Sorry to hear this, my friend 
Sending you strength and positivity.
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Checking in sober, my sobrity is safe. But I do think about drinking the feelings away sometimes, or selfharm to control what I feel when the feelings Are to much to handle, to big inside me. Honestly I think its more likely that I selfharm then drink. I dont know how to cope when my feelings Are sooo there,so much, taking up all place inside. Im not going to drink. Im not going to selfharm today. I am about to collapse.
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Hey friend, sounds like ur very much in survival mode right now 
Whats going on?
Can u figure out what kind of emotions ur feeling? Anxiety, fear, sadness, worry, etc?
When i experience overwhelming emotion, i find its important to just slow down, take deep breaths over n over until i calm, and give myself some space to just be alone for a sec. Journalling in the past has been helpful to get stuff out of head. Moving my body helps to release negative energy. Prayer to my HP. Self care when im sad. Just a few suggestions. Sounds like ur going thru alot right now. Sending u healing and strength as u get thru ur day SH free and alcohol free 
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Iām so sorry for your loss, my friend. Take it easy and be kind to yourself. Even if you werenāt that close to him, these things have a way of hitting. 
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Checking in day 22. Went to a meeting which was good and forcing myself to speak in every one as the last time I went I never said anything and I know I need to throw myself in to get the most out of it. I enjoy the meetings & it does help to lessen the shame knowing you are not alone. Side from that I feel pretty crap today, headaches, tired, no energy, my sleep is messed up so thatās part of the issue. Planning some sober things with a friend and finding myself getting annoyed that almost every event or activity I look at booking serves alcohol in some capacity. So hard to get away from! Wish they would just ban it! 
. Hope everyoneās have a good day 
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Day 5 clean from 
. Mental clarity still foggy but hey im chugging along trying to think positive and find new games and activites to replace the habit
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Thatās how we do it.
24 hours at a time.
Great job.
Glad youāre here.
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Checking in day 497 AF
Attended my favorite AA womenās meeting this am and then a Big Book study. Iāve been a bit absent from this community but Iām trying to work my steps and attend more in person meetings.
So many positive changes in my life over the last few months. Blocked the toxic ex from being able to communicate with me. Heās manipulative and more dangerous to me than alcohol.
Attended Grandparents day at my Grandkids school. That meant the world to me since the time I was spending with them has been so limited over the last few years. Feeling very blessed.
I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their day and evening.
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708 days sober!! I have not been on the app for a while. Thought I would check in.
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Welcome back. Great to see you and hell of a job with 700+ days ā¦
. Keep up the great work 
Sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing here. I have first hand knowledge of mental health issues (myself and family members).
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Day 7. Sober.
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1 week!
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Congratulations on your 1 week milestone
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Sadly, unlikely to ever happen 
Reminded me of the beginning of covid when they started shutting down nonessential businesses and announced on a Friday that all liquor stores would be closing Monday. I was 4 months sober, still living with my horrible ex, and thought āHell yeah! If Iām forced to be locked up with him 24/7, at least there wonāt be liquor involved!ā Naturally he bought as much as he could afford and then they were all like āPsych! We were just kidding about the liquor stores closing ā That was some bullshit 
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I woke up with a headache 
Some of you may know those are the hardest to get rid of no matter what you do, soā¦ugh. It was our last Sunday brunch of the year. It was just me and a bartender and was the busiest Sunday Iāve worked all year. Decent money, but alot of work 
One of the newer kitchen guys who lives in a halfway house just celebrated 90 days clean(from idk). He said he wasnāt sure how to feel bc heās had 4 years in the past. Then he was talking about how he didnāt understand the quote Youāre worst day sober is still better than your best day using and followed with āI donāt know who theyāre getting high with, but I definitely had a good time!ā That worried me for him a little 
Well, Iām hoping I donāt wake up with this headache tomorrow 
Hope you all have a great start to your week
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@DanaM56 so glad to see u posting! Great job blocking ur toxic ex and about attending more in person mtgs. Way to go!
@mxelle way to go on 1 week Mel 
@cleanjean great to see u checking in!! Congratulations on ur sober time! Awesome work!
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Day 130 AF
Lifeās been fair so far these last couple weeks, Iām sorry for not getting back sooner. Iāve just been completely swamped with work and our little man heās only sleeping 4 hours at a time so itās been tiring lol. I hope everyone has a great Monday morning and Iāll be back soon 
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Day 1107 AF
Sup, gang.
I felt a little off yesterday, doing better today. Woke up, drank some coffee, went to Trader Joeās with the little man, cleaned the apartment, watched the Chargers game while cleaning, and took the fam to a pumpkin patch. It was a chill day overall. Just got back from a walk at the park. Itās my day off tomorrow. Gonna drop off the kids at school in the a.m. and then go for a walk with the wifey.
I hope everyoneās doing well. Take care. ODAAT
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