning I showered and made it to my appointment on time. I saw the Physio, he’s referring me to their specialist as my back has got worse instead of better after being with them for a year now.
Then I had Monday Therapy, she says I seem more comfortable and open and that I’m finding healthier ways of coping. It’s hard to see that for myself.
I’m home now, I’m fatigued and my back is hurting, I’ve done 8287 steps today, 5.8km, but I need to atleast make a start on some of my cleaning jobs, ahead of the inspection on Thursday, still lots to do.
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Reading about your progress made my day Laner. Thanks so much for sharing. So glad you and your counsellor seem to be getting on well, and that you get to work on the trauma workbook together. As well as the other new stuff you are doing. Yay!
Don’t overdo it friend. You need your back. Glad to read your therapist sees progress. Now for yourself to see it too 
@CATMANCAM @Mno thanks for the encouragement you always give! Being part of this community has really helped me in my sobriety. And am so grateful that my friend helped me be able to get this counselor. I can really see that I’m changing this time around and starting to heal.
Day 157
I think I’m nearly done molting now 
. Something is very different the past few days. I’m sleeping deeply, not waking up in a heavy cold sweat/panic, no weird food cravings, very little anxiety — it’s so good!
Enjoying this dreamy feeling as I need to get back to all the things this week. I took a lot of time away for once in my life. Just stepped off the damned wheel. I was able to so I did. Now I’m ready to come back, but not ever to that torture. Coming back as me. Facing a strange, almost non-existent culture that doesn’t really accept me. But there are always people who will, you just have to look around and stay open. I’ll find people since I’m not moving yet.
I was scared it was how it was going to be forever. Now I see I’m really recovering and it only gets better.
Enjoy your day. I’m really hungry and need to get in the kitchen stat.