I’m here, I’m alive, I’m sober and I’m happy.
Day 190.
We watched Halloween town last night.
It’s one of our favorites and we’ve watched it every fall and Halloween for as long as it’s been available in Sweden.
And while I’ve always thought that “Being normal is vastly overrated” there was another movie line that did struck harder this time.
“Magic is really very simple, all you’ve got to do is want something and then let yourself have it.”
I do know a few family (gypsy)spells, jinx,curses and hexes and other “magic” and always wished I could snap with my fingers and make things appear or disappear, or turn into creatures. I realized that it’s not actually what they’re pointing at in the movie.
Affirmations which is gained popularity especially on Instagram works pretty much the same way. You tell Universe what you want and starts to work for it. All of us here do that everyday. We wanted a better life, and started to work towards that goal. Not everyday is easy like movie magic of course, but it’s easier than it was before,most days.
“Magic is really very simple, all you’ve got to do is want something and then let yourself have it.”
Simple as that.
Also, we’ve got one sponsor for our Trunk or Treat event. My mother and sister is going to come and back us up if we won’t get anyone else to attend, we’ll be at least 3 cars. And we haven’t even got the posters up yet.
My friend arrived, we had a busy first day doing a little walk through the neighbourhood, having a local speciality for lunch (Turkish pizza with all toppings ), trying to find some nice places to stay next week when we’ll travel, talking, making salad, enjoying each other’s and Luna’s company. Slept OK so here’s to day 2! Have as good a day as you can all. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come from it. Love from us both.
@Thirdmonkey Sorry for that Scott. I’m sure you’ll find a way forward tough. @FullaFarts Hi there and welcome lady! My main counters are 3266 days free from smoking tobacco and weed, and 1916 days free from all other substances. Happy to have you aboard! @Noshame At least somebody is talking sense here! @Tomek Glad to see you friend, and it makes me happy to read good things happening in your life. @SassyBoomer Good to see you friend! Hoping for a smooth move north for you! @Sabrina80 Happy birthday my friend!
@Chevy55 Congrats on 8 months. It is so good to see you thriving in life @Tragicfarinelli You’ve got your rubber boat ready to go @MrsOdh Yeah, a lot of times we want something or wish for it, but forget to actually DO something for it And quite often we wish for something and when we start putting work into it, we find out we don’t really want it that much @Dustysprungfield What are your tools for dealing with anxiety if you don’t mind sharing? @Sabrina80 Congrats! Happy Birthday! Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag! Sto lat! Enjoy your special day!!!
288 sugar
152 UPF
26 gluten
26 dairy
What a day. My daughter is still not over her migraine, so I took her to get another IV in the hopes to get this under control. She is with her dad now, doing school stuff and cooking. It’s not too bad, she is not suffering, but she has not attended school in two weeks now, and like everyone else, she needs her social contacts and peer groups. Parents are not enough for a child to thrive.
The weather is not very conductive for sensitive people. I’ve been having headaches on and off for two weeks now too, they are just not so bad as hers, and I can cope with coffee or lighter meds.
Anyways, I’m going to use the time I have left to do some work, an appointment to get my hair cut later. My ex is suffering from severe vertigo today, so I’m going to do some groceries for him. Maybe an arts outing depending on my energy levels. Maybe yoga in the afternoon. Recovery Dharma in the evening. These meetings have become a great pillar in my recovery and in my daily life. I love these communitites, the meditations, calming down like that in the evening. The one I’m co-hosting wednesday’s went well yesterday and I am very happy I can give back and hold the space for this community.
Recently I read in a Tara Brach book:
“Please, please, may I find a way to peace, may I love life no matter what.”
Tara Brach: True Refuge
I like that as an aspiration for every day. May we find a way to peace, may we love life no matter what
Day 2358. Hard start to the morning. Got home super late from a concert. Greenday, The Smashing Pumpkins, and Rancid. Absolutely best concert I have been too. Greenday has always been my favorite group. So cool to seee them live.
Today is apple picking day! Goal is to pick, make apple juice and then can apple juice.
Thanks so much. It really has been an incredible journey so far. Embracing sobriety has been the single best life decision I’ve ever made. I cannot fathom ever slipping back.
Morning check in today. I don’t have to be at work til later today and thought I’d sleep in. I should have known that doesn’t happen when you have cats. I think i finally got my medication issue figured out. The pharmacy promised they would be delivered tomorrow, so that means I’ll have them before i leave for vacation Saturday morning. I just hope this one works. Ive been on so many. Im running out of options. Im having a flare up now since i haven’t been on anything for awhile. Getting out in the sun while im on vacation should help my skin at least. I have two more days of work to get through before vacation. Im really looking forward to a whole week of beach time. The new cat sitter came over yesterday to meet the kids. They made right up to her, which they usually don’t with strangers, so that was encouraging. She comes highly recommended from a friend. It’s always hard leaving and trusting someone else to care for them.
I hope everyone has a beautiful sober day!
Today I feel beyond grateful, and today is always very bittersweet. These past two years have been filled with growth, peace, and happiness, but also pain, heartbreak, and grief. In these two years I’ve experienced so much of life sober- concerts, vacations (one attached photo from one), dating, new hobbies, and on and on. But I also had to break up with my ex of 7 years very early into sobriety due to his continued drinking, and he passed from complications related to his drinking a few months ago. I had to sell the house we lived in- the one he passed in. That sale just finalized yesterday. I feel sad, and angry, and unsure why I get to be here while he doesn’t. But I also feel grateful and motivated to continue on by the living the life we all deserve. Tonight, I happen to be going to the concert he asked me to go to with him in his last text to me (coincidentally, I already had tickets). I’ve framed the concert as a part of my celebration of sobriety and of his life. Apologies for the rambling.
I’m hoping to continue to build the life I want over the next year. I want to add more joy, and continue to stay grounded.
Wishing everyone- whether in day 1 of 1000000- a terrific sober Thursday
My kids are back at school, but I have a couple more weeks of summer vacation. As well as tidying and doing online prep for work, I have been watching movies that I didn’t want to watch while the kids were about (and I can never watch a movie after they go to bed as it is too late). Yesterday was Saltburn, today was Poor Things. Yeah, real glad I watched those alone!
Good morning. It’s gloomy, just spooky dark this morning.
Inquired about the volunteer citizen’s patrol here. I’ll go on a ride-along and see. Thinking of all the ways I can broaden my network and be useful.
I’m still a bit cut off from life, but looking back it needed to be that way. I desperately needed to start over. And meet many new people sober. I’ve nearly lost all fear of people. They’re ordinary, just like me. Some are pissy. Some are friendly. But they’re just people.
Hello my friend. Anxiety is a strange one but one thing I find with me is that when I’m at home and thinking about a heavy call or meeting is that it can snowball. Now when it’s building up on me I’ll recognize it, acknowledge it and remind myself that it’s not going to cause me any issues when the time comes for said call or meeting.
At home I’m relaxed in my civilian clothes and my head is in a different place, of course I’m not going to quickly be able to switch to professional mode and execute that call or meeting. But when I’m in work I will be in professional mode have everything I need around me and I will be prepared.
It’s hard for me to explain and I’m sorry if it doesn’t make a lot of sense but it works for me.
Also grounding myself when I’m in the spotlight weather that be a lean or sitting position, I’m supported, I have the weight off and any little nervous shake in my knee or whatever is not a factor, that little wobble or shake can be distracting and can permeate through your whole body.
I acknowledge when Anxiety is starting, I know the reason or what’s causing it. I try park.it and reassure that I can handle it when I’m in the position that I have to do the oask.or.meet the challenge.
), trying to find some nice places to stay next week when we’ll travel, talking, making salad, enjoying each other’s and Luna’s company. Slept OK so here’s to day 2! Have as good a day as you can all. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come from it. Love from us both.
Wild.
And quite often we wish for something and when we start putting work into it, we find out we don’t really want it that much 
Enjoy your special day!!!
years sober 
Big slice for me, please!
Some are friendly. But they’re just people.