So sorry to hear of the loss. Suicide is awful for everyone. May you find comfort.
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Checking in - feeling a bit weird today, but going to rest a little after work then work out and make sone tasty food!
Hope everyone is having a great day
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@CATMANCAM Only portions of math. Function tables, quadratics, factorising, slopes and plot lines on a graph, inequalities, and prism geometry. That said, I now have the universal quadratic equation memorized (see below) 
other than that, it was all just reading literature amd articles and using common sense to find the reasonable answers. And then the Civics test is a requirement by the state of Arizona and itās based on the naturalization test that immigrants take in order to apply for citizenship.
X equals negative b plus & minus the square root of b minus 4 times a times c over 2 times a.
Pretty simple stuff as long as you know the formulae and how they work.
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Dear World of the US. If you have a place to rent, anywhere in the US, let me know. Life is insane. Still day 313.
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Gentle reminder to all that politics are not allowed in the forum.
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Iām alive 
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Second check-in. I landed safely and made it home ok. Itās good to finally be back in my own bed with my nice pillows.
I couldāve easily justified drinking today. It was calling me back into the darkness. But fuck that! Iām alive and sober.
I love you guys. Thank you for being here.
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Day 250
Seems like a nice, round figure. Taking it easy today. Need an early night.
Have a good sober night wherever you are
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The sugar cravings are definitely hitting hard. Im pounding Maltesers like no oneās business 
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@teacosy Glad you do have running and it is helpful. Hope you can find other outlets as well. Working full time and going to school is very stressful and overwhelming. Glad you are taking some time off to concentrate on just one. Hopefully you can practice some self care as well. 
@laner WOW ā an ATM being without $$ for so long is also ludicrous. It all sounds frustrating and Iām sorry that you are having to deal with it at all. Is it possible to ask the American bank to send you a 2nd card for you to have in case something like this happens in the future? I had to laugh at the bank saying they would loan you cash for a sheep. I do forget that things work differently in your area. I do hope that you are able to get this sorted out smoothly :pray;
Had me rolling! So did Taileeās reply. Thanks ladies!
@catmancam OH I do hope that you have luck in your home purchase. Here we have incentives for first time buyers ā does the UK offer something similar? If this assessor isnāt returning your calls, are you able to go to a different one? Wishing you luck my friend. 40 days is impressive work and I know you will do it again! ODAAT 
Solid plan! You just keep reminding yourself how awful it feels to drink and that you are happier / healthier without it! We got your back ODAAT!
@danam56 Great to see you checking in my friend and sneaking in with 500+days LOL ā way to go
@mischa84 Oh Iām sorry Mischa! That type of news always saddens me even when I donāt know the person. Just so much pain all around and for everyone involved. Sending comforting hugs and love your way 
@refreshedperspective Sorry for the weird day. Sounds like you have a solid plan ā hope it helps and you are feeling up beat soon 
@earnit I do hope you find something soon. I would offer if I could but am living with family myself at the moment. 313 days is incredible friend. Stay positive and I do hope things get easier / calmer for you
@scaredsmol LOL go on and enjoy the Maltesers (I love them too) ā I went hard with ice cream. The beginning stage is full of sugar cravings as you are giving up alcohol (all sugar) and your body is already cleansing from the poison so the sugar helps stabilize things. It does calm down and even out ā for me I believe it was around month 4.
Checking in on Wednesday evening
686 days free of alcohol and weed
1101 days free of cigarettes
Its been a long day. Woke up feeling defeated and disheartened and been working on my faith. Remembering that some things are out of my control and no amount of alcohol or weed is going to help me sort through it.
I did manage to get a shit ton accomplished today. Very impressed LOL.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening!! sending you all so much love
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I am wishing you so much strength. I know it is so difficult to speak about, and equally i know it is so difficult to get oneself out of a situation like this.
I hope you are able to take steps to get yourself out of this situation, and that you are able to find supports around you to help you set up a solid plan so you can get out. No one deserves to be trapped or in that situation, and as someone else has stated it is completely unacceptable. I am sending you love and strength. Xo.
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Good evening everyone OH MY! I am sooooo tired 
Good tired though. I really am loving this job and finding my stride. The days are so busy and bustling with the energy of kidsā¦my how things are different then they were whdn i was young, or maybe i just remember it wrong. Feels i dont have mamy seconds in the day but wanted to check in Feeling happy, joyous sober and free ā¦even though life is not perfect. Perfection is accepting all those imperfections xo.
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2y 8m 4d no self harm
I could really use someone to talk to. Iām alone. every time I talk to my friends Iām only a burden anyway.
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It was good to celebrate my birthday at my place, have some friends over, share food and talk. Didnāt do that for 15 years or so. Nothing to celebrate and no attention on me please. Iām learning a new balance. Iām learning to be grateful to be alive. Iām learning Iām worth it.
Thanks for all the congratulations friends. Made my day more special. Today I got a job interview. Time to bring some more of the new found me into practice. Dreamt of Rogier last night. the guy who committed suicide and who met working at the place Iām trying to work now. In the dream he was playing handball. What the hell?
Work first. Letās have as good a day as we all can friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come from it. Much love.
@SadMemeQueen Hugs friend. Thereās friends here too. Youāre not alone.
@Mischa84 Sorry for the loss of your friend. Itās a big shock.
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@Mischa84 Sorry about your old friend Suicideās a real bitch 
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Back to feeling off again 
Not terrible, just tired and pressure in my ear. No pain, but it was affecting my hearing on and off all day. Almost everyone has been experiencing all sorts of odd and lingering symptoms. It must be this weather bc yesterday was fine. I canāt imagine leaving this area, but more often now, I feel Iād be better off living in the south one day. Mmmmā¦no snow 
Work was great! Just me, a busser, and bartender. Only 3 tables (14 ppl total), but they were all big spenders. The only time inflationās on my side 
An old coworker text me last night for the first time in months. He was one of the best servers to ever walk thru that place and I really miss having him around. Heās quite a bit younger, but we had this amazing connection. Hard to explain. Flirty in a joking but serious way, we always had each otherās back no matter what, and we werenāt afraid to tell each other like it is, no bullshit. Anyway, he wants to have lunch next week. Not a date (I donāt think ) but Iām really looking forward to it. Lots of thoughts whirling around. All positive, but confusing. Just gonna go with the flow as usual. Gonna try to wind down now, earlier than last night. Make it a great 24 everyone
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Day 11. Thereās a lot of work at the moment. I want to concentrate more on recovering and relaxing.
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You are not a burden!! Negative self talk like that is harmful to yourself also.
If we consider a relationship, it can be abusive in a physical way or in a mental way. Same goes for the relationship you have with yourself. It matters how you treat yourself and how you speak to yourself.
You are allowed to lean on someone and talk to them through friendship, that is not being a burden, that is sharing the burden you carry.
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Youāre not a burden. Lots of people to talk to here in lots of the threads.
Do you have a lot of snow where you live?
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