I woke up naturally after a straight 7.5 hours. Felt good all day I wish I was tired now tho. No sleeping in tomorrow. Working the Thanksgiving buffet. Itâs not busy at all and we should be out by 4. Easy, boring money.
I heard someone I knew got arrested so I checked the sheriff app to see if she made it to county. She didnât, but then I couldnât stop scrolling(thru all 417 inmates!). I wondered who my daughterâs fatherâs been chillin with these past 6 months. Psh, I know too many people in jail Itâs crazy to see so many my exact age! The variety of charges was interesting too. Overwhelming majority was drug related. Followed by an even mix of guns, violence, robberies, and way too fucking many sick men Surprisingly, there were only a dozen or so DWIs. My maximum sentence couldâve been 5 years for my 2nd one, but instead I paid out the ass to never lose my license. I wonder if jail time wouldâve made a difference Like, if it wouldâve helped me understand the severity of my actions sooner bc Iâd be completely sober, rather than figure out ways to drink/drug/lie my way thru probation, counting down the days and dollars til I was âfreeâ again. Tbh, I probably did more drugs ON probation than any other time in my life! Now, being able to see what I was, they shouldâve been stricter. With how reckless I was, itâs a miracle I never killed anyone. Seriously. Today Iâm grateful I was able to see that before it was too late Damn I need to get to bed. Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends Hope everyone has a great day!
@EFountains I love what that mattress represents - what a wonderful gift to yourself @Mno 2000 Yay! @ChicagoT 6 years also Yay!
Great meeting online last night - a lesson from Living Sober and some wonderful shares that followed. 2 newcomers that were so brave to just get up and share straight away. I am always in awe of that kind of strength. My Big Book arrived yesterday so after work I stayed in the office and did an hour of mindful, intentional reading. Pencil and page tabs in hand. What a calming and peaceful way to start the evening.
Watching TV and knitting. Son 2 sent me a video of the baby I am knitting for. He rolled over for the first time and his head is not massive (as described by son 2)! He is adorable and perfectly normal sized with a perfectly normal sized head! Iâve done 2 socks and I donât like either of them so will start again tonight and get a pair of socks I like and would be proud to gift to this beautiful baby boy.
Funny how your priorities change when you are sober. Here I am giving a shit about socks.
Excited for a live breathwork tonight in a beautiful church near Hyde park. Up to 120 people! Should be absolutely beautiful and extra.
Cats were both amazing at the vets yesterday, such good boys. Both had a full bill of clean health but Bear has to ideally lose a kilo in weight to be optimum as heâs 5.5kg. Letâs see how that goes for my little man considering heâs already on a diet the past month or so! Blue comes in pretty fine for his frame at 5kgs. We can work on it.
Eleven months again. Proud. Just wish I was celebrating the 2.5+ years it could have been if I hadnât relapsed the first time after I reached a year. That in itself is something to be aware of for me. Accomplishment doesnât equal permission.
Iâm so very happy and proud of you Mno! Thank you for being my inspiration today! I need it so much, my cat is going through the dental surgery today and i want to be responsible and strong for my little fluffy friend.
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Thursday night, bag packed for small vacation leaving in the morning with my girl. Good 3hr drive and weather looks pretty ordinary over the next few days so Iâm assuming the indoor pool and spa/sauna will get a decent workout. Some much needed R&R.
Iâm 11 weeks in to my recovery. Ups and downs twists and turns however I remain alcohol free. Itâs been tough I have posted before about some hard emotional times Iâm going through right now. I have to be consistent. The last week I have been trying to make myself reach out and speak out. Thank goodness I have this outlet and it helps to put my feelings down for all to read. I have literally been taking it one day at a time. Try not to think too far ahead and try not to live in the past. Podcast in particular sober motivation with Brad McCloud has been helpful thank you too this community for suggesting podcasts. When I feel very overwhelmed I have been attending a great meeting on Zoom. The group is based in LA and has a wonderful variety of sober stories. I like that this AA meeting also has burning desires. I suggest checking it out as well as the podcast. Those are some of the positives I can be proud of. I must remember to give myself a break love myself and do the next good thing. At the same time I have been neglectful to my self care. Inconsistent with my meds. Not sleeping well. Not eating right. Nightmares are creeping back in. I am debating about what I will do tomorrow for the holiday. Some good advice I heard recently is âjust because others want you to show up doesnât mean you have to show upâ Thanks for listening everyone have a great holiday.
@Collins amazing 1516 daysđđ˝ love the video and thanks for sharing @ChicagoT a huge congrats . 6 years is massive achievement. Thanks for dropping in to share your milestone @Dustysprungfield thatâs an awesome flex. Way to ore plan the holidays in your mind. Going in to them with a solid not gonna drink is a wonderful mindset. ODAAT @Rob11 sorry about your mood. Hope you are able to do something to help turn it around and lift your spirits. A huge congrats on 2+ weeks of not Smoking . That is a huge accomplishment⌠keep it up. @Tragicfarinelli woohoo congratulations TF! 11 months is awesome work. Sorry you didnât get enough sleep. Sending energy your way to get through today. âAccomplishment doesnât equal permission.â I love that and a great reminder. @Blanka hope all goes well today with your cats dental surgery . Thinking of you both today @Nicolekeller congratulations on your 11 weeks. Impressive work my friend. I know itâs not easy - especially when dealing with lifeâs lifey stuff and our emotional rollercoaster and the withdrawal symptomsâŚit all can be super overwhelming. You are handling this perfectly and doing all the right things. Keep taking it ODAAT. Remember that you are not alone and it does get easier
Congratulations on all the amazing milestones
Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends.
Checking in early in a Thursday morning. Another day with little sleep. I am so tired and just feeling emotionalâŚmust have been a bad dream.
Will get the coffee started shortly and get things started. Not 100% sure when friends are arriving but I want to get things done early so I can relax. Hopefully I will survive today emotionally and physically. I will not drink!
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day⌠sending you all so much love
@JazzyS Much love your way friend. Enjoy Thanksgiving. You are always so generous with your support here. So I give thanks for you being here with us @Nicolekeller Congratulations on 11 weeks of sobriety and recovery work. That is almost three months! A great achivement I hope you find good ways to take care of yourself. The holiday season can be especially taxing with all the expectations put on those few weeks. @Seb Enjoy your vacation. I love saunas @Tragicfarinelli Congrats on 11 months! Great job. So much work you put and are still putting into your recovery. Hope you get better sleep next night. @Lastry A shoutout to giving shit about socks! When my daughter was little I so very much loved all the nice things people gave us for her. I am quite sure your son will appreciate it too. @zzz Congrats friend. Good to see you checking in @Mno Great to hear your work trial was a nice one. And obviously huge congrats on 2000 days! That is something friend. Something huge @ChicagoT Congrats on 6 years Tom. Itâs so great to have people come back and share their success with us. Thanks!
This cold I am having is very strange. I have only very few of the usual symptoms like sore throat or running nose, but the muscle and body aches are really uncomfortable.
Anyways, today I am going to check out some programming stuff and how to teach coding to kids. Yoga for those aches in the afternoon. All together a rather easy day. Hosting my weekly Recovery Dharma meeting in the evening.
Todayâs picture is somewhat more festive to prepare us all for the upcoming advent: Advent decorations in the town of Dornum in northern Germany.
Checking in Thanksgiving day USA on day
567 no alcohol
76 no form of pot
207 nic free
Wow strong craving this morning for weed just for a minute. I took my meds and drank my coffee and mushroom juice and the craving was gone pretty quickâŚ
At times I just have these thoughts that I want something to use. Like weed or a nic loszeng. Itâs not even like a craving. Itâs a thought of something more.
Addiction sucks but itâs not going to control me today
Wife explained she needed more of me so Iâm really trying to be more present in our time together. The baby crys at night, I get up give him a binky and if he keeps crying I make him a baby bottle.
I guess I need to balance work and family life better
Today is Thanksgiving USA
Iâll do what I need to do.
Get the keys to the new house tomorrow! Wife and I have decided to paint the whole inside next week⌠Why do we punish ourselves
Have a great last couple days of the week everyone.
There was a bereavement in my partnerâs family so the last week has been all over the place.
Finally caught up on some sleep and eating more proper food. First run today in a week.
Had lots of regular tea over those days so Iâve got caffeine cravings again, which also makes me crave sweet things. Back to my decaf tea now though. Cravings will go away in time.
I wish I was tired now tho. No sleeping in tomorrow. Working the Thanksgiving buffet. Itâs not busy at all and we should be out by 4. Easy, boring money.
Itâs crazy to see so many my exact age! The variety of charges was interesting too. Overwhelming majority was drug related. Followed by an even mix of guns, violence, robberies, and way too fucking many sick men 
Surprisingly, there were only a dozen or so DWIs. My maximum sentence couldâve been 5 years for my 2nd one, but instead I paid out the ass to never lose my license. I wonder if jail time wouldâve made a difference 
Like, if it wouldâve helped me understand the severity of my actions sooner bc Iâd be completely sober, rather than figure out ways to drink/drug/lie my way thru probation, counting down the days and dollars til I was âfreeâ again. Tbh, I probably did more drugs ON probation than any other time in my life! Now, being able to see what I was, they shouldâve been stricter. With how reckless I was, itâs a miracle I never killed anyone. Seriously. Today Iâm grateful I was able to see that before it was too late 
Damn I need to get to bed. Happy Thanksgiving to my American friends 
Hope everyone has a great day!
Blue comes in pretty fine for his frame at 5kgs. We can work on it.
. Thinking of you both today 
Hopefully I will survive today emotionally and physically. I will not drink!
I hope you find good ways to take care of yourself. The holiday season can be especially taxing with all the expectations put on those few weeks.
