@HillbillyChris I am sorry to hear about the loss of your daughter, my thoughts are with you and your family. All the more impressive that you managed to hit this massive milestone, congratulations! 
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Checking in. The end of Day 4.
Which meansā¦ This is the longest Iāve gone without alcohol in 2 years! 
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My condolences to you and congrats on your recovery time
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Day 919
Second check in of the day. Theres been a lot of change in my life recently. I dont necessarily do well with change. I try to remember that not all change is bad either but im ceetainly taking things 1 day at a time. Im feeling anxious about tmrw mrng where one of these changes will be taking place. Has to do with changing one of my sons medical equipment to a diff brand/style. Hopefully everything will go well.
I had a decent day overall tho. Grateful for my recovery and how far ive come. Hope u all have a winderful adduction free day/night 
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HUGE congratulations to u on 3 years my friend! Im so deeply sorry for the loss of ur daughter. I cant even begin to imagine how u must feel 
however i am grateful that u stayed strong in ur recovery. Thinking of u friend
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Sending you hugs.
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Wow congratulations on 3 years. So sorry for your loss of your daughter. 
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Thanks hun
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Congratulations on 4 days. Keep staying positive.
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Checking in
I hope everyone has a great Thursday!
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Checking in at 100 days AF 
feels good to be in the triple dās.
Have a good day/night everyone!
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Wow congrats on a 100 days
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First time a patient at the detox where I work really got through to me yesterday. In a way I find it hard to cope with. Canāt get into specifics, but itās also the first time I feel Iād rather go in as a nurse, instead of the role as experience worker I actually have today.
As a nurse thereās a 1000 tasks to do, organizing stuff, care to give, consultations to do, intakes to do, structure to keep, technical stuff to do like medicine to administer. As experience worker itās just me trying to talk to patients and colleagues about, yeah, about what actually?
I feel vulnerable and exposed. And also a bit isolated as Iām the only one, I feel a bit of distance from my colleague nurses when I do this work. I do feel closer to the patients though. I guess itās another learning experience. Sharing it here with you, writing it down, also helps I feel.
I can do this. One day at a time. Together with you all. Have as good a day as you can friends. Letās make it sober and clean or nothing will come form it. I will. Love from my little square.
@HillbillyChris Itās good to see you Chris. Huge congrats on three years. Thatās an enormous achievement. Hope youāre sort of OK. Hugs and love.
@Jeanine Congrats on reaching triple digits, thatās big!
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@MrMoustache The sleep schedule might even out on itās own, but it might not. I still go to bed around the same time I did when I was drinking(due to winding down from work), but I definitely donāt need as much sleep anymore. Getting more sunlight during the day and less artificial light at night helps reset your circadian rhythm, so get outside if you want to feel daylight! 
@HillbillyChris Nice to see you around Huge congrats on achieving 3 years during this difficult time Weāre here for you 
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I was not prepared for work to be as busy as it was. I was scheduled alone for dinner, which means Iām bartender/server/busser, and usually only get 1 or 2 tables due to the Tues golf league, but not tonight! Nothing was stocked over the past 2 days and I was running all over the place. Luckily my boss actually stepped up and was an enormous help My service was repeatedly complimented, I was given a thank you card from a family for always taking care of them, and got a cash tip from a couple that never tips cash! That was honestly shocking, but it all made me feel great 
After 2 days of rest, all the action made me feel good too. Except this weird spot in my neck that popped up midshift. It hurts in a way that feels like it needs to crack, but Iāve never been able to do that myself. Canāt wait for my chiropractor appt! Welp, work in the am again so I better wind down soon. Goodnight
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I made a solem promise to myself recently that I would reach my goal. Itās daunting but hey, if you donāt challenge yourself youāll never know what youāre potential is. Iāve always sold myself short. Itās a confidence thing. But Iām giving this thing a real go and Iām backing myself.
Much love to all this morning. Stay well, look after yourself & most importantly back yourself to succeed.
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Love this!!
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Iām here, Iām alive, Iām sober and Iām happy.
Day 175
Didnāt run away with the circus this year either. The show was wonderful.
We payed extra for seats in the front. Iāve never did that before. Even though weāre not poor I still have w mindset that some things are only for rich people. Not sure why.
Had to turn the gardener school down yesterday and give my spot to someone else on the reserve list. Got the schedule and thereās no way on earth I could make that schedule work with my family or the public transportations. Nothing is worth a commute of almost 4 hours every morning/night when it takes as a maximum 40 mins by car.
I donāt have a driverās license, and my husband canāt drive at the moment. For me itās also more worth it to be at home so I can leave/pick the boys up from school every day.
Besides being Park Ranger, Iāve always dreamed of being a writer. I did an attempt to actually write 20 years ago. Got refused by a lot of big companies with a āItās good but not what weāre looking forā letters. And gave up.
But not this time. Iāve got new ideas and Iām going to work on them.
Got until January and then Iām out of Unemployment money.
Guess universe is actually pointing me in the right direction, even if it wasnāt what I thought from the beginning.
Thatās all Folks 
Wishing yāall an amazing day.
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204 days AF
My new employee sent me a gift box yesterday for my start. Some stainless steel water bottle, umbrella, multi charging set, notebooks, pens, so onā¦ Packed in a real cool box.
Gifts before even started. 
Had a call with my new boss, discussed some further details for the on-boarding process. She is very sympathetic. Think I throw my old ideas of working culture overboard and be very open minded.
Still worrying a bit, cause it will be exhausting in the beginning. But how about taking it oddaat?
I am fine until hereā¦
Just some hunting thoughts about food restriction. But always going back to the intuitive way with 3 meals a day. Healthy, tasty, colorful. Since I am acting like that (204 days) I didnāt have any binge attacks anymore. My last relaps was combined with day 4 of a protein shake fasting diet. Soā¦ Itās clearly! Thatās not the way how it works.
Enjoy your mealsā¦
Enjoy your dayā¦
Enjoy life 
Love you guys
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Day 424. I think i have a cold coming on.
Work was OK. Home is still tense. My day looks OK. Will work 8-3and take two hours leave.
I think the trigger for wanting a beer on Sunday was family stuff. The stuff which hits u sideways. Completely out of the blue
All OK. Back at home, back wirh my dog and things feel calm. Iāve done my maths (a bit nerdy) and I can retire at 64. Thatās ok. I donāt mind working longer but its nice to know I can stop sooner.
I didnāt apply for the promotion here. I decided that I am happy in my role. Thafs a good feeling
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Thank you Dana! 
And yes I hope that this touch up gives it what it needs. It was a looooong road to get this tattoo right after the first tattoo artist fucked it up
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