154 days sober
Was a busy day here doing yesterdays and todays work. I had another meeting with social services about the training the doctor will give next week and to talk about the translation. They all have a copy now and need to read through it and give notes on any vocabulary/idea/concepts they don’t understand. Also talked to the doctor about if he needs translation or not and how that’ll look. I feel well organized about it now and hope it’ll go smoothly when he comes next week!
Then the social workers asked if I could translate material for family/spouses of alcoholics so that’s added to my list of things to do next but I’ll need to get funding for it. I’m just really glad they are getting so invested and interested in these things!
One of the social workers walked part way home with me after and told that she is an alcoholic but keeps this secret and hopes that this material and the training will also help her. It was a good conversation.
I’m really tired now and hope I sleep better tonight. I had a bad dream sort of night yesterday and still could work normal today but know if I have too many bad sleeps in a row it really effects my mood.
Anywho have a good sober day!!
Other than that, not much to report! 
Do know that taking care of your home is a full time job of its own. With all that you have been dealing with also makes it stressful with your daily life. Sending you loads of love my friend 
No apologies needed – not rambling. So grateful you are sharing your journey with us – the good, the bad and the ugly – this is life and we are living it sober! So very proud of you and hope you have a wonderful time at the concert!
I’m too old for this shit. So I am paying someone to come get it tonight. If it wasn’t toxic I would just light it on fire. Hahaha
. The director of treatment made a picture of it. My therapist looked at it and was like “ow it’s in English”. The director looked at me when he let me out, I saw the dispair in his eyes. He must have thought “what the f*ck is this. Sessions with therapist became reversed before. I explained the 12 steps to my schema therapist (easy earned money considering her hour rate 
), she is now a “fan” of it and read more about it herself and often refers to it when I see her. Also explained how I build up my social network to get out of depression, and provided her an app I used. It’s a clinical psychologist btw 
. Also still astonished about how less therapists know about addiction. And then in the broadest sense of the word. They did an interview, I referred often to in active addiction and later just as active. He asked “and with active you mean”. He didn’t seem to have any clue what a difference it makes when a person is in active addiction and closing up on 4 years sober. Yes I drove under influence more times then I can count, surely you can do it only in active addiction. Yes I had shame and guilt feelings about it, but the 12 steps helped to get rid of it. It happened and I don’t close my eyes for it, but I’m also not suffering from it anymore. Ow well it might be that some defects came up, but nobody is perfect and I’m back to live and let live…but if I don’t come up for myself the therapy will be fruitless 