@justKaitlin what a joy!!! Congratulations for the upcoming wedding 
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@Jesile we are in the same amount of days 
. Letās go very far in this sober journey!!! @Binx How are you my dear friend?
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@danam56 So glad to hear that the move went smoothly. Remember that you donāt have to unpack and set up the place immediately ā take you time with itā¦ remember to rest!
Nicely worded TF! So true that itās a slow and steady pace in which we find the peace within. We will never find it in external things / people or places. Sending you calm serenity as you get back to your daily routines. Glad you had a good holiday 
@mrsodh WOW youāve had a day! Sorry for all the family drama. Hope you are able to sort through it and find time for your own peace.
@sarath_unrelax Day 4 is amazing work friend. The anger i think is normal in the early stages ā at least it was for me. Months of being angry and on edge for no reason and taking it out on my loved ones. So grateful they understood and stood by me. I did have to let my loved ones know what i was going through as they are not familiar with addiction and withdrawals and recovery so this was all new to everyone involved. It does get easier. Sending you peaceful vibes.
@zzz Congrats on your 1 month milestone friend. 
Love that you are turning off your phone during your free time ā how freeing that must be. Really busy schedule you are keeping ā hope you find time for yourself as well
@seb Glad you posted about the movie ā I was wondering if I should watch it and now I will watch for sure.
@catmancam WHOA!! Great work on your 1 week of no binging and 3 weeks of no sugar! 
This is impressive work Cam. Keep stacking up the days
@butterflymoonwoman Grateful that last night went well and wishing you loads of energy for today / tonight. It totally tracks that you wouldnāt feel like yourself ā you are operating on little to no sleep for 2+ days. Please remember this when your mind tries to get down on you for not doing your routines. Iām sorry for the emotional realizations you had last night. Glad that you are making healthy changes for yourself. Please be kind to yourself and not expect these changes right away. It can be hard to change up anything when we are sleep deprived and low on our defenses. You are doing an amazing job my friend. Here if you need 
@laner WOOT WOOT 4 months is amazing girl! Look at you go Grateful the funeral is over and you are able to get your space back. Sending you loads of love as you meet with your sponsor tomorrow. Iām sure everything will work out just fine. Our mind does like to try and sabotage things before they even happen. An early night sounds perfect ā sweet dreams.
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@vanessa8 Great work on getting through the stressful day yesterday. Sending you strength to do the same today. Drinking away your feelings never works. They donāt go anywhere and then you are stuck with poison in you and guilt for losing your sobriety and Hopefully you will be able to get back on track with day 1 ā just not worth it. Keep practicing that prayer friend. Hope it clicks and helps. 
sending you strength as you deal with the stressful situation.
This made me laugh so hard! Sounds like you got your hands full and hopefully will be able to carve some time for that relaxing self care time.
You do deserve some self love and respect. I too was way to hard on myself and still get in that mindset from time to time. I try to sit with whatās going on and pretend that someone else is going through this and then I do what I would suggest that person to do. It seems I have the answers for others but not for myself. This has been the biggest lesson in my journey. Pizza sounds perfect ā I may do the same 
Oh glad that you ordered and enjoyed 
@sadmemequeen I can understand needing to quit cause you are unable to do the tasks at hand due to illness. Iām sorry that you have quit. Is there anything else you can do that is possibly part time or a work from home type situation? You say you canāt stay clean if you quit- is this cause you have more free time? Have to spend more time with family? Or? Do not let anything take away from the progress you have made. 2 y 5m 2d is amazing Meghan.
What a lovely way to spend a Sunday! Great work on your 12 days too.
Checking in on Sunday late afternoon
592 days free of alcohol and weed
1007 days free of cigarettes
Wow - its been a good productive day and Iām exhausted 
I did not sleep well last night and kept telling myself that I would get in a nap to make up for it ā that didnāt happen. I did get in some good workout activity, caught up on all the physical work stuff and cleaned up the main floor.
Did take time to watch a movie while I had lunch and now will give myself a mani / pedi after a good foot soak 
All in all a great day ā still only 6ish so have plenty of sunlight to burn. Hope to get some zzzās tonight.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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more time is more time to think and now I feel like I need to punish myself
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the opposite is true ā now is when you love yourself for having the courage to quit knowing how difficult it would be but you put your health first. You canāt keep pushing yourself at a job when your body is not well.
At no time do you ever need to punish yourself. Please do not think like that. Are you able to get in touch with a friend? In person or online or on the phone? Someone to hang with to occupy the time? Are you able to start a hobby like drawing or craft work that will keep you busy? Maybe if you already have something then work on that ā possibly something you can look into for selling on Etsy as a hobby / job? I know some friends that have done great going this route.
Sending you love and hugs my friend ā please be kind to yourself
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Iāve been debating selling some things on Etsy, Iām also going to work on applying for disability. i already promised a friend I wonāt punish myself so I will be alright
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Oh thatās great news all around. I am glad that you have talked and promised your friend this and do know we are all here for you as well.
yes love ā you will be alright Grateful that you came here to talk this out
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Coming up on day 665.
Iām exhausted.
But Iām sober.
I wish I could just sleep for 24 hours.
Well Iām hopefully off to sleep. Work again at 4 
Love yāall
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Day 903
Evening check in. Well I got thru another day. I did ask if i could leave work 2 hours early as i was ready to fall asleep lol and it got approved, so i was able to get home by 330pm. Hubby ran an errand and then once home, i got some well needed rest. Just ONE more overnight to do. I know i can get thru it 
Just putting my son to bed soon and then will have a nice shower. Have a good night everyone! 
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I know youāre right Jasmine. Iāve overdone it and my back in killing me. I have napped as needed through your the weekend. Iāve gotten most of my boxes unpacked but a lot of organizing still to do.
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Checking in day 414 AF
Over did it with unpacking and my back is wrecked. I know I shouldnāt have done as much as I did but I canāt stand clutter.
The Cat is settling in and that warms my heart. Heās been with me through thick and thin.
Exhausted going to bed early this evening.
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Checking inā¦
All is well for the most part. Working full time washing dishes at a pretty cool restaurant. The manager is 5 years sober and we talk often about recovery. Iām learning how to be productive and pay for my own bills. Been going to a AA meeting every day as suggested by my sponsor. He also has a few other daily things he wants me to do and I been willing to do whatever he says and try something new. Been praying to my higher power multiple times a day to help me stay on track. All though things are mostly good Iām not saying I donāt have bad days or moments but I donāt have to drink or use over it. Iām excited to see what the program and steps can do for my life. In the past I always did things my way and I always had the same resultsā¦ Iām mentally and physically tired of my old life of drinking and using and Iām making sure I donāt have to go back to that. Tomorrow I get to enjoy my day off. There is a tropical storm coming tonightā¦ so weāll see what happens with the weather. Unfortunately probably no bike adventures tomorrow. As far as today I did all the things I needed to for my well-being and recovery.
Gonna find a movie to watch and then go to bed. Thatās about all for now. Iāll check in when I can. Love this community and love you all!
-Trevor
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247 days
Gym in the morning. Partnered up with a guy that explained heāll be taking it easy because he had a big weekend, āyou know how it isā. Told him yea I know how it is but Iām off the booze 8months now. He was surprised but we talked about it a couple times during the session.
Just waiting to pick the kids up from school. Work tonight. Hopefully a quiet one.
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Day 5
This morning was really good for me. I slept for 8 hours, and although I still had nightmares, I feel very energized. I took my 3-year-old Labrador, Daisy, for a 2 km walk. Iāve scheduled an AA physical meeting for this evening. Itās monsoon season here in India, and I enjoyed the rain.
Cravings are especially bad this season because my brain is used to associating it with drinking. But I hope that, one day at a time, I can teach my brain to think differently.
Sending love to all.
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Stay safe Trevor!
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Checking in at the start of day 86. Been super busy with travel and house sitting. Feels so good to be back home in my own bed. Doing well in my sobriety. Had a few moments of tough cravings, like in your face cravings, but worked through them. Really reflecting on how far I have come, the positives in my life and the damage one drink can do really helps me through those in your face tough cravings. They really do pass and when itās over one feels so elated, a sense of accomplishment! Itās all worth it. Especially so today, as I just found out Iām going to be a grandma and I want to be the best grandma I can be!
Have a wonderful night/day all.
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@MrFantastik Mario Kart! We havenāt touched our Switch in such a long time. Thanks for reminding me I have it
@MrsOdh Oh wow, so much family drama 
Glad you can keep a level head
If itās for your own sanity, yes.
@CATMANCAM I use diffusers, which seems to work overall. Iāve read you can also put drops on cotton balls and place them around entry points or into water in a spray bottle.
@Button83 Keep coming back 
@Bluekoolaid Itās so great you have someone to talk to at work! I am beyond grateful for my job Our GM has 30 years and has seen me at my worst(blacking out at work 
). Anywhere else I woulda been fired 5 times over, but bc he understands, heās always been there for me. I think knowing heās proud of me means the most of all. Iām proud of you for putting in all this work Keep it up!
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Last night wasnāt bad at all 
The hardest part was serving the dinner 7 hours into my shift. Four courses to 200+ people. There werenāt enough capable carriers so my shoulders got a workout (they are feeling it right now ) My reward was to watch the fireworks and eat leftover desserts (easy fuel at the time) Cleanup always sucks, but we got it done by midnight. By that time last year I was completely exhausted and done with the whole thing, but I got an endorphin rush that gave me a second wind. I actually wanted to stay til the end and celebrate with the winners like in past years (not by drinking this time), but I thought of my daughter and left at 12:30. Fell asleep the second I hit the pillow 
It was the right choice, as I heard they stayed past 4am! Grateful to rest and enjoy the last day of our county fair with my daughter. It was really fun, just insanely expensive 
We ate like kings when we got home bc I took as many leftovers as I could the whole weekend! Ready for my bed again. Have a wonderful start to your week!
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Iām here, Iām alive Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 159.
Weather is back to warm and no rain at least for today and tomorrow.
My husband is going to help Engjy Benjy to build a porch today. Or at least help him to lead the work, Engjy Benjy and his brother that my husband is going to pick up on the way is supposed to build.
I wasnāt impressed because we where supposed to do something fun today. But as a Thank you weāre going to get lots of material to our own porch, so it might be worth it.
No drama yesterday, family is on itās own. Ma was supposed to call about picking up her car, and about the date for our Halloween stay, she thought she might have a concert booked that day. She didnāt call and got drunk with my sister instead so I feel like itās not my problem anymore.
Today me and they boys are going to try and do some outdoor activities in our village. Maybe go to the playground, take a walk, a bike ride or something like that.
Thank you everyone for your support.
Thatās all Folks 
Wishing yāall a wonderful day.
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