Unfortunately as self employed work must continue. Great Wi-Fi and my laptop I have already did payroll and billing. Two hours behind our normal time so feel like mastering the day. Yes with vengeance in the ALOHA WAY!
Thanks for well wishes.
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Checking in on day 484ā¦nice number day 
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Thank you everyone. Youāre so kind. Iām sorry I havenāt offered much support in my time here. Tbh, I donāt have enough control over myself and my life to offer advice thatās worth anything. But I think youāre all doing a great job.
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Checking out.
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Having to put on a face for work has honestly helped get me thru some tough days. Fake it til you make it does seem to work when it comes to happiness. Stay positive 
@scaredsmol Donāt think about forever, just know this. The longer you go, the easier it gets. Trust 
Also, thereās no need to be sorry and think youāre not contributing. Just being here helps us more than you think 
@Jesile YouTube is the way to go 
Iāve seen you mention tabata. HIIT transformed me when I discovered it 10+yrs ago. I owe it all to Zuzka Lightās ZWOW series and Bodyrock TVās HIITMAX series. Theyāre older videos, but the results are undeniably legit 
@Dirk Iāve always had an extremely tolerant, strong stomach, except when it comes to Indian food. Idk why, but it messes me up the following day every single time. I havenāt touched it in 20 years. Just my thoughts while reading your post 
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@Just_Laura, whereas I cook and eat homemade Indian curry at least once a month, never had issues so no idea what happened here.
It had very few ingredients as well: chicken thighs that I bought that morning, butternut squash, onion and garlic, coconut milk, crushed tomatoes and a bunch of herbs and spices.
I just tested negative for COVID so will probably end up blaming the chicken. I made a big pot of curry and put portions in the freezer, I guess the proof will be in the pudding when I eat the next portion and how I feel afterwards 
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Hope youāre okay 
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This left me with an ominous feeling and now I see @LittleMissLaura felt it too. I do hope you meant checking out for the evening and not something else
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Day 1011
Good evening TS fam! Had an extremely lazy day today. Slept on n off throughout the day and then went to pick up fish food and crickets for our geckos. Ordered my sons winter boots and started christmas shopping online tho, so thats something. Literally didnt do anything else tho. No exercise, no morning routine, nothing. I could have been more productive today as not doing these things has sort of effected my mood. Will get back on track tmrw 
Have a great evening everyone!
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Saying good night? Hope you are ok my friend. We are here for you Nick.
Hope you are just turning in for the nightā¦if not, please reach out 
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Had a great day off filled with errands, laundry, dishes (promise it gets better), a nap, hitting up the gym, and hanging out with my youngest this evening. I feel blessed that today was productive and not filled with addiction that would have robbed me of those moments and potentially made it to where only one or two of the stuff would have been done.
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@stacyann Hope the extra sleep helped. I was grumpy for the first few months of my sobriety. This is normal as your body is going through so much detoxing and healing. Be patient with yourself and know that you are doing the absolute best thing for yourself by not drinking. ODAAT!
@shellwhit45 Oh man I felt this. It is so exhausting trying to keep that happy face at work. I do remember the saying that goes something like if you smile even when you arenāt happy your body will subconsciously feel the happy vibes. Hope work went well for you
@climbin I am sorry that your mind is taking you back to your past relationship when you are already in a new environment where you donāt know anyone at the moment and its causing lonely feelings. I know the wound from your ended relationship is still raw, the memories will hold a lot of emotions with them. Donāt let them convince you that you will not find love. You do deserve love and a good partnership. Right now you just need to focus on your sobriety and take this time for yourself. Sending hugs of comfort your way.
@scaredsmol Day 20 is amazing! Gonna be 3 weeks soon! I know the urges are strong and the body is still recovering (this take some time and can be exhausting)ā¦ here to tell you that this does not last, it does get easier and you will be stronger, healthier and happier as you keep stacking up the days. Stay focused and keep fighting for your recovery
@wakikki Sorry friend. I hope you were able to get that anxiety clamed down and hoping for a better day ahead
@tailee17 Ooh man that is a beautiful sight. Hope you are able to enjoy the surroundings and culture and not have to spend too much time on work (totally know how it is having to take work on vacation with you ā hopefully not too consuming 
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Checking in on Wednesday night
700 days free of alcohol and weed
1115 days free of cigarettes
So happy to be in bed and hoping to get some sleep. Have a slight headache that is getting more intense so we shall see. Had to finally turn on the heating tonight.
I did get some stuff done today. Slowly working on organizing my stuff that I have stored at my parents home. This is going to take some time to get through. Have a large pile started for the Salvation Army. Hope to make a run next week to free up some space.
Wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening - sending you all so much love
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Yesterday turned into a hard day at work after waking up pretty good. Thereās a lot of dissatisfaction among my colleagues and Iām not the only one trying to make a move to another workplace. It doesnāt quite feel the same as two years ago there. Of course it also has to do with how Iām doing and feeling myself. Which isnāt fantastic, mentally and physically.
Iāll manage though. I woke up way too early and only had patchy sleep after, with lots of unsettled and unsettling dreams. But will make today as good a day as I can and expect the same of you all. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it.
Pic is end of the day yesterday, a little bit of blue sky made my day so much better after grey dark wet cold weather all day before that. I also forgot to use my sad lamp a couple of days in a row. With this type of weather I feel I need it. Grateful Iām writing my check in so I remember to put it on now. Love.
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Day 1131 AF
Whatās up, gang.
Iāve been busy with work and the fam bam. Thereās not much going on. Catching up on movies, exercising, and cleaning the apartment. Keeping busy is key. Just a couple more days of work and then vacay.
Well, thatās all from me.
I hope everyoneās doing well. ODAAT
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Iāll check those ones out! Thanks for mentioning! 
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Today went differently than expected. Felt tired and lazy all morning and was supposed to work at 4. Weāre usually overstaffed and almost daily the boss sends a āwho wants the night offā text once reservations are finalized. Most jump at the chance, but not me. Ever!. Got the text and knew the other 2 were also unlikely to accept the offer. No replies for 10 minutes so I decided āwhy notā
I got an instant rush of energy, excited to go enjoy this beautiful day off before the predicted week of rainā¦but my boss was right. Something was off. Seconds before I planned to call my mom to tell her she was off the hook to watch my daughter, she called to tell me my dad was in the hospital and we all went to see him. Heās okay
They were out buying him a new phone(his GALAXY 7 took a shit, tho tbh Iām shocked it lasted this long!) and he got really dizzy and weak. Luckily they were 2 blocks from the hospital. He had severely low blood pressure and was slightly dehydrated. Got him on fluids and meds to stabilize his BP and he should be able to go home tomorrow, but they arenāt quite sure why it happened 
Before he quit drinking, he was medicated for high BP and had fatty liver. Since quitting(4.5 yrs ago), everything stabilized. Heās 79 and on zero prescription medication(aside from whatever a detached retina needs). If he didnāt quit when he did, idk if heād be here today. If my brother and I didnāt both happen to be sober the last time our dad was in the hospital and convince him together to quit, idk if he wouldāve at all. But that was pointless of me to mention the āwhat ifsā. It all happened the way it was meant to. Recovery is incredible I couldnāt live my life without what Iāve learned. Donāt worry about me, bc Iām not worried. I know I donāt need to. Today, right now, is where we are. I have no fucking clue whatāll happen tomorrow so why spend time there today? I have no words to express my gratitude for being here, in this place in my life. You are all a part of it and I thank you
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Day 27 check in- forgot to do it last night, mustnāt become complacent! Up super early and headed to the gym. Have a great day everyone
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Check-in Day 6
Got a project from a client but im still stuck with a bug but trying to figure it out.
Im a programmer but im really lazy these days, i think its part of recovery. Im taking break between long sitting infront of my computer. Im exhausted, i will continue to figure it our after my lunch.
These all happens because im sober and otherwise i even not try.
Hope you all doing well.
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Checking in day 13
Dinner with the kids was lovely. I stayed on course in the shop and only bought the food we needed. I have realised however that going to the shops after work is a definite trigger for me craving. I spent the evening thinking about wine, wishing I had bought some, pleased I hadnāt bought any, what a merry-go-round of thoughts and emotions. Imagine adding actually drinking to that! They left at about 8:45 and I managed to make it to the 9pm meeting which completely stopped all the chaotic thoughts and got me back on track.
Work was good, I do digital innovations and tranformations, one of which was to develop and bring in virtual workers to do some of the mundane repetitive tasks that free up the human workers to do the good stuff. Itās not been without problems but it seems that sober me has managed to debug and get them running super efficiently and I am ready to start development work on the next little job for them to do.
I also got the private job I quoted for which will be a very nice earner! Hopefully right before Christmas. Itās going to be a lot of work outside my normal work hours but worth it for reputation and word of mouth recommendations. I would not have been this blessed still drinking. In fact I was barely motivated to do my day job, never mind taking on private work.
It seems I have detoxed from social media as well, without even knowing it. Filling my time with recovery work has kept me away from the time sinking socials that kept me busy for an hour or more every morning, mindless scrolling while I waited for the hangover to go enough to start work. I am going to delete the apps. There is more to life and I want to find it.
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I donāt believe in providence. But life keeps giving me examples of stuff that canāt be coincedence. Or can it? I donāt know. Who cares. Iām glad you were there for your dad today, and always glad and grateful youāre here with me Laura. You at the end of your day, me at the beginning of mine. We truly are in this together. Thanks for being here .
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