Checking in daily to maintain focus #71

Hey Mischa

Afraid that is not normal at all in this century anyway. Perhaps in the 1960s, but not now.

My wife works part time, I work full time. She does a bit more with the kids as a result but if I didn’t pull my weight she would sure let me know. I wouldn’t have it any other way, that’s what a partnership is - looking after each other. It does not sound like he is looking after you at all.

I don’t know what you do about it, but my feeling is you deserve to be treated better.

I hope you feel better soon

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Happy Saturday!

Telling on myself haha. Last 3 days ive been slipping on doing the next right thing. Been sleeping in, not going to the gym, and making excuses. That stops today. Even though I wamt to just stay in bed Im getting up dang it haha.

MAKE it an awesome sober day my friends!!

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Day 6 sober

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Goodmorning from beautiful Massachusetts usa
556 no alcohol
64 no form of marijuana
196 no form of nicotine

Wow getting up thismorning was tough
Yesterday i took 30min snd cane in late
I dont know why i get so tired in the morning
My baby boy isnt a issue. His momma goes above and beyond for him.
Maybe im putting too much thought into it.

Its not that im tired in the morning
I just wish i could get up out of bed easier

Im 34 years old
This is my first serious attempt at life. Very late start.
Maybe its just a stage with my work ethic i have to get use to.
Lerning work is over
Fun part is over
Bored part is over
Use to work is about over
Maintaining part for a long period of time is tough
Itll be 1year and 6months working full time on the 30th this month

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Day 12 .
Busy day today feels good to start it without a hangover

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Checking in day 243

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What does this mean? :cry: you tried to cut out a bite? I’m not understanding what this is about friend.
Hopefully not a self harm thing. Wishing you best on this and all things :heart::pray:

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I was a week ago, when my main complaint was heavy coughing lasting 3 weeks already. They sent me for blood check for bacteria causing whooping cough. Yesterday they had results and guess what. Something went wrong and I have to repeat a test. What is weird, I must wait at least 2 weeks to do new test. When I was talking (on the phone) with drs office, I was having high temp and I didn’t ask questions I would ask now. She said they just don’t have results, and I must do it again. Why after 2 weeks minimum? I didn’t ask :woman_facepalming:t3:But yeah, now I have to wait till Monday. Also, I said about my new symptoms and she said if I still have fever till Monday to call them back. Today I don’t have such a high temp anymore but I feel like my whole body is shutting down.

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What do you mean shutting down?
Editing to ask if your temperature is down without the paracetamol ?

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Maybe I’m a bit too dramatic now :slight_smile: I just feel extreme fatigue, sweats, weird heartbeat, weak body etc. I think, maybe it’s COVID… They dont sell tests in our village anymore so I can’t check now.

Edit: I have 37,6°C, without paracetamol.

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I was going to ask if you felt extreme fatigue, but I did not want to say anything that might encourage you to say something other than what you were feeling.
Do you know how to take your pulse manually hold your finger on your wrist and count for 15seconds and multiply by four or count for 30 seconds and multiply by two. Or if you have a fancy watch, it will do it for you. You might keep track of that.
If you feel shortness of breath, you should consider doing something about it
If you feel Skipped heart beats, which are actually premature contractions, keep an idea of how you’re feeling when you have them. Many are just a result of stress and come from the top part of the heart. Others are more serious and come from the bottom part of the heart.
If you feel bad while you’re having them, then you need to do something same goes with your breathing
If you have Covid, in my opinion, without good reason, antibiotics are the worst thing for you to get in the first week.
If you basically feel overly fatigued and sick, but otherwise more or less stable then hopefully it will just run its course.
Big hugs. Get well soon.

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316 AF days…. Well in reality it is 316 days free from vaping, pot and alcohol. I quit all things on same day…so AF is addiction free for me I suppose.

Yesterday after my pathetic attempt of cold plunge I took a zero day and did basically nothing. I always feel guilty when I do that, but meh :face_with_diagonal_mouth: whatever. It’s not like we have kids at home or our house is in disarray or anything, lol. It was just a relax day.

I decided on a sauna blanket for gym as opposed to full on sauna. Reviews on them seem positive and they do what I need which is a good sweat and to help with muscles post workout :weight_lifting_man:.

Today is upper body superset and a walk… that may be treadmill or outside depending on rain, we’ll see. Then more plastic on windows in office for winter chill. It’s very clear stuff and adds a layer of insulation to keep it warmer and not so hard on electric bill to heat.

Enjoy your day as best you all can TS peeps. All my best wishes :heart::pray::peace_symbol:

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@Thumper1213 Isn’t that a great feeling? Waking up without a hangover!?
@Noshame I have had trouble getting out of bed since I remember. I just am not that kind of person. My system needs the time. I know people who will be up instantly. Not me. You are not alone :wink:
@Frank68 Sometimes we need a break. Sometimes we need a kick in the butt. Difficulty is sometimes to decide which is right :joy:
@Mischa84 No love, this is not normal. He behaves like an entitled brat. You already have three children. Time for him to grow up, and put on the grown up husband pants. This is fucked up. I very much hope your health will improve soon :people_hugging:
@Tragicfarinelli What team do you root for? Yesterday my daughter learned that in the us football is called soccer. We had a good laugh :laughing:
@Lastry I so love the conversation you had with your addiction voice. You deserve so much more than a hangover and a wrecked life :+1: Great job on making it through friday night.
@Mno Enjoy your lazy day :couch_and_lamp:
@MrFantastik Thank you for sharing the pic. It is so good to see that someone has summer, beaches and swimming right now. It means summer just has gone to visit the other side of the earth and will come back in a few months :rofl:
@Mindofsobermike No idea how I managed to miss your sober birthday! Belated congratulations :partying_face: :balloon: :birthday: Sorry to hear your buddy is still in active addiction. This always is painful :mending_heart:

360 sugar
224 UPF
98 gluten
98 dairy
34 mindful eating

Game night yestarday was lots of fun as always. I was late in bed and got up very late. I don’t sleep in often, but I am glad I did today.
Weather is grey as usually at this time of the year, no blue sky, no sun. It’s gotten colder, have to wear more gear on my bike.
Went to the local electronics store to find a replacement for the keyboard I use with my mobile devices. Mine decided to break yesterday after many years of use. May it rest in electro heaven.
Today is as usually on a Saturday IT-tools and plant care. Some yoga maybe later and I’m thinking a cozy tv night.

Today’s picture is one of the rugs my friend tufts. I really love the colors.

Peace and love for life always :lotus:

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That is absolutely beautiful. Your friend does amazing work! :heart:

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@acromouse Chelsea Women FC are my top priority. And Chelsea in general really, but I’m not as into the men’s team. I also follow a couple of other teams like Houston Dash, loosely. But I find the NWSL hideously cruel.

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Sam Kerr. The legend.

In my opinion, I would build a whole team around the Norwegian Guro Reiten, the baby faced assassin :trophy:

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Thank you. I think she is very talented :woman_artist:

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Hey all, checking in on day 1616. I hope everybody has a good one!

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Day 260

I feel discouraged about many things. Everything seems surreal. Pema Chodron says: “begin where you are”. I wish I couldn’t see or notice injustice and brutal, cut-throat behavior cloaked in religion or ‘work ethic’. I wish I didn’t feel the despair and couldn’t see the pain in people’s eyes. I have been there so many times. The never-ending rat race. Then you wake up and huge chunks of your life are just gone. It is grief about my culture. But you must flat-iron your hair, at least put on some mascara and run out the door because you have to keep up, no time to think or consider a tear running down a mother’s face that you pass on the sidewalk. You might be next if you help her. It’s her fault she is struggling, they say.

We’ve lost our way. Stepping back and looking is terrifying. No one trusts another, it’s everyone for themselves. I reject that. And wonder what I can do. Where did she go? Is she ok?

Maybe that shot of reality downtown, that sadness I feel is leading me to my next job. Could I ever again be the rather callous tech worker who boasts about how busy they are, has bags under their eyes and high blood pressure, but makes the ‘good’ money? Making that money gives you a free pass and lauded status, to walk by without a care because you worked for what you have, and that woman walking past you is lazy. Is she really? Or is that the easiest way to dismiss her and ‘win’?

I’m blindsided by the truth of things at times. But maybe that’s what it takes to take action. I have a past life/degree in psychology and social work. I’m considering a helping profession again. It could be that I shouldn’t have left. Also considering teaching. Making a complex technical thing work is interesting, fun….but something very human is missing for me.

Thank you for reading. :heart:

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Day 367, thank you all again for the love and support. @LittleMissLaura it is so good to see you :slight_smile: and thank you. Yesterday i went out for a little ride and idk i was just off balance, my recovery time felt off and i had a couple falls. Im sore and feeling it today, but im so grateful. Much love everyone

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Hey friend :wave: I love the teachings of Pema. The hardest part and the one I always come back to is to stay where I am, and to look at pain and suffering. Staying as long as I can. And if I stay long enough someting inside of me changes. I find peace amidst all of that. Then the decision what to do next becomes clearer.
Sending you love :heart:

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