Day 264
Saturday morning. Looking like a beautiful day here (26°C) Gunna go have a picnic beachside with my girl. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend 
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11 months and 10 days today. November is the month I’ll hit one year of sobriety. I previously had over four years before relapsing. Got back on the straight and narrow Nov. 21st last year. It sure was a rough few days around that time though. Even after recommitting.
Last Thanksgiving my wife thought she was going to have to check me in at the hospital. I was struggling so badly with self-worth after flushing 4 + yrs of sobriety down the toilet I thought I’d never get it right. I thought what was the point? I completely lost control of my emotions: anger, rage, deep dark sadness and depression and much more than rampantly within me for several days. But when I woke up on Thanksgiving I just lost it. I didn’t think I’d ever stop crying. I’m not sure I had ever cried so hard or felt so lost before.
But I made it through those rough times. I’ve survived and I’ve remained sober since 11/21/24. My path is ugly, and never perfect, but I haven’t acted out.
You know, this path isn’t always awesome but I’m alive. I’ve had wonderful days and very sad and ugly days over the past year, but so have the people I know who aren’t addicts. So honestly, the normalcy I was always craving I appear to have.
All-in-all life is actually really good and I’m glad to be living it.
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Still day 5, still sober, late Friday afternoon - I often think about alcohol. I was out with my boyfriend, he was drinking wine - one glass - and I was drinking black espresso. It didn’t bother me too much, I just thought that one glass would never ever have been enough for me. Never.
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Day 40 and motivated to stay sober.
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I love Georgia O’Keefe, saw her work in the Whitney museum in NYC and it’s amazing 
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Welcome to the community, @Millie_1987, glad you joined us!
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Hey hope everyone is doing well. Think im out on the 5th as long as i get my gear pay my sell phone bill and then my ticket one way im thinking scew it if i dont ill never know.
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Checking in at the end of day 8. Alarm set for an early gym session in the morning.
My world is so much better than just over a week ago, it’s hard to believe I’m the same person.
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Day 4 ending. I can’t go earlier to bed and that made me upset
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Hey all! Wow sorry i have been missing in action this week has FLOWN by!
Work seems to be very good. I think it will take some getting used to but I have some ideas for the kids I am working with. The days just whip by as after i get kids, dinner, play, chores, bedtime repeat. I am beat, but in a good way. 
Sending everyone hugs for another 25 xo.
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Thank you for sharing your experience and good for you for collecting sober days again. Youre story is a good reminder of the depths of hell and depression i would go to and how hard it is to claw my way back.
I appreciate your presence here @Heath
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Checking in sober on a friday. Happy and content.
A lil bummer to share. The first christmas song of the season i heard on the radio was WHAM last christmas. Not how i wanted to kick off the season lol
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2y 7m 30d no self harm
not sure i can keep myself safe so I’m in the ER about to be transferred to a psych hospital
update: it’s been 10 hrs since I arrived at the ER. still waiting to speak to a counselor
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Hey love - glad to hear that you did seek help and are going to have professionals taking care of you. Sending strength and love and hope you start feeling better soon 
We are here for you Megan 
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thank you♥️
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@JonasE Way to go with 2 weeks of no smoking! Hope you are able to find something fun to help you our of the funk of winter / autumn. Keep up the amazing work 
@ccn31 WOOHOO 2 months is amazing work – keep going strong
@Millie_1987 Welcome to the community friend and great work on 2 days of not gambling. stay strong and hopefully you can gain in real life support too 
@seb OOH a picnic beachside sounds lovely - hope you two had a wonderful day
@Heath Great to see you coming close to your 1 year milestone. Great to see you get back on track after your relapse. The prior 4 years are not lost and you still have that healing as well as the tools to keep you pushing forward. Such a great post as many times I felt that if I gave up drinking then my life would be perfect and that is not the case cause life is not perfect and we just have to learn to live with the highs and lows with full clarity. Looking forward to celebrating your big milestone with you soon
@Raspberry Way to go friend – 40 days is impressive Keep up with the great work
@mira_d Great to see you checking in and happy to hear that work is going well!
Checking in on Friday evening
681 days free of alcohol and weed
1096 days free of cigarettes
Grateful for the 3 years of being smoke free! I managed to get some stuff done (major was month end and putting away Halloween decorations as todays weather was decent) and grateful that i don’t have anything pressing for tomorrow. Another sleepless night it seems. Grateful I will not be around people tomorrow as I am starting to get really loopy and slap happy 
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening – sending you all so much love
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@Millie_1987 Welcome 
I don’t know much about gambling, but addiction is addiction and we’re all here working towards the same goal. Keep checking in and reach out if you’re struggling. There’s always someone around for support
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Still in a bit of a mental funk and my throat is kinda sore today. Didn’t help the temperature dropped 20 degrees overnight. But hey, it still beats drinking 
Work was okay. A few people were called off so I thought it was gonna be dead, but it was pretty busy and was more work at the end with fewer people 
I didn’t take my usual snacks so I was starving going home. I ate a little but I’m just so beat I think I’m gonna go to bed early. And I get to sleep in! Exciting 
Hope you all have a great weekend!
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Checking in. It snowned last night but because the ground is still pretty warm, snow melted away. Gotta wait the zero Celsius temperatures. Otherwise day is going well, nothing but chilling and watching tv series. Life feels good.
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