Checking in day 254
14 Likes
Happy Wednesday Friday!
Im off the rest of the week woot! Well as much as a person who owns a business can be.
Today is what is typically the biggest bar day of the year. Some even refer to it as Blackout Wednesday. Im glad that I dont have to do that today. The damage it use to do to my health, relationships, and bank account was terrible.
MAKE it an awesome day my friends.
13 Likes
Day 1,630 clean and sober today. Damn I woke up feeling so much gratitude for the way my life is right now. I absolutely love my apartment with all of the little knick knacks and flowers etc. Being able to have a warm and safe place is so important to me and Iāve created a sanctuary of sorts and I love it. Grateful for a bed, coffee, blankets, food in the fridge the list goes on.
@SoberWalker thank you for sharing about those strong urges you had. I think itās important for others to know that even with years of sobriety they still happen and they happen to me as well. Proud of you for setting boundaries with your family and making it through, well done 
Have an amazing day today everyone, love you guys! 
17 Likes
Checking in. Today has been a little bit rough day. Lots of anxiety and depression, but in the end, I donāt care. I just try to focus on reading. Just took a little walk, it helped. Now Iām drinking coffee and listening roots reggae. In the end, itās so good to be sober because facing anxiety and depression is real, no more escaping the reality. Have a good one!
15 Likes
Good morning lol i woke up this morning laughing in sadness. Man here is a ? For ya all. Where did everyone one for that where such good friends that girl friend that said they got you lol. U ask yourself why we relapse or keep drinking. The answerās are right in front of you if we just look. It sucks most of the time. But its true hope everyone has a great holiday (odaat)
9 Likes
Day 17. Iām most definetly ready to be seen. Every day there are surprising, funny, connected moments with strangers, I wake up excited to know what is in store. I know when Iām ready, floodgates open, its an energetic thing. And, je suis prĆŖte.
I think connecting here, sobering up, getting past the excrutiating decision and first days of sobriety helped, although, there was definetly a
moment. Iām grateful to you.
I want to journal the fear kickback, still there, but onward.
15 Likes
And we will see you in all your fantastic glory.
3 Likes
Not you expanding your gif repertoire for moi. š©· My connecting with you specifically has given me mad strength. Merci.
4 Likes
Gym morning was good. I came back and my other half had had a panic attack due to work and an emotionally idiotic line manager. Long story, ongoing trauma, issues and convolutions. Instantly Iām in rage and fight mode. Unheard of rage. She doesnāt deserve the treatment, and we talked it through, the boss was a dick. I would say the truth and be reasonable if the boss wasnāt being a dick, Iām pretty pragmatic.
Fuck, she has far more grace than I, internalising it with tears and sadness that I just canāt reach. I want to rip faces off and absolutely tear the heart out of this person who hurt her.
Blue apparently turned into a therapy cat, big bushy tail and wide eyes then wouldnāt leave her side 
Iāve made us lunch, now I need to really calm the fuck down. Iām incensed. 
18 Likes
Thank you 
1 Like
Thank you Rob, yes itās a reminder we are never ācuredā and can never stop doing our recovery work.
3 Likes
Damnā¦ I hate people being fucks (especially in a authority role). Sorry your wife had to deal with that.
Love Blue 
furry friends can sense when they are needed ā¦very sweet that he was by her side.
Sending calmness your way 
3 Likes
Injustice is just unacceptable. I donāt care who you are and what you are, everyone deserves peace and respect. I will fight to my dying day for those I care about and also the people in the world with no voice or choice.
Hot shower did the trick 
6 Likes
Cāest avec plaisir, mon ami. Thatās why I was so sad when you left as I felt an opportunity for some Collab brain waves. 
3 Likes
Day 1018
Checking in on a brutally chilly morning here in Alberta. Today will consist of a leg workout, some christmas shopping, and some cleaning. Feeling very much in the holiday spirit today. Have a great day everyone!
13 Likes
Glad youāre in good spirits today!! Enjoy chirstmas shopping 
2 Likes
Hey beautiful people 
Checking in Day 11
Went to a Speaker AA Meeting last night. One of the stories that really stuck with me was the idea of the āfirst drinkā and what that means. I definitely relate to not being a daily drinker but when I get that first drink in me something in my brain just clicks, not like a lightbulb when you have a good idea, more like a click into self destruction mode. The speaker ended by saying āif I dont have the first drink or toke than I canāt get drunk or highā and that really stuck with me as it gives all the power to me and not my addiction. I can chose to drink or smoke or I can chose healthy outlets that I know work for me. Obviously its not that easy but it really is that simple.
Goodluck to all today 
15 Likes
@Dirk @Just_Laura @s_unrelax @JazzyS thank you so much. 10 days alcohol free is a huge win for me. It has been a very long time since I was AF for so long.
Being in this forum has been very helpful for me. Definitely more helpful than the AA meetings I attended (I prefer to avoid the AA meetings in our city. My experience with them was not good.)
5 Likes
Hi everyone, Iām new to this thread, 8 days sober, ups and downs but keeping strong and focused. Everything seems to be a trigger to me lol even treating myself to hairdressers today, which made me happy but somehow made me crave alcohol too. Im back home now, I made it again xxx
18 Likes
I bought the motorcycle about a month ago. It was one of the few impulsive drunk decisions, that I do not regret. I love riding it. Riding it is like a mix of therapy and meditation for me.
6 Likes