Day #334
Happy Friday happy sober another day
So yesterday it was my first SOBER birthday im so so happy about it. A lot of good energy i received yesterday. Iād like to thank to all of you for the greetings and that you made my day more great @Alisa@JazzyS@Steve14 and the others - thank you friends
So before the birthday i was wondering how it will go - if i would want to drink, how it will go, but i didnāt want at all to drink, i was happy and enjoyed the day sober, went to restaurant with the family , drank non alcoholic drinks and after i got home I was really proud of myself. Now I see and enjoy the life and celebrations without hangovers and without drunk mind.
Have a great Friday and then enjoy another sober weekend
We can do it and we are doing it - we are sober and strong
Checking in as I have just been lurking in the background and I know where that leads eventually! For me, back to square 1. Iām doing okay atm recovering wise.
Not something I think about, want to keep it that way.
So Iām here because I know being here works for me.
Hope everyone is okay.
Keeping it short as my MH/PTSD is not great.
But I canāt isolate. I just canāt it canāt be an option.
You see inside my head. If Iām in a really bad space I really do not go near meditation or breathwork or any soothing practice before trying to release the bad JuJu as much as possible first. So I try and exercise or walk or lift some weights or take a shower or shake it out. Using somatic practises for me now is the treat after the foreplay. Or you will be doing the deed and not enjoy it at all. Thatās one thing I would say I have learned from my experiences: in fight or flight, get the cortisol out first, then sink into soothing somatic bliss of choice. So for me, if I know Iām feeling like a shit brain then I donāt meditate anyway, Whatās the point? Once Iām down from my ledge and my body is starting to relax it will receive some peace.
No lol, this was my neighbours cat when he was a baby (Ralph). Before my two came along, my neighbour used to drop him off to me in the morning and collect him after work as Ralph was only a baby and he didnāt want to leave him with his big brother Randy. So, I was his daycare. They have three cats now, so between us we have five big boy catsā¦ Sometimes they come out in the hallways for a play date with me.
Sick! First time since I kicked off my sobriety 10 months ago really. I detest being ill.
Everyoneās like, slow down, rest, take it easyā¦ that was literally 2 times per week before, I donāt wanna slow down, rest, or take it easyā¦ argh
Good morning! Iām back home and recuperating from a somewhat scary drive home. Hit dust storms and high winds that caused a semi to lose control, hit a car and flip into a ditch. Iām very fortunate I was a mile back. Iāve never driven in conditions like that. But slowly I made it to west Texas and found a hotel! Easy drive yesterday, picked up kitty and now I can recover before my training class tomorrow.
Went to Meow Wolf and the OāKeefe museumā had a proper touristy Santa Fe sober trip . It was fun! No hangovers which makes all the difference. Had some altitude sickness but it was worth it. Iāll post some pics once I recover a bit more.
Told my brother I am serious about moving there and heāll help me find a house. It will be a year or two but I have the funds to do it sooner. But not today! Today I lay on my bed. . Itās cloudy and damp and a great day for movies and shows. I missed my little cat!
I did a session with a therapeutic coach who explained how we should connect mind and body positively with a nod towards polyvagal theory and neuro linguistic programming. Sometimes just blanket or piece meal Spiritual positivity is very harmful if we do not connect with it properly and it can actually make us feel worse about ourselves.
Hey all,day 2 on new meds its ok so fair. That is a good thing i do feel more energy , clearing on my thinking and not sure yet if it was the day or what but i think i feel more in control of my emotions being able to not dive into something that upsets me. And move on. We will see happy with it so fare. Them on the other hand of things hopeing to stay focus on plans to move forward. Idk what to think of my life crumbling around me about 6 mouths ago still dont get why. It is coming clearly that money was a big part of everything with my ex sad havnt heard a word from her tell i sent a 100 dollars to her. I know now that. I know how i want my life. Once back to work full time i believe things will come together again. Hope everyone had a good Halloween (odaat)
@JazzyS Today has been better. Still anxious but feeling more functionable. Itās frustrating when I canāt figure out what triggers higher anxiety. Sometimes I know but some days I just canāt figure out what causes it to get that high. Yeah Iām still working with this therapist online. Itās been helpful but I find it difficult. I feel like I need to deal with the past, current and also learning new coping skills but donāt always know where to start with it all. So it can be a bit overwhelming.
Iām looking forward to tomorrow. Iām going to be taking a longer hike with a friend. And then will relax after.
happy sober another day 
im so so happy about it. A lot of good energy i received yesterday. Iād like to thank to all of you for the greetings and that you made my day more great @Alisa @JazzyS @Steve14 and the others - thank you friends 
did you get another kitty ?
First time since I kicked off my sobriety 10 months ago really. I detest being ill.
. It was fun! No hangovers which makes all the difference. Had some altitude sickness but it was worth it. Iāll post some pics once I recover a bit more.
. Itās cloudy and damp and a great day for movies and shows. I missed my little cat!
havnt heard a word from her tell i sent a 100 dollars to her. I know now that. I know how i want my life. Once back to work full time i believe things will come together again. Hope everyone had a good Halloween (odaat)