Thanks a lot. We can do this!
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Thank you very much. One day at a time!
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Oh dear friendā¦ You should not have to make this choice. Please do always pick food and do not allow yourself to feel guilty about that decision. I do not celebrate Christmas but canāt imagine any holiday/ event what have you where you would be expected to buy presents to show your love (especially at the expense of your own well being). You are so loving and caring Cam. Iām sure your presence would be what most appreciated and remembered. Maybe work on hand made gifts which would give more of a personal touch. Iām glad to see how well you are doing with the timers. Congratulations on your 1 + week of not binging 
. Much love to you and I do hope the stress/ anxiety calms for you really soon 
wishing you relief as you adjust your meds
@Lastry congratulations on your 1 week milestone 
. So grateful for that text and how it prompted you to start your journey immediately. Keep up the great workā¦so proud of you 
@SoberWalker great attitude Claudia and I am sending extra healing vibes so that your foot will properly heal in these 4 weeks . I know it sucks leaving your colleagues short handed but you absolutely need to look out for your health first 
@SussexGuy great to see you checking in and with 6 months best of luck with your sales pitch. That has gotta be difficult Iām sure. Commend you for maintaining your sobriety.
@grayce1 great work Ava -3 days is great 
. Iām sorry for the off feeling you are experiencing. Stick with the sobriety journey. It does get easier and better. Are you able to reach out to someone in real life? ODAAT the recovery programs may be super helpful. Maybe look into a sponsor if you donāt have one already. Ah- just saw your update. Sorry you had to reset but glad you are being honest with yourself. Hope you are able to practice some compassion and forgiveness
@Brian1965uk woot woot 2 years is brilliant Brian keep healing and recoveringā¦itās not a quick or easy process but you are putting in the effort and it shows. Great to see you checking in
@scaredsmol it is a huge accomplishment . Every day sober is amazing but especially at the beginning when we are still so raw and vulnerable and going through the hell of detoxing. Keep up the great work
@thumper1213 great work on your double digits .
@Refreshedperspective aah that is interesting and for me I try to define normal. Really a construct that society has made us believe. Why canāt sobriety be the normal. Like we are here living each day, dealing with lifeās life moments head on without hiding or escapingā¦how that not the normal way to deal with shit? Iām still trying to rewire my thoughts to see this side. The slow mental transformation has helped me not feel less than for not drinking/ smoking. Keep kicking ass my friendā¦you are doing great and you are surrounded by others here going through the same journey
@Wolf182 nicely done Spencer. 2 years and going strong
All the milestones make me so happy!!!
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@wahtisnormal way to go Zoe!!! 7 months is amazing work . I do hope you catch up on your sleep and are able to find time for yourself. Sending love and energy your way 
@Mindofsobermike Super proud and excited to see this milestone . Way to go Mike. Youāve come a long way in your journey and it great to see you doing so well
@Mischa84 oh Iām so sorry love. That sounds awful and I donāt think I could deal with feeling sick constantly for that long. I do think you may be right that for 19 hrs a week, itās just not a good trade off being so Iāll all the time. Sending healing energy and hope you start feeling better soon. Wishing you luck with whatever decision you make with continuing with kindergarten
@Shel75 big hugs friend . Sorry that things are blah lately. Could it be the change in weather or the shorter days? Sometimes with this change, our vitamin d takes a huge hit and it can be depressing. Hopefully you will be feeling more like yourself soon
@Butterflymoonwoman sorry to hear that you are dealing with such anxiety Danaā¦I do hope that self care and the distractions helped.
@Timetochange sorry friend. Awful feeling and I do hope getting to bed early and hopefully getting some solid rest is helpful. We are here if you need to talk about anything (may help you process whatās causing the disconnection). Wishing you a brightwr Friday
@EFountains way to go! 800 days is impressive work
@james83 excellent job on 3 weeks!!!
Checking in on Thursday evening
694 days free of alcohol and weed
1109 days free from cigarettes
Been a super busy day. I didnāt want to spend it in bed so forced myself to be active (as active as I could be) and now Iām super exhausted and feeling everything extra lol. Internet decided to stop working so using phone hot spot for now. Sorry for any typosā¦harder to write on phone for me.
Great work everyone with all your amazing milestones.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day/ eveningā¦ sending you all so much love
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Day 1125 AF
Iām just checking in tonight. Nada nuevo.
Congrats to those celebrating milestones.
Hope all is well with everyone. Gnite! ODAAT
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Congrats on those amazing milestones @Mindofsobermike @Wolf182 and @EFountains 
Awesome to see so many great numbers here today 
Grateful for all of you 
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Today was our natural gas inspection and since I scheduled it, I had to wait for the guy. Anytime from 11-3 
I never know what to do with myself on those days. I showered ahead of time but had to dry my hair and kept turning it off in case he knocked 
Then made lunch, but didnāt eat it in case he showed up in the middle of it 
I just couldnāt sit still waiting for the unexpected. He showed up at 2:30 so I didnāt have much time to relax before work. Tired, but at least the dishes are done.
Thereās something about the heat at work. Halfway thru my shift yesterday, my eyes were burning and itching, my throat was sore from dryness, and it felt like I had to cough something out but it was just dry. Thought it was residual cold symptoms, but it went away at home. I was fine this morning but the same thing happened tonight. The GM cranks it, sometimes up to 75 
We turn it down to 63 overnight and I felt immediate relief. Idk. Theyāve been doing construction and the buildingās 120yrs old so who knows whatās blowing around. The hypochondriac in me worries 
Well, Iām gonna have a snack before bed. Take care everyone
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Feeling some kind of way right now. Iāve been in the new house going on 2 weeks and tonight is the first time that Iām feeling alone.
I just left my oldestās school play and she did phenomenal. I met her at the end told her how great she was and gave her flowers I think it wasnāt until the walk to the truck and my drive home that it hit me that my night with her and my youngest, who was with in the crowd, was over and that would be all the interaction Iād have with them. Kinda sucks right now but I know that Iāll get through it
So, that was the boo hoo of the evening but I did have a talk with my sponsor today about how Iām feeling convicted by my HP to start a local 12 step program here and possibly being able to cultivate others to include the prison. I think things are about to be shaken up, so Iām open to the possibility for growth and change.
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My long (4 day) weekend just started. Thatās nice. I do have therapy in Utrecht this morning and thereās another train strike so Iāll have to ride my bike again. Well, at least the flu like side effects from the flu shot I got yesterday seem to have eased a bit. And I would like to speak to my therapist. Lot of stuff happened and my mood has been going up and down quite dramatically.
None of anything has made me crave though. Of all the bad coping mechanisms I developed in my life, drinking is the worst. Never again. Letās have as good a day as we all can friends. And letās make it sober and clean or nothing would come of it. Love.
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Friday arvo chill time. Appointment with my counsellor in the morning and then out for some photography. 34Ā°C here tomorrow so gunna enjoy it. Hope everyone is doing ok 
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Busy day, up early to sort the dogs out at their homestay then packed up the car and got on the road. Was only a 4 1/2hr drive but was torrential rain the whole time.
Weāre at the holiday accommodation now and its still pouring with rain.
Supposed to clear up tomorrow.
Just happy to be away with the family
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I scrolled past this morning and was going to give daily check in a miss. Perhaps intending to do it later, I donāt know. For me that is where relapse starts. I miss one day. Then its easy to miss another, then miss a meeting, next thing I am passed out in my chair with a red wine stain on yet another pyjama top. Ugh.
Checking in at the start of week 2.
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@CATMANCAM Iām so sorry youāre in such a financial spot, but Iām gonna echo what everyone else has been saying: Prioritize food. Christmas is about being around the people you care about, not trinkets. I liked the idea of giving everyone a handwritten, heartfelt card, instead of a present. If you really want to push the boat out, use vistaprint to make your own card with photos of things/pets/memories you and you family/friends cherish. I did that in 2020 and donāt remember exactly how much ordering customized cards was, but definitely under a tenner. Maybe even less. If thatās too much, poundand do sets of like 10ish cards for like 2 quid. (Donāt even get me started on how annoying it is poundland is no longer a pound!).
Day 671.
The hateful cold has now hit my husband! Now Iām angry. You can mess with me, but keep your grubby germs off my hubby 
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At least Iām well enough to take over the dog walks.
Last night I had this weird nightmare where I went to an exam, but the questions were about the one chapter I hadnāt read, so I walked out. And then I was arguing with my abusive ex who came to meet me after my failed exam. He had bought me a new phone and expected eternal gratitude for it. But the phone was a brick from the late 90s, so basically useless. I donāt usually remember my dreams, so this one must have been particularly vivit. I clearly need a new phone (mine is like 4 years old now) and I need to study for my exams.
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@Amy30 Best recovery wishes to your husband. Your care for him is very sweet 
@Lastry Great job on catching yourself and checking in despite the negative impulse to neglect this part of your recovery. Congratulations on this first week done
@MrFantastik Hope the weather improves soon and you guys can enjoy the outdoors on your vacation.
@Mno Hoping your mood stabilizes soon
@Philipwithonel Sorry you are missing your kids. I imagine that has to be very hard. I also like how you are turning your attention to other ways to create meaning in your life through being of service
@JazzyS Internet connection has to be up, up, up for the meme queen 
@james83 Three weeks sounds good 
@EFountains 800 days is huge!!! Congratulations friend 
What is your most important tool in your recovery? 
@Timetochange Sorry to hear you are feeling like that. Is there anything you need maybe?
@Butterflymoonwoman I know this is probably not very funny, but when I read ācleaning rampageā I imediately thought of an action video game where humans transformed into gigantic cleaning monsters raze a city eating people, destroying helicopters, smashing buildings and everything around them. Sillyness galore. 
I hope you get to feel less anxious today
359 sugar
223 UPF
97 gluten
97 dairy
33 mindful eating
A bit of a dreary morning. Grey skies and it took me a long time to wake up. Coffee should help.
Today more work on my fantastic project, a hair appointment, and a game night with friends. Really looking forward to that. Maybe I can squeeze in a bit of relaxing YinYoga.
Todayās picture is my daughter and me about to board the Thalys train to Paris about six years ago. Havenāt been to Paris since, I believe. Time to plan a trip.
Peace and love for life always 
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Looking forward to seeing my friend today and she will meet the cats. They are staying with her for a whole week in December so itās nice for them to meet her as well beforehand. Itās been too long since I saw her. Having a very relaxed last day of our staycation as we have literally done and been somewhere every day this week. I think we will crack open the Escape puzzles and eat nice food and just enjoy each other today. Iāll be completely ok with that as Iāve done my weights workouts this week and have also got almost 15k steps every day on top. You get out what you put in.
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315 AF days
Still enjoying life immensely and yesterday was a fantastic day.
2 hours in gym with a lower body workout and bike. Then got squeezed in for a 45 min sauna session.
Wife worked, so had house to myself all day. Watched news then hit the hay at my traditional 7:30pm and awake this morning at 4:30am, finished coffee and awaiting the light to show itself on this rainy and cold late fall day.
So badly wanna do a plunge in the ocean today as I have some aches in my elbow joints (I think from farmers carry yesterday) and just see how it feels. Been planning to do since I took off from work, but just never had the balls to pull trigger yetā¦ yikes, so cold 
ā¦lol.
Perhaps today will be the day? Weāll see
Anyway, I hope you all have a good day. It was amazing to see so many milestones and sad to hear of some struggles so many are having. Makes me count my gratitude and good fortune. @CATMANCAM you take care of you first. Anyone who loves you will appreciate that first and foremost. Try not to beat yourself up over it. A lovely handwritten note or even perhaps some baked cookiesā¦ whatever you can do is all that should be necessary
**UPDATE: Today was the day for cold water plunge. I walked in with my chair up to my knees and immediately said āNo, no, no, fuck that, no, no!!ā That was absolutely insane. -1 air temp and who knows how cold the water was. But I couldnāt feel my toes within those few moments. I need to rethink this all!! Haha
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Happy Friday.
Not very motivated today and just feeling blah. Busy day today so I need to get out of this funk.
Blessed that I dont need to add being hungover as reason for not being my best this morning.
Have an awesome day my friends.
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Hey Lam,
Iām ok- just feeling quiet and uncertain lately. Iāll be around soon. Working and meeting a nice man for lunch.
Thank you
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Hey all, checking in on day 1615. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 1429,
Mwa, nearing two days of not smoking. Donāt know, definitely is not innocent. Feeling tiredā¦letting go of it feels letting go of an imaginary friendā¦.Will push throughā¦
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Checking into day 5. I can feel my own urges being kept back now. Iām more aware of them. What makes it so difficult is that itās so easy to access. All of the lusting is at my fingertips. But right now I have this. Checking in gives me that something to do. Looking at that clock keep counting reminds me why Iām here.
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