Congratulations Phil with your birthday! 
Iāve got you another chandelier as a present, saw this one in a castle in France last september.
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Happy 2 weeks AF David @MrMoustache 
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Thank you, my friend!
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366 days
1 leap year of stacking 1 day at a time.
Busy day at work, flat out all day and its starting to come into summer so it was hot today too.
Day off tomorrow before nightshift. Will be getting to the gym tomorrow morning for sure.
Have been going back and re-reading my early posts. They seem similar to my posts now, but some I can sense and remember the desperation I was feeling. Its seems a long time since Iāve felt that way so it was good to refresh just how difficult those early days are.
I had tried and failed many times. This group helped me many times. Thank you all who contribute and take time to help others
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ā Day 2266 
9 days away from feet freedom 
Tired. I find it difficult to wake up without feeling energetic like normal. It affects my mood big time. So I search for the little things that cheer me up like buying a new watch face that shows me a different flower every day (still curious about how many daysā¦a week? A month? I hope a year!)
Today? Getting groceries (yes, I can still bike with my plaster
) and small house chores.Have a good day ore night all!
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8 months AF
1m13d Smokefree
Well folks, guess my immune system had to shutdown at some time so here I am.
Lifeās been a mix of work, sleep, meet and repeat for the last weeks.
Which is my new normal for winter I guess.
Usually Iād be kneedeep in one bar or another.
During winter there are many drunk people in my city, so I always could blend in if I wanted to/cared enough to mimic normal behaviour. 
Guess where I wonāt be going for the forseeable future.
On times like this I am reminded of a former friend of mine. We used to get high together and get up to all kinds of degenerate stuff.
He broke my ribs during a fistfight, I broke him out of rehabā¦just all kinds of awful behaviour all around.
We used to talk a lot about freedom and I find his definition of that word absurd if I may say so myself.
Yes you donāt have to work and get to choose what to do with your time. But if all that just amounts to getting high itās still a prison, isnāt it?
You just trade one destructive system for another. Arguably a worse one, since one actually letās me express myself in my free time.
Could be much worse if you ask me. 
So yeah just feeling a bit directionless at this moment in time.
Donāt get me wrong I got the basics down but there could be more to my life than what I am currently doing.
Or maybe I just need to be more content from time to time.
Guess thatās the german in me.
We do love to complain about stuff. 
Anyways, Iāll try to get healthy first. 
See you around and as always, take care^^
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2004
Had an easy day at home yesterday, did some chores, made myself stamppot, petted Luna, watched a movie (Flow, very much recommended). Might repeat today, not sure yet. Some outdoor activity is in place I guess. Maybe just shopping for groceries will do. And cook something nice, something new.
Whatever Iāll do, Iāll do it sober and clean. And make today as good a day as I can. Iām expecting the same from all of you my friends. Love. Pic is from a couple of days ago in Utrecht. Early mornings are so pretty there.
@MrFantastik HUGE congrats on your year Marty!
@SoberWalker of course you can bike with a plastered foot. Youāre Dutch! Do take care though!
@JonasE I guess itās a bit of both. Contentment with what we have and doing active work to improve our lives. Weāre getting there. One day at a time friend.
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376 sugar
240 UPF
114 gluten
114 dairy
50 mindful eating
Just a short checkin today. Thereās been all kinds of stuff going on, just busy. Iāll teach a class in a few, have some errands to run. Yoga in the afternoon, chilling in the evening.
Turns out my brother has COVID. Iām hoping my daughter who spend some significant time with him on the weekend did not get infected. Weāll see.
Peace and love for life always 
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Thank you!
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Wow, that is so stunning.
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307 days AF
Checking in, happy to be sober and will stay so, today 
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Start of Day 65
I finally got the official words I was seeking for so long from my wife nearing the end of lastnightā¦ " Iām not in love with you". Now, I have the confirmation to tie with her more recent feelings and actions towards me. I was hurt and relapsing crossed my mind several times because I didnāt want to feel the feelings of loss, hurt, and being a failure. But Iām still here and sober. Hereās to another glorious 24. ODAAT
P.S. in other news, I start a part time gig today so Iām blessed for this opportunity and pray that Iām able to positively impact those that Iāll be around and befriend during this new journey.
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Happy Monday!
I am so grateful to not be hungover after 4 days off ! Im at the gym with and doing the next right thing. Im NOT writing an email how im out sick from a made up illness!
Definitely rethinking the number of days im taking off ovet Christmas. Thonk im going to plan to work more.
MAKE IT AN AWESOME DAY MY FRIENDS!
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Sounds like a great start to your day. Enjoy the gym 
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Day 332 AF
Monday morning, with 1 more week left on my leave of absence.
Itās been a double edged sword most definitely with all this time off. Had time to get back in gym, design a winter workout program, focus on some physical ailments and take care of. 
But as all good things, it lead to much too much time in semi isolation. A bit of a pity party for myself and some mental struggles. Iāve thought a lot last night and decided (as I do) to cast those aside (push them back down) and count my blessings and appreciate what I have. Forgive those that donāt have the time (or desire) to reach out and understand they deal with their own issues. Move forward in the light, and prepare to get back to work and be surrounded by coworkers that enjoy me, and I enjoy them.
It helped writing it out yesterday, some kind hearted souls writing me and understanding these things shall pass. 
thank you to them and this incredible community of support. You truly have been my rock since this journey began and I look forward to celebrating my 1 year anniversary with yāall next month.
Peace 
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Day 1,635 days clean and sober today. Felt some mild withdrawal symptoms last night which is right on track (4 days off the medication) and itās sucked but I took it as my body is healing itself and that made me happy. Amazing how our bodies work nonstop to balance itself, pretty rad.
Just got a message from my boss to come in and cover someone so I gotta go lol.
I hope everyone has an amazing day, I love you guys! 
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Day oneā¦again.
It happened again. I think I fooled myself that this time it would be different; surprise surprise it wasnāt.
I have also come to grips with the fact my addiction is not just one faceted in relation to booze, there seems to be a component of sex addiction wrapped into what I am dealing with.
Anyways, that is the first time Iāve admitted that one this forum and I hope that my honesty and acceptance will help me stay on track.
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Thanks for sharing and being vulnerable enough to put the newer aspect into the light. Youre arent alone in that and theres others here that are able to support you throigh that. Youre in the right place. Keep coming back
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Hey all, checking in on day 1632. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Thanks so much Phillip, this seems to be the only tribe in my life that really brings me joy and comfort these days
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