Day 36. Today is one of the shitty days in my recovery. I’m extremely irritated and I feel hate towards everyone and everything. I feel like a Sith, the Dark Side is strong in me, haha. But I just acknowledge these feelings and let them be. I took a long walk, but it didn’t help. I’m gonna meditate tonight as usual if that would make me feel better. Oh well, recovery ain’t easy. I hope you all have a great day/evening/night!
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Checking in on day 6
Work has been ok today, I had some catching up to do after the weekend. Tomorrow I’ve decided to do home office, every once in a while a need to be able to sit at my desk and just focus, without phones ringing, costumers around, colleague bombing me with questions, as if I where a Jennypedia! 
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Just got home from work, and I had been thinking about ice cream all day, so here I am sitting with a bowl of ice cream! 
Tomorrow and the day after we expect heavy rains and thunderstorm! Hopefully it won’t be as bad as the forecast sounds!
Have a good one everyone! 
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Day 165
All is well. Front lawn is gone, the rocks are here and the drip irrigation is going in. Looking good already! Going to buy a little sod, but just a little. Native plants and rocks everywhere 
I’m getting a little restless but want to be here for the whole thing. So I’ll exercise and find a show.
Enjoy your sober day
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Turns out the cold I got from the kids is COVID. 
I’ll be resting… hopefully.
If I’m not here for a day or two that’s why.
Love y’all 
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Checking in day 225 AF 
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Get well soon! I had Covid 2 months ago, I passed a 2-3 nasty days, and after that it was onward and upward again!
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Sending you positive forces!
You are doing great!
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Thank you so much, my friend! Haha, what a gif! I love it
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Day 168. 6 month sober date is on my mind daily. I know should be 1 day at a time but I WANT THAT 6 month chip!
Attended AA meeting this morning and was told I bring laughter to the room. Right now that can be my service. Met with sponsor and working on Step 4. I so want to get over this step. Tough rehashing old shit when I know what happen 45 to 50 years ago I have dealt with and so over it.
I’m doing laundry and have a peach blackberry pie to make. Not a tart or cake but a pie! Gym pool exercises this evening and can’t wait. Never have I consistently gone to gym. I’ve lost 12 pounds since July 1st and am feeling stronger than ever before. Take good care of you my sober people!
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I feel weak. Strange but I feel weaker than ten days ago. I can’t resist alone, I need help and prayers
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Prayers I will do!
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Apartment touring went well! Applied for the one I loved! Hope to hear back soon. Wish me luck! I’m DYING to get this apartment
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Maybe it is the moon. I have felt exactly the same way today. It took all my will power not to blow up at even close friends. Let’s hope for a good night sleep and a way better day tomorrow. 
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Day 912
I guess today was okay. Ive really been lacking motivation lately tho and I have very little energy. If it wasnt for my son getting me up, I probably could easily stay in bed all day. Which isnt healthy for me. Im relying too much on caffeine to try and get me going. My tolerance for it is soooo high tho that it barely even works lol. Ugh. I cant wait until Aug 29 when I can get back to the gym full time. I need to snap out of this unhealthy lifetsyle asap. I dont feel like myself right now.
I did manage to vacuum the carpet and do dishes. That in itself felt like a huge task. And my son had an appt which we took care of. But other than that, i didnt do much. Hope tmrw is a bit better for my energy level. Have a good night everyone!
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@Jules000 really hoping ur get the apartment! Ill be praying for good results!
@Scorpn omg girl 
this is probably the last thing u needed. I hope u get better asap
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Day 5 or 6… NA
I’m realizing that after work when I’m bustling around the kitchen is a time of the day I’d normally have a drink.
I realize in the bustle that I’m stressed…. So, I look for a glass to fill with water and chug a glass. Whoa! I was really thirsty! Chug another glass. After 30 minutes I feel like I’ve got a second wind. Still want that drink but not as stressed/thirsty.
Not today.
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Good job getting to the other side of the craving @Anjee
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Worked this morning, parts of it were really frustrating/made me wanna cry, but I guess that means it’s back to the usual grind lol. Otherwise it went well and it was over quick which was nice.
My mind has been completely occupied with this guy I’ve been talking to in another country and we’ve grown closer, talked on the phone for an hour yesterday and we plan on doing that more often. I literally can’t focus on anything else because I’m such a daydreamer. If we were to actually start dating i would only be able to see him for a few days once a month at most, not to mention it would get to be really expensive visiting him that often. It’s beyond frustrating thag I finally have feelings for someone but it’s the most inconvenient circumstances. I’m glad I’m finally seeing my therapist tomorrow so I’m gonna tell them all about it and hopefully try to figure out what to do, if i should force myself to say goodbye and move on or what 
I hate this.
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Great week so far. Things are getting better. Hard to explain. Getting a new garden sure helps. The last one was pretty well decimated by the drought. Got all the plants in, if a bit early. I’ll take some extra good care of them. I would never do this drinking. Might grow a couple plants but not anything like this! 
It looks so good
Good night everyone xo
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