Feeling grateful that my journey has lead me back to the path of sobriety and this community. Honestly I have so much good in my life to be grateful for and I’m trying so hard to convince myself I deserve it. I guess that I am worthy of these good things. As usual I wanna throw everything away but am forcing myself to stay and be uncomfy and follow through this time. Cravings are nonexistent and my appetite is back. Had a nice bowl of oatmeal for breakfast with a coffee and really slowed myself down to enjoy each bite, each taste, the warmth. Going to watch the movie Amelia Perez, do some yoga and read a new book I just got. I’m lucky I did not have to go to work today. I’m lucky to have this time to heal a bit. Trying just to be present in this moment and not dwell.
Keep repeating to myself over and over, I CAN DO THIS until I maybe really do start to believe it. Self doubt sucksssss lol
Goodluck to everyone today! It ain’t wasy but its worth it
Day 60
Mundane life: work, chores at home, reading, journaling. Couple weeks ago I decided to be more mindfull what I eat and that is going well. I’m not munching treats daily anymore. My next little tweak is to make a simple and easy task list for every week. I hope it helps with my anxiety and get some shit done.
Tomorrow I’m attending an event where is free drinks. I’m not even questioning should I drink or not. It’s a hell no! I’ll try to have fun, eat well, have soda or soft drinks and leave the minute (drunk) people start to annoy me.
3 weeks today! I cant believe it. There have been plenty of urges and grumpy days but I haven’t come close to buying alcohol. Looking to a completely sober future is still daunting so, for now, ODAAT!
Checking in on day
561 no alcohol
70 nor form of weed
201 no form of nicotine
I haven’t checked in the past week pretty much
I had cell phone issues but hopefully it’s ok for a while.
Work in the morning after 2 days off. No biggie; just another day. I feel pretty good for having a work day in the morning and another 5 days of work ahead of me. I feel like I’m getting there.
Craving pot a bit… then weird dreams about booze. I don’t plan on ever going back but I feel like a escape from reality would be helpful, said the drug addict.
Not today saten
Day 1012
Checking in on another clean and sober day. Feeling very much in the christmas spirit today (yes… I know its still November haha). I needed some cheering up today (feeling abit disconnected lately) so i put on some christmas music while cleaning, and now im watching Christmas Cookie Challenge on tv.
Also, my sons wheelchair is FINALLY being delivered today after having all the repairs done. Hes been using this incredibly heavy loaner chair for like 1.5-2 months. We are looking forward to getting his chair back. Im praying there is no issues with it moving forward.
Not much else to mention. Have a wonderful day everyone!
@scaredsmol great work on achieving 3 weeks! @Noshame good to see u checking in! Glad that things are going well overall. I get that feeling to now and then (wanting an escape). I sort of take it as a warning sign that i need to incorporate some “me” time, some down time, since we both know life can get crazy busy lol @Raspberry awesome work getting to 60 days! Good luck tmrw at the event. Hope all goes well and u enjoy ur sober evening @StacyAnn yay great job on reaching 3 days!!
Threw my back out very, very badly a couple of days ago while bravely drying off from my morning shower.
Yknow what won’t make it heal faster? A drink.
It’s been a rough couple days. Fortunately or unfortunately I was also taking the rest of the week off for a retreat that starts tomorrow. It’s a lot of time to sit still and that was just leading to aches. Recovery brain kicked in and gently doing stretches on and off to try and regain some strength.
This too shall pass though, eh? One day at a time…
