It’s been a good 6 weeks maybe even closer to 7 since my last visit and check in, so much has happened in that time. My wife and son both had separate issues that now need surgery. I had to call off my WKF World Championship preparation due to an incident at work where someone with HIV spat blood into my eyes and mouth because they were unhappy with me telling them the truth about their situation and that I could not help them. So now I’m awaiting test results and on all sorts of medication.
I can’t live my life as normal because of fear of infecting others if I have contracted it and to top it off whilst in A&E after the incident I contracted a viral infection that just won’t go away.
Someone should or could just put me down LOL!
Main thing is I’m still here, fighting, sober and living life to the fullest.
Sounds like the same kind of viral infection I have, all
my sinuses hurt constantly and have for 4 weeks now, can’t stop coughing which aggravates the headaches and causes the sinuses to flare up.
Glad to see you’re still kicking ass though Dana. Lots of love and hugs your way lovely lady x
@SelfLove_42 congrats on being honest with your wife and I hope therapy continues to go well for you @Laner oh gosh, that sounds awful! Is there a way to stop them from entering? It would be playtime if you had some cats! @Butterflymoonwoman feel better soon 🩵 @JazzyS thank you @zzz congrats on your week @SadMemeQueen sorry you’re suffering I hope getting rid of these new ones isn’t as much of an ordeal as the first one sending strength 🩵 @1in8billion sending strength & solidarity 🩵 @Scorpn that’s an amazing gift to yourself, best of luck with your quit @Just_Laura congrats on your win @acromouse sorry about those dreams
@Chevy55 I’m glad your hand has recovered @Seb that does sound hopeful, I hope you get to see the surgeon asap @Frank68 sorry for the funk yesterday, sounds like you handled it like a pro though and used your supports @BrOKenWolf damn! I hope you’re taking PEP to minimize the risk of it taking hold. I’ve had to take it a few times myself and the side effects were rough so was on meds for those too. Wishing good health for you and your family 🩵
1535 days no alcohol.
1000 days no cocaine.
30 days no binge-eating.
14 days no vape.
Today I’ve just been for my testosterone shot and to collect medication.
I have some packages to return, so I am planning to walk to the parcel shop to send them off.
This evening I’ll be reducing my dose of the first medication again.
Tomorrow I have therapy. Hoping for non-table seats on the train
Today the day was good nothing special, I spent few hours to learning my course and attended online AA meeting.
Last 6 days I didn’t went outside of my home and tomorrow me and my friend will go to Passport office to get clearance certificate for my friend immigration to the UK.
Sleep was lot improved, I slept about 8 hours last night.
Checking in. Still here, still sober. I had a near miss last weekend…life got toooo lifey and i was very close to escaping through drink or ending it all. Im feeling in a better place again now, but…boy howdy did it rock my confidence and make me realise i need to keep focused and doing things daily to help me stay on the good path. I hope everyone here is doing okay.
When I moved into this apartment, I only had my 12yo dog. I wanted to live without a litter box in my home for a while, but that only lasted 2 months before a cat found us The longest I’d ever lived without a cat
Great to hear from you Glad you’re still in the game! I’ve found it’s important to stay connected thru the hard times, even when it feels like too much. Moments of weakness are just what it’s waiting for, so good on you for knowing you should step up your game
I’ve been to weightlifting class which was a bit weird today, lots of bickering and passive aggressive bitching… Kind of funny but a bit sad amongst grown ass people.
I also attended a Centring session this morning with my Breathwork group. We only did one round and retention, but it was so powerful; my sacral region was on fire and I think I almost fell asleep within minutes. I’ve not committed to a proper conscious connected breathwork session in a couple of weeks and it was a good reminder why it’s good to at least maybe do my practice once a week. I still love it as much as the first time . It’s a beautiful sunny day.
Hit a new personal distance record on my run yesterday! 4 miles non stop
Today will be day 41 of running at least a mile a day. I also ordered a garmin watch on my birthday a couple days ago, and it arrives today, I’m beyond excited for all of the cool new features I’ll get to use. It will be a bit sad removing my fitbit, because my fiance and I both bought matching fitbits together about a year before he passed away. But I’ll hang onto it and maybe display mine next to his. fuck I miss him. I’ve been randomly tearing up lately thinking about him. I wish I could just… I dont know. Death is such a hard thing for everyone, not being able to communicate with them, not knowing where they are, or if they still exist, or if they’re even still aware of your presence or have any form of consciousness. It is what it is and it sucks.
Regarding my garmin… it’ll be really cool having immediate feedback of if im going too hard or too easy on my workouts, along with gaining insight for recommended workouts and a whole plan to increase my distance so I can hopefully do a 10k race next. I’ve gained 5lbs since I started running regularly which is frustrating, but seeing my running progress has been equally satisfying. As of this week I’m officially “cracking down” more on adding more weight training sessions and really focusing on my diet (in a healthy way) to try to get to a healthier weight. Sleep is important too.
Slept for 9 hours last night and I’m still tired, although I feel better compared to previous days. Just sucks i can’t figure out why my energy levels are always so low during the day.
Unfortunately I’m highly allergic to cats…like break into hives, swollen eyes and generally feel like krap sick when I’m around them. And my dogs are unfortunately wanting to attack cats. do you think it’d help in just the long term or short term? If I was to move out for a few days and borrow someones cat to do their thing or is that just nonsense if they aren’t there in the long term?
Good news if only knowing the professionals are listening to you and discussing options with you. Congratulations on your sober days! You are in my daily prayers. So glad you are here.
I’ve spent the day trying to find possible entry points and finding ways to patch them up. It’s weird though after talking to some others on my street today it seems that everyone is having the same issue…maybe like some weird mouse infestation in town? between yesterday and today I’ve killed 57 mice! Seriously thinking to borrow a cat and just deak with the allergies for a few days
So sorry to hear of surgeries for wife and son. Waiting for test results has to be draining. Take care of you and hoping for speedy recovery. Your sobriety counter is amazing!
and I hope therapy continues to go well for you 
I hope getting rid of these new ones isn’t as much of an ordeal as the first one 
The longest I’d ever lived without a cat 
Glad you’re still in the game! I’ve found it’s important to stay connected thru the hard times, even when it feels like too much. Moments of weakness are just what it’s waiting for, so good on you for knowing you should step up your game 
fuck I miss him. I’ve been randomly tearing up lately thinking about him. I wish I could just… I dont know. Death is such a hard thing for everyone, not being able to communicate with them, not knowing where they are, or if they still exist, or if they’re even still aware of your presence or have any form of consciousness. It is what it is and it sucks.
do you think it’d help in just the long term or short term? If I was to move out for a few days and borrow someones cat to do their thing or is that just nonsense if they aren’t there in the long term?
between yesterday and today I’ve killed 57 mice! Seriously thinking to borrow a cat and just deak with the allergies for a few days