I’m late today with my checkin. It was my daughter’s first day of school after the summer break and I had all kinds of other stuff to take care of first.
Yesterday evening I facilitated a bit of an impromptu Recovery Dharma meeting. I logged into the meeting, there were already over 20 people there and none of the usual hosts. I took the chance to be of service and it went quite well. Life sometimes throws you the most interesting challenges.
I already checked some locations this morning for the game and finally came up with an overarching narrative. Now my daughter can invite her friends to a birthday party at a cementery
I want to do more party prep today, yoga some time later and then I am going to host an online meeting in the evening - this time it’s planned
Wherever and whenever you might be in the world: Let’s keep our hearts and minds open friends
I’m happy to see your name pop up, but sorry about the circumstances. You are right, you need to be clear headed and reliable to support your mum and deal with your own emotions and reactions. Sending strength and wisdom.
My family is… Complicaded
My grandmothers on Pa’s side was gypsies, I mean the kind you read about it see in movies. Long black hair, gold teeth, loud, tricking people, yeah you know the stereotype but for real.
My mother was adopted from another country by a very Christian family. So we doesn’t know too much about that side, and there’s no one except her alive to tell, which she refuse.
Grandma on father’s side though me her language Romani Chib. Grandpa’s Family on father’s side spoke English
All of them except my aunt is dead so I’m the only one within our family who actually still speak it. Never thought my kids, both of them are fluent in English, and have spoke it since they where kids. Seemed more useful.
Go for the writing if you feel for it.
My passion has always been video games but I only realized that designing and creating them is the thing I really want to do only a few years ago after I don’t know how many career paths. Now I am so happy and so fulfilled. I love every struggle on this path cause I always feel like a flower blossoming, a butterfly becoming.
Keep us posted how it goes!
I don’t know who created these but I consider them so very harmful they should be banned. I know so many people developing all kinds of serious eating disorders or other kinds of psychological issues and addictions after perusing these on a regular basis. Human beings need real food
Ohh I’m loving hearing about your family history. And your grammys on your dads side sound amazing! Bet they told some good stories. And the mystery of of your family on the other side sounds interesting.
Thanks for sharing! Sounds like you had a lot of a cultural mix within the family.
Was wondering how your husband’s medical problem has been? Sorry if you said already and I missed it. Hope he is doing better.
Also a kids story based on your gypsie grammys lives would be fun
So I’m just sitting on break at work listening to a recovery podcast. I’ve been listening to it since yesterday all day while working to trying to figure out the dis-ease in my life. Life is good of course there’s some life on life’s terms situations going on at the moment but there’s more than that for me as I’m figuring out. I think part of my issue is lately I’m trying to play God in certain areas in my life, & in reality I just need to let go, surrender, and have faith everything is the way it’s supposed to be in this moment. All I need to do is put one foot in front of the other, do the right thing, and stay in today. Easier said than done but everything takes practice I suppose. I just started taking a daily inventory and have committed to it for at least thirty days writing and answering the questions from the “living the program” pamphlet of N.A. anyways I gotta get back to work. Hope you’re all having a nice day
139 days sober
I did some work on the trauma workbook this morning and finished the chapter. I really think it is helping me even by just getting to understand my self better and why I have certain struggles. I had a good walk after and saw a friend and talked some about what I’m learning.
The afternoon then because crazy hectic but I was productive. I had some skype meetings with potential volunteers who would be willing to make a trip here to give some training on alcohol recovery to the social service workers to go along side the material I’m translating. I liked both of the options and think I will offer that both can come if they want and are able. It would be about a 1 month commitment. Neither has traveled to a 3rd world country before so I hope the level of living standards I told them about if they come won’t be off putting for them. But we had a great conversation and I felt excited after. Then had a meeting with social services to tell how the progress is going and how the conversation with the potential volunteers went. Then spent a long time debating the new words/concepts I’ve introduced for the material. And then I called this Dutch doctor I saw in the city about his trip to this area soon and asked if he could meet with the social workers and as a doctor talk some about the medical effects of alcohol abuse. He immediately agreed and said lets talk again later this week to come up with a plan for it. So all in all it was a very productive work day and am making good progress!
Hope everyone is also having a productive/relaxing sober day!
She told a lot of stories, I know that she lived in a Vardo (A wagon) and when my father was born he slept in a drawer. Yep the kind you put clothes in, it was common no matter how you lived. She used to say that it was practical because when he cried to much she just closed the drawer. And then she laughed about her own joke
There’s actually what’s supposed to be a kids book about a gypsy girl, written by one of the most famous families around here. The book it’s called Katitzi and it’s horrible. Filled with child abuse and other horrible things. In my opinion definitely not a children’s book, but the book and character everyone thinks of when gypsies are mentioned.
My husband is alive, that’s the most important things. His back and hip are still bad even a little worse, and he just got back from the hospital from a TIA attack which effects his speech, his entire left side, and his ability to remember things. But he’s here, and he remembers us. I’m really grateful for that. It could’ve been so much worse.
Thank you for all your great ideas today. And good luck with your own writing.
I love that. I’m so glad that you finally did what made your soul happy. It’s so inspiring.
I’ve tried multiple jobs as well, with the feeling that this is only temporary until I’m going to start writing. Took multiple writing classes that did improve my writing a bit but never felt serious enough to actually try and go for it.
I only knew my grammy for a short time before she died but she told me how she also slept in a draw as a baby. Hey it works! It sounds like some good stories and times together. Also really love when people laugh at their own jokes.
Ohh too bad the one book is not so nice. Maybe need a more lively child friendly version.
I’m sorry your husband is struggling this way. I’ve never been married or in a relationship like that but I know it’s not easy for him or for you as a spouse. Or for your kids. I hope that he will improve. It sounds like a big life adjustment for sure. Will keep thinking of you guys.
And I hope you can get lost in writing and enjoy it.
It’s good to see you Shay. Sorry for what happened but done is done and now it’s the time to move forward. One day at a time for all of us. Wishing you and your mum strength. Big hugs.
Checking in
I’m not in the best mood these days, but that has to do with my hormones! Dang those monthly hormone swings! I’m busy at work, very busy… and besides that temperatures are very high again! I love the summer, but sometimes I wish I could sleep at night! Not much more to say! Tomorrow it’s an early one for me, getting up at 5:45!
Day 30 check in. Feeling alright. Some days are still very difficult and I expect that to happen still from here on out. I’m proud for making these changes to better myself.
I do wonder if my depression will ever get better. It has improved significantly in the last month but I still have tough thoughts running through my head.
I’m busy at work, very busy… and besides that temperatures are very high again! I love the summer, but sometimes I wish I could sleep at night! Not much more to say! Tomorrow it’s an early one for me, getting up at 5:45! 
