Day 991
Day was okay overall! My son just got home awhile ago and we played a board game and now we are watching a Halloween movie. Enjoying the evening 
Hope everyone is enjoying their Halloween festivities 
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#98 I had to pick my Daughter up from a friend’s earlier, I brought my through the city. It was packed with revellers enjoying Halloween. Lots of college kids in fancy dress some the worse for wear.
I used to frequent the same streets back in my day, and often/usually/always the worse for wear.
I’m so content being home now fit for bed and not in that place, in those streets “enjoying” myself, trying to get a taxi or having to make the long trek home on foot because I spent all my money.
I’m looking forward to a quiet weekend. Filled with family, exercise and even some rest!
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Day 3. another meeting. I started to feel Hope again. Connecting is great, I don’t feel so alone.
here in Spain now we are suffered because the great floods and more than 150 people died. No time to be selfish
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. Thank you for helping othersHello everyone,
I unfortunately had a relapse tonight. I am okay, safe, the wounds aren’t severe. I’m disappointed but mainly distressed because I don’t want anyone in my family to find out. I live on my own and don’t want to give them any reason to send me back to the hospital where I absolutely don’t belong. I am reaching out to my therapist and will meet with her ASAP. Support would be very helpful right now. Thanks everyone.
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Checking in man trying to figure out how to do everything i need to go. Idk what the hell im doing. Lol
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Being here for me like you are
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I certainly am and I will be for another 4 or so hours so please shout if I can do anything else to lighten your load!
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Very fond childhood memories, @Mno, thanks for digging this up! The paper lampoons were a challenge, because rain and wind in November in Holland is quite common and because we actually used tealights in them 
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301 Sober.
Went to another follow up appointment from an Ultrasound to check on my liver procedure. The radiologist said it all looked good and I no longer have to have appointments with them. I just need to go to my doctor for regular check-ups.
I never thought I’d be able to do this.
I feel better than I have in decades.
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Up late again and still anxious, hoping I don’t have a concussion. Still feeling repulsed by alcohol but i know that will fade soon enough and the f*ck it demon will start whispering again. Well, he can sod off! 
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Day 1111 AF
Woke up feeling like poop. Sore throat, and my TMJ gave me some nasty earaches. Fml. Made it to the kiddos’ Halloween parade.
Just got back from trick or treating with the kids. Gonna take some meds and pass out. Hope everyone had a safe Halloween for those celebrating.
Take care. ODAAT 
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Done with this day 
I woke up feeling good, but somewhere along the way my mood turned and I felt miserable. Idk why. I love Halloween and it was the most beautiful day I think we’ve ever had for it. I just wasn’t in the mood for any of it. Zoi wanted to go with her friend from the building so her family came with us. They moved here from somewhere else so I took them to the good part of town bc our neighborhood is pretty beat. They have two younger sons, 2 and 5. We stuck together but I kinda wish I just had the girls. I’d hoped walking would make me feel better but we had to stop alot and wait for the little ones, so it wasn’t anywhere close to exercise. I’ve forgotten how much you have to slow down with that age. After, they did the required candy exchange and all I wanted was to veg out on the couch. Peace at last, but still feeling blah 
I hope sleep comes early tonight. Have a good one
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Cool number 
Hope you feel better
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Ty, sista.
I feel ya on the trick or treatin. My eldest ran into some friends and wanted to tag along, but my little man was zoomin door to door. I didn’t realize how fast the little dude was. I had to keep stopping for my eldest and his friends. Plus, he couldn’t walk in his inflatable squidward costume. He kept complaining that he couldn’t walk or see. Halloween and the holidays are kinda just meh to me now. Just another day. Hope you get some rest.
Oh, I was playing the AHS Murder House Soundtrack today.
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Today had its rough edges and challenges but I made it through another day sober and for that I’m grateful. I was able to rely on support and love from some good people to help keep me afloat. The urges to act out werent present but given the feelings that I was having, they could have turned into resentmens later. Amen for surrender. ODAAT 
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@laner UGH Sorry that you are dealing with such anxiety. How are you doing today? Grateful that you know that drinking is not a solution and are working on healthier ways to deal with it. Are you still working with you therapist? Sending you strength and love! 
@Ccn31 Welcome back and congrats on your upcoming 60 days! Great work Hope you had a wonderful Halloween
@Butterflymoonwoman Sending energy your way as you get through tonight’s overnight shift! I am super excited for you too – quadruple digits is so exciting
@Climbin A move is always scary as you venture into unknown territory. I’m sure you will do great wherever you go. Like you said - do more research / ask questions and prepare yourself for what to expect. A one way may be better so you are not bound by time and can play it at your own pace 
@Juli1 Heck Yeah! Congrats on your 9 months girl – that is so incredibly awesome. So very proud of how far youve come and where you are headed! Glad to hear you had such a positive feedback meeting too - rocking it!
@Joyce19 Yeah that mentality is sneaky and its your addict mind trying to convince you that you never had a problem and you can control this habit. 4 days is remarkable. Don’t listen to the lies. No good comes from drinking. Its literal poison that your body / mind is craving. Why would you want to do that to yourself. Keep at it - it gets easier and the waking up knowing what you did the night before and with no hangover never gets old! 
@james83 Congrats on your week of sobriety! WOW - i love that you have found people in your life that know the sober you and accept you for you! That is a great feeling. Keep up the great work on your journey
@Bomdhil OH I’m so sorry to hear about the floods and the tragic loss of life. My thoughts are with you 
Great work on day 3 and regaining hope!
@Jules000 Sorry that you relapsed. Do you know what led up to this and are you able to find a way to keep yourself safe from that trigger? Grateful that you are going to talk to a therapist tomorrow. Stay connected and give yourself some love
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@mnfast That is incredible news. Keep putting in the work and healing
@GOKU2019 ooh check out the 1’s! Hope you start feeling better soon
Checking in on Friday morning
680 days free of alcohol and weed
1095 days free of cigarettes
It was a wonderful Halloween. The weather was perfect! We only got 2 trick or treaters so that sucked but enjoyed some good spooky time with friends.
Its past 1 and I can’t sleep. I don’t do painkillers as I’m sure that will just be another addition I’ll have to come down from but this shit is getting worse.
Glad that this weekend is low key and hopefully if all goes well I will get to see my sister on Sunday. Been way too long since I’ve seen her.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening sending you all so much love
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