@Button83 congratulations in day 4. I understand hw hard is the battle against the character defects. I am working on my bad mood and quick temper
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Tomorrow marks day 253 AF, but even more importantly my 25th wedding anniversary with the most amazing person I’ve ever had the fortune to meet and moreso marry!
While I have struggled many years with addiction to alcohol and been a sometimes major arsehole, she had never wavered. She has been steadfast in her loyalty and love.
I never believed I deserved such a person. Lord knows I tried to sabotage it many a time, but she always saw the good in me. The love in me. The potential in me. For that I will adore her till the end of my days.
Sobriety has finally taught me that the people in my life deserve the best version of me I can give them, and I will not let them down again.
Happy anniversary hun, I love you now and for always 
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Happy Anniversary!!! Wishing you many more happy years together.
Thank you for this joyful post 
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Checking in Day98. This morning made 5 days without MAT (Subs) and I was experiencing withdrawals symptoms. Didn’t get to the pharmacy in time Saturday, Sunday they were closed, Monday (Labor Day) also closed. 
I was the first person at the pharmacy this morning. Starting feeling better about in about 20-30 mins, maybe less. After that the rest of my day was a breeze. Hope all is well with everyone.
ODAAT
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Hey all just checking in. After my burnt crispiness of a week last week we did a home exchange with a family for the long weekend and just had the best experience. We actually felt so relaxed and had lots of fun with the kids (relaxed and vacatiob and kids does not always go togerher LOL).
My braib is still feeling a bit fried but jist trying to take thibgs one day at a time. Applied for my first job that is somewhat relative to mt field and goinf to just keep putting myself out there. Tired and really enjoying my nightly docs becayse during the day i just do not stop moving…something ro look forward to in the evening. I feel I find myself thinking about writing
…I would love tp write a book but goodness me where is the time lol.
Anywho i am off to bed soon just wanted tp check in to say I am no longer burnt to a crisp 
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I know what you mean when everyday becomes a holiday or excuse to drink or use. It might have started out as weekends or holidays but at some point we crossed the line into everyday. It’s a lonely and depressing way to live and it’s awesome we don’t have to live like that anymore. We don’t have to escape reality. I’ve heard you say something before like sobriety is connection and basically being a part of and I agree. We can’t do this alone. Always happy to share my journey with this community because I feel l can be honest and I feel safe. I thank you for reaching out and your positive contributions to this community. I hope you have a good visit with your friend and have a good time. Thanks again… 
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Checking in on day 100! Feeling good. Never made it this far in my adult life. So happy I finally woke up. Thanks for all of the support 
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I really don’t lean on outside support. I guess you can say this site is my support now. Reading others stories and advice gets me through the day, My main motivation is my family and my health. I’ve stopped and started several times but this one feels different. When I decided to stop 30 days ago I hated how I felt and how I looked and how I have been hurting my family. Woke up August 3rd and said eff this and why do I need this? If ever get an urge I think about how I felt when I woke on August 2nd. I don’t want to go back to that.
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Another day
Checking in
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Congrats on your wedding anniversary! I hope y’all had a great day.
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Day 933
Today was a really good day! I accomplished all that i wanted to do. I got the grocery shopping done, a killer workout done, cleaning done, and i ate well. Also started another dreamcatcher that im giving away as an auction item for a fundraiser thats being done back home in Wpg, Manitoba. Im sending it off to my mom who will take care of the rest
All in all today was decent. Just looking forward to a good rest now. Going to do get caught up on some reading here and then relax for the rest of the evening.
Have a great night everyone! 
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I had to reset my cigarettes counter tonight and I’m quite disappointed in myself for it. I feel like a failure. Perhaps it was a mistake to ditch both cigarettes & booze at the same time. 
What do you think? I’m determined to see this through though, come what may. I’m glad that my sobriety counter is still on track though. I’m coming up for 4 days sober so there’s that at least.
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@bomdhil Oh I love that phrase you got too – Makes you think and want to be grateful for every moment of your life 
Congrats on your double digits my friend – so grateful to hear that the storm is calming for you 
@K_s How are you doing friend. Glad you finally got your meds today and are doing better. Fear of change can be intense. It is hard to embrace change when we are so early in our own sober journey. Please be gentle with yourself
@kareness I do get over ambitious with my self care agenda sometimes too so I totally understand. Sounds like you did have a wonderful day and got some time with a friend as well. Love it!
@azeke Well done on your 1 month milestone! Very impressive work 
This community is amazing and my main support – could not ask for a better group of friends to do this journey with.
@soberwalker sorry to hear that you are in pain still Claudia. I do hope that your physiotherapy appointment will be helpful
@alicat22 Congrats on your 2+ weeks! Sending you strength on gaining momentum on your journey – great plan
@tragicfarinelli Girl you are doing great with your 250 days. The days you had in your last run are still with you and they don’t go away! I have seen a massive change in you in these last 250 days. I see you changing emotionally and mentally as well as gaining strength in your journey. Be proud of where you are now as you are absolutely crushing it!
@mrmoustache Sending strength and comfort my friend. I am sorry you are dealing with the panic attacks. I do hope the meds help. Do you have someone that can help you monitor the usage. Some meds are necessary (doctor prescribed) but we need to make sure we don’t abuse them. 54 days is fantastic… keep going my friend.
@zse YIPPEE 9 months is amazing girl – love how you describe sobriety being free from a nightmare. Never giving up – keep up that strong momentum
@alycia Triple 8’s – woohoo! That is awesome friend. It is a wonderful gift – grateful to see you doing so well!
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Day 444 AF
Super busy weekend and I’m exhausted today. Not sure what I was thinking. I went go kart racing and my back is sore. Dumb! Hoping it starts to feel better soon.
Have a good evening everyone
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@thirdmonkey WOW! 7 months caffeine free – how are you feeling? That is impressive work my friend!
@catmancam sorry to hear that your therapist is providing a safe environment where you feel you can explore your feelings more freely. Do you think it may be something you can bring up with her – she may not realize she is doing this. In her mind she may be making that noise to let you know that she is listening. I know my therapist would do something similar and it was annoying as hell. I had to ask her to stop and she mentioned that for her she didn’t want to seem rude and be quiet while I was pouring my heart out. Just a thought. On the other note – can you message your CC company and tell them this is fraudulent? They may be able to remove the charge all together. Sorry friend – these scammers are getting worse by the day.
@mindofsobermike Glad Addie had such a great birthday. OOH Halloween store shopping – i love it! DAMN that is scary – gun shots? I hope all is safe and well now. Oh saw your updated post and man that made me teary eyed. Life is just so precious and I’m so grateful for the reminder
@mischa84 The symptoms could be so many things but if you have a history in your family then I would definitely get a check up. It is better to catch things early and nip them in the butt. Nothing wrong with be cautious especially when your health is involved. I do hope it is nothing serious but would want you to go seek medical advice as not feeling “normal” is not normal
@tailee17 sorry your road trip was so challenging. Grateful you are back and hope you made it to your AA meeting for some good irl support
@jesile Oh that is a long time to wait – you got some good patience! Glad your blood work came back good. Man that Peanut really is testing ya – sorry for all the poop issues – hope he is potty trained soon enough 
@button83 4 days and rocking it. I know my nerves were shot from the addiction abuse and when I tried to become sober I was a mess. I was on edge and snappy. Sending you strength Julia – It really is ODAAT and that perfection platform that we tend to put ourselves on is unreasonable. It really hurts when we fall from that height and then our addiction is the only thing waiting for us at the bottom. Keep reminding yourself that perfect does not exist (i don’t think I’ve ever met anyone that would fit that description). Why continue to punish ourselves to achieve something that is unachievable.
@chevy55 Such a beautiful tribute and so happy for you Nick – Happy Anniversary friend 
@kris Way to go friend – waking up sober each day is enlightening and so rewarding – yeah to triple digits Lets keep this going strong
@boderline_billy Welcome to the community friend and great work on your 4 days of no alcohol. I did give up my cigs first and then gave up alcohol and weed together. It is different for each of us. You will have to go through withdrawals and mood shifts / sleep issues with all substances so it depends if you want to rip off the band aid once or slowly. Check out the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) (Part 2) thread for some advice, motivation and support for quitting smoking. We got your back here – take it ODAAT
Checking in on Tuesday night
622 days free of alcohol and weed
1037 days free of cigarettes
Wow what a day. I am still a bit off but managed to get some shit done today. Had a leak at my rental that I needed to check out. Luckily it was a easy enough fix and did not take up too much time. I remembered my CT scan appointment today and got that done. Managed to make my other appointments as well. Its been a tiring day and I’m ready for bed. Glad I was able to catch up here before I went to sleep.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Oh that sounds like hell on your back but I do hope you enjoyed yourself in the moment.
Hopefully some ice and hot packs will help
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I love it. I sleep better.
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444 AF. That’s an impressive number. Congratulations
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