Hi Flo. I get these anxieties too, often an overhang from me experience of trauma and emotional abuseā¦ If you are not in a nurturing environment where someone tells you this is all ok, or even helps you out when you need it, then you need to champion yourself. Take comfort in your gains if you can, I know thatās hard, but you are exactly enough how you are. 
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@Mischa84 That workout sounds good 
And sleep! Sweet sleep 
Nice to hear you are feeling better. I was in a fog the last days too. I blame it on hormones and the weather 
@Tragicfarinelli We felt the change in the overnight air on the continent here too. It brought much needed relief. Wishing you a day of peace 
@MrsOdh Panic attacks suck. I get them from time to time. The nightly ones I find most exhausting. There are all kinds of techniques what to do during a panic attack. Research some and try them out. The ones about grounding myself through bodily sensations work for me best. Others do well with breathing techniques.
Should you go to the maze do share some pictures with us Have a great day 
@GOKU2019 Nice new profile picture 
@Mno You dutch people are nuts. What have you done to all the cars? Why are there no cars in your picture? Itās a street! 
@Alycia You came to the right place here Parenting is just so much sometimes. Especially if you have TWO teens driving you nuts. Sending you waves of calming, ānot giving a fuckā energy 
@Dirk That is some commitment and consistency there 
@SelfLove_42 Hey there 
Good to see you coming back. Any ideas what you could do differently? How you could support yourself to stay sober? What you might need to get through the day?
@Bomdhil Good to hear your sobriety streaks are getting longer 
@Alicat22 Great job on getting through the cravings Enjoy your sonās tournament 
283 days no sugar
147 UPF
21 gluten
21 dairy
Thankfully my daughterās migraine lessened yesterday afternoon. My mum picked her up and she stayed even over night. I know that my worrying is intensified by hormonal changes - Iāve never been prone to worrying before. It was nice though having the evening for myself without being pestered by worries about my kidās health. Today she is migraine free. I am also feeling much better and ready to tackle the day.
My IT tools need some maintenance, my plants care, some chores and errands want to be dealt with. Some yoga in the afternoon and depending on how much envergy Iāll have Iām either going to go to the cinema or join an online meeting.
Whatever the day letās keep your minds and hearts open 
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214 days AF
Checking in, happy and sober 
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Instead of focusing all my morning energy at the gym, break time listening to things that donāt help me, i will do therapy work as a top priority. I also Will reach out to sponsors on here and in my real life.
Killing selfish behavior and fighting my default settings is half the battle. Im what you call self consumed at times.
I need a mental makeover. Time to get to work.
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I talked with my wife about anxiety yesterday, i realize i was super stressed out and i acted out. I had heart palpatations most of the evening. Still that is no excuse for my behavior, just a poor coping mechanism. Theyāre is never a reason for me to cheat with my eyes and my heart. This part of me needs to go away. Every single day i need committment. I need that same energy ive been putting into the gym but now on recovery.
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@k_s wishing you well in your journey as you make this change to help heal yourself and recover 
94 days is impressive work Kenny
@lgrace143 welcome to the community friendā¦ day 2 and climbingā¦we can only deal with the moment at handā¦just keep pushing forward. Glad you are here with us
@Jesile how sweet of you and think youāve made a friendā¦love it. Sorry to hear about your friendā¦ hopefully she can get treatment and recover peanut is adorable 
Oh I love thisā¦yes- youāve got a good momentumā¦keep it going 
. Lolā¦Iām not sure if I am good or if she is getting oldā:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:ā¦ May have to play someone else to see if my skills are worth bragging about ā¦it is a great game and brilliant to keep the mind active and alert. Hopefully you are able to play it often
@SelfLove_42 ah Iām sorry friend please be gentle with yourself. I know youāve had setbacks but I also have seen how far youāve come. Doing this on your own is hard work and I do hope you are still reaching out to your sister to talk. Refusal to give up!! Love that attitude . Sending you love and strengthā¦ODAATā:heart:
@Dirk great Milestoneā¦just gotta do some kinda of movement every day and soon itāll become habit. Congratulations on your 5 days in a row . Join us on the Daily fitness check in thread if youād like
@Alycia I am not a parent but can imagine how exhausting it is - hope you were able to find time for yourself to relax and unwind . Working out angry can be beneficial as I tend to go hard but also very tiring as Iām so tense. Sending calmness your way
Oh yeahā¦ I do love those ā¦ looking forward to hearing about it when you go. Sending you comfort as you deal with the panic attacksā¦they are so overwhelming and tiring
@catmancam I am very impressed and proud of you for how you are doingā¦ going to the gym, with your binge eating and overall attitude. We can always be hard on ourselves for not doing something in the past but thatās useless self abuse as we canāt change the past. You are doing it now and thatās what counts. I hope you can start feeling as proud of yourself as I am of you
@Alycia so grateful that your daughter is migraine freeā¦what a relief
@Misokatsu I like what TF said ā¦ you have to find a way to champion for yourself when your environment doesnāt have that support to help you see how amazing you are. Of course we here online know this and can be your virtual champions . Sending you hugs and hope the anxiety reduces
Checking in Saturday morning
I feel good mentally. Physically is still a challenge but I am grateful for the positive mindsetā¦makes everything possible.
Not sure what is in store for today. Had a quick night time disturbance in sleep and then knocked out for a late startā¦I love it.
Wishing you all a wonderful addiction free dayā¦ sending you all so much love
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I always appreciate your encouragement Jasmine. Me and my sister still talk, just not as much as i need to.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1539. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day #272
Hellooo from Sunny Beach
with Bounty in hand on the beach.Helloo with good vibes and thoughts.
Around noon arrived here, the weather today is not suitable for a laying on the beach but is perfect for walk.
Have a great weekend and stay sober and proud of yourself
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If only that would happen! Probably the person will pay a bribe but discreetly give the money or uniforms back. I wonāt be surprised if tomorrow the person shows up with a sheep for me ājust becauseā. Wish things worked differently but Iāll keep making a fuss and keep my eyes on the kids. Fortunately I have a great relationship with the social workers so hope that helps some in the future.
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149 days sober
I took it easy this morning. Had lay in, a late breakfast and even broke out some coffee. Enjoyed a nice hike with my friend. I usually take a hike every morning on my own but I promised I wonāt until I get the brace off my arm.
It was a beautiful morning!
Then had a lot of chores in the afternoon but was happy to be able to have a proper bath at the bath house. I went with a few friends which isnāt my favorite but I forgot my discomfort once I was in the sauna 
and man is it good to be clean.
I stopped into a shop after to pick up some things and the seller offered me alcohol. I had a brief moment of insanity but it passed and I left with chocolate and butter instead. However I kept thinking about it as I walked home and this turned into romanticizing drinking this evening. I was good though. Took out the paper I keep in my pocket thatās a list of things to do when I get a craving, did some deep breathing, made my walk home take longer and then vented to my dogs about how terrible it would be to drink and how much I hate that I even thought about it. They gave their sympathetic kisses and the cravings passed. So Iām in for the evening relaxing and enjoying the fact that Iām still sober.
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Checking in. Been absent a few weeks, still sober though, 13.5 months AF.
Day 1 no junk food. Time to clean up that act.
Sending all positive wishes! Good luck with your Texas move, @K_S !
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Day 930
Morning check in 
Well im currently at work for another shift. Feeling pretty good today (I think lol). My husband got us 3 new fish yesterday and I woke up to one of the smaller ones missing 
One of our other fish ate him so im a little sad about that. But other than that Im alright.
I am pretty proud of myself for not binge eating last night. For the past 2 days i have been eating well and exercising and last night i had the urge to binge. Instead i thoughtfully and purposefully portioned out a snack, tracked my calories for it, and then slowly ate it. It helped sooo much to slow myself down. Normally i get the āF*ck itā attitude and give in, but doing this was enough to let the urge to binge pass.
Other than that i feel good about my recovery today. No urges to use drugs or drink. No using dreams. Feels good to feel free! Sometimes im recovery i havent felt free bcuz of the hold that drugs still had on me (constant thoughts of using). But i havent felt that in a bit so it really feels nice!
Hope everyone has a great Saturday! Hugs friends 
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Checking in on day 454 AFAF.
Itās been a busy week with both kids getting into school every day meaning that I was able to get on with some artwork. I got an early night last night and had a lovely lie in this morning and felt well rested.
I got a message through that an old friend who was the same age as me has died of alcohol related liver damage. She had tried to stop drinking around Covid times but the last time we spoke on the phone she was back drinking again. Sad news to wake up to.
One day at a time everyone. X
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Day 2352. I have been contemplating workā¦do I need to move on and find something else, or am I experiencing growing pains of not being in charge. The grass isnt always greener on the other side of the fence.
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Day 9
No shopping
Day 13
No binge eating
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Awe thats very sad my condolences to u on ur old friends passing
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Checking in on break from work on day
479 no alcohol
410 no vapes or ciggs 119 no form of nicotine
79 no form of marijuanna. Im so happy to be at this point with no pot. I remember being at day 20 wishing so much i didnt lose my streak. I think the longest ive went is just over 200 days
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Ur numbers are FANTASTIC friend! Ur doing sooo well 
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Checking in with 70 days sober!!
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