@Sticky welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 3 days @Juli1 enjoy your time off @JazzyS congrats on 700 days free of alcohol and weed @acromouse congrats on your year of no sugar @Whereswaldo I completely relate to your post, there’s more I could add, but there’s too much shame. I do believe it’s a combo of ADHD and c-PTSD for me personally. Solidarity 🩵
1563 days no alcohol.
1028 days no cocaine.
42 days no vape.
15 days no binge-eating.
Not having a great time at the moment. My Diabetes is way out of control and I’m feeling really rough. Nausea, stomach pain, blurry vision, migraines, excessive thirst & hunger, fatigue, urinating large volumes atleast every 30mins, chest pain, waking up atleast 5 times in the night, weird facial twitches. I’m testing urinalysis and it’s on the highest marker every time, and I tested my blood glucose and it was 21.6! Scary. I’ve got some more blood test strips coming tomorrow. I’m waiting for a call back from a doctor today, hoping they will just tell me to double my medication. My next HbA1c test is on 5th December, but that’s 2 weeks away.
Tonight I reduce the dose of the first medication again, then in 2 weeks I’ll be completely off it. Not looking forward to the initial withdrawal symptoms that I’ve had with every reduction, but I’ll get through it.
Therapy tomorrow, I’m going to have to ask to do it online again. The trains are just horrendous.
This sounds indeed scary. The consequences scare the shit out of me. In the end I guess your doctor will suggest insulin if you don’t get the numbers in range. I hope you’ll find another way. Also in this, you are not alone.
Also if I am high in sugar I don’t feel energetic. All the sugar swims outside the cells where it would be needed or at least metabolized.
Day 1,624 clean and sober today. Today is my Saturday and I love that lol. Laundry then fun and relaxation yay! Have a fantastic day everyone, love you guys!
It snowed on my way to work this morning. There’s something so beautiful, cleansing, and renewing about snow. Thank you, Universe for this gift! I know I’m on the right path, have worked hard to remain committed to my recovery, and maintain sobriety.
I do very much appreciate this App. Admittedly, I only discovered it a couple months ago but it has brought a freshess to my program. I love the community atmosphere and the support and camaraderie this app provides. It’s all so very important.
Feeling grateful that my journey has lead me back to the path of sobriety and this community. Honestly I have so much good in my life to be grateful for and I’m trying so hard to convince myself I deserve it. I guess that I am worthy of these good things. As usual I wanna throw everything away but am forcing myself to stay and be uncomfy and follow through this time. Cravings are nonexistent and my appetite is back. Had a nice bowl of oatmeal for breakfast with a coffee and really slowed myself down to enjoy each bite, each taste, the warmth. Going to watch the movie Amelia Perez, do some yoga and read a new book I just got. I’m lucky I did not have to go to work today. I’m lucky to have this time to heal a bit. Trying just to be present in this moment and not dwell.
Keep repeating to myself over and over, I CAN DO THIS until I maybe really do start to believe it. Self doubt sucksssss lol
Goodluck to everyone today! It ain’t wasy but its worth it
Day 60
Mundane life: work, chores at home, reading, journaling. Couple weeks ago I decided to be more mindfull what I eat and that is going well. I’m not munching treats daily anymore. My next little tweak is to make a simple and easy task list for every week. I hope it helps with my anxiety and get some shit done.
Tomorrow I’m attending an event where is free drinks. I’m not even questioning should I drink or not. It’s a hell no! I’ll try to have fun, eat well, have soda or soft drinks and leave the minute (drunk) people start to annoy me.
Checking in towards the tail end of day 4. Starting to get energy levels back and had a very productive and efficient day at work. Super intense and hectic, so knackered and happy now. Relaxing on the sofa watching YouTube looking forward to a sober weekend. F1 race weekend as well. Going to be epic!
Take care everyone, stay strong and safe out there.
3 weeks today! I cant believe it. There have been plenty of urges and grumpy days but I haven’t come close to buying alcohol. Looking to a completely sober future is still daunting so, for now, ODAAT!
congrats on 3 days 
