Seriously, I’m the same way and it’s super frustrating kinda being in limbo and waiting. Glad you got the appointment completed. 75 degrees is HOT! So much worse when you are running around with hot food. I too would be afraid of what else may be blowing from them vents. Hope your symptoms improve @Philipwithonel I’m sorry Philip. Yeah, I can see how your emotions got stirred up. I’m sorry that you are missing your kids. Glad you were able to spend some time with them tonight. Glad you talked with your sponsor and found positive ways to deal with the feelings. @MrFantastik look at your days!!! So excited for you. Hope the rain lets up soon and you all enjoy your holiday getaway @Lastry great to see you checked in and didn’t let that cycle start. Should be proud! Have a wonderful Friday
Love how your mind works! Loved this pic @Chevy55 lol…thanks for the update. Yeah- not feeling your toes would be a sign to get out. Maybe a cold shower or a ice plunge for just your elbow? @Frank68 sending positive motivation your way. Hope the day gets better for you @Lighter great to see you Marie. Sorry you are feeling this way…we are here if you need to talk it out! Enjoy your lunch .
Checking in on Friday morning
Got some sleep. 5 hours feels like eternity after the bout of insomnia I went through. I am wondering if my night walks are what’s helping
Not a whole lot going on today. Gonna take things as they come… coffee first
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day. Sending you all so much love
Hopefully that sleep starts coming your way! That would be a bummer.
How quickly I’ve forgotten as I’m already planning another attempt. Haha. I think I set it up too much. Chair in hand, video recording on tripod… I should have just run down, sat in water and seen how long I could take it… we’ll see.
As for elbow(s) I just used ice packs and that helped immensely, so I’m sure the plunge would have helped… stay tuned, I’m not giving up too easily!!
Love that attitude! I can see how the set up would psych you out … especially if air temp is so cold. Totally agree that you should just make a break for it
Thank you for your mention. There are several important tools:
Social environment: family, friends and work partners, who always support and love me.
In my case christian God, but no matter who or what could be, a spiritual support or sense is necessary.
Very important in my case: everyone loves goals or record, but all of this is accessory, the important thing is day by day, moment by moment. One day at a time or, if you want, only 24 hours matters.
Being aware and repeat to yourself: this is a disease, it is not a vice or a sin. We have a disease which we are not blame of. A disease with a remedy: just not to drink.
225 days sober
Started my morning with a short but very vertical hike then had a run. Running still feels slippery but I’ve bee experimenting with running in snow shoes and it’s definitely a calf workout!
I officially turned in my project proposal and am anxious to hear back. It’ll probably be a week or two or waitng though.
This afternoon I went to visit the kids at the orphanage and we had a good visit. Played some games and talked with some of the older girls about how they are doing. After I talked to my lawyer again about future plans for the orphanage and found out some good and bad news but I’m feeling positive. It’s gonna take a lot of work though. So another ongoing project but I care about it and will keep going.
Thank you for your mention. It is difficult to wait for someone or something. I understand you that, when you want to do something, you have the idea we are going to be interrupted…
Alcoholics like me are obsessive people. We would like to have everything under control and planned. Technical visits, heat at work, whatever…one of the good things (another one ) of being sober is that we are ready to changes. We are more flexible. Like the pray says: “accept things we cannot change”. So, first is first. Do not worry.
Time goes by, this is the key. And we are sober.
Kind regards.
This morning I woke up with a clear head and started my day with breakfast instead of smoke.
I joined SMART and WFS. Unfortunately neither have in person meetings in my area, I’m planning on attending my first SMART meeting tomorrow morning (online)
When I get my license back I will plan a trip to an in person meeting- all of them are at least an hour away.
Thank you to this community for guiding me, the support is more than I could ask for.
Oh my goodness thank you everyone for the love and support. It means more than you know, i had a great day yesterday, me and heather made some lego christmas ornaments. I cooked us some homemade chicken tenders and poutine… it looks like today is the actual one year idk its confusing, regardless im sober. Thats what matters. It wouldn’t be a one year without a test. A buddy of mine tried calling me last night, a guy i went to the half way house with, and ive mentioned before he started smoking pot. Ive messaged him and expressed my concern and he just ignored me so i removed him from fb and all that. Last night he called and i didnt answer, but then i did message back iust incase something might be wrong, he immediately called again, so i answered, i could tell he was high, asked how i was doing and when i told him i was with heather he was like that bitch better treat you good. Idk he was beint dumb, then asked to borrow 30 bucks so he could buy whip its. I said no, told him i hit my year or sobriety and he was like come on mike you dont have to lie, you know you wanna get high. I said listen i gotta go i hope you feel better man. Idk its sad
Checking in with 222 days sober.
Life is good. Husband is drinking a lot less which makes our time together more fun. I met my weightless goal too! Quitting alcohol has been the best thing.
I thank you all for being here. Though I don’t check-in as much as I used to, you were/are key to my success.
Great therapist visit this week, last night i did stay up too late gaming, which is something i really need to work on, but otherwise, as John Mayer says, “I’m in repair, i’m not together but i’m getting there.”
Still sick. Temp around 39C, aches here and there… Man it’s hard to be sick when you are alone with kids which have to be fed, picked up from school/kindergarten etc. Days like this i wish I would be in Poland. Would have somebody to help. Now hubby is back from work so its easier.
I hope tomorrow gonna be a better day.
Oh, my h bought from some colleague homemade wine, made from honey. Geez, how he was trying to make me drink some… “Just few sips, nothing will happen, you won’t get drunk. And it’s healthy, gonna make you feel warmer”. I was telling him several times, do you really want to activate drinking Agnieszka?! Because that’s how you activate drinking Agnieszka. Took him a while but he let it go. Not gonna lie, it was tempting like hell. I had huge chills and this honey wine smells so good…
But I’m not gonna drink. I tool paracetamol (tylenol) so no more chills, I feel a bit better for a next few hours.
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) of being sober is that we are ready to changes. We are more flexible. Like the pray says: “accept things we cannot change”. So, first is first. Do not worry.
. This week was rough.
