@acromouse Congratulations Aga on 1 year of being sugar free! Sorry im a day late but still wanted to congratulate u none the less 
Thats fantastic work!
@s_unrelax way to go on 1 week 
@Chevy55 i love reading ur posts and im so happy to hear that life is going well. Ur motivation to work out is very inspirational for me. Makes me wish i got off my butt and exercised today lol
@Bones_80 HUGE HUGE Congratulations on ur 2 years!!!
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Checking in day 326 AF 
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Day 29. Another client event without alcohol, but once I got home I realised that facing alcohol repeatedly and staying sober has a cost - by dinner time I was really craving a drink. This is where having no alcohol in the house is helpful (well, none that I will drink if Iām not in drunk mode), and shows the value of pre-planning. Instead I reached for a 0% cider. I use it as a kind of last line of defence as it has enough similarity to alcohol to fool my brain for a while whilst the craving passes. Unlike real alcohol, one can of 0% is more than enough. So, preparation paid off today, still sober and ready for tomorrow
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Unknownā¦
Lately it is really hard to talk for meā¦ Not because I feel bad or somethingā¦ Just I lost this attitude for trying to inspire othersā¦
I was looking for sobrietyā¦ I was looking for sobriety and found something moreā¦ Much moreā¦ that I justā¦ Canāt explainā¦ feel lost in translation to explainā¦
I dont know really how to start, or what to tell, so maybe I can say this:
I was looking for sobriety and found something moreā¦ but I donāt found sobriety yet.
So that is really not the end of the journey, but just a beginningā¦
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Day 1013
Fairly busy day today. Went grocery shopping early morning which was a workout and a half, pushing my wagon thru the mounds of snow that has shown up recently. We are getting even more snow over the weekend so im glad i went to the store today, instead of Monday. I felt particularly more grateful today than other days. Just feeling really blessed 
Im just about to do the dishes now and then will prep for supper. We are having nachos for supper which Im suuuper excited about lol
Then I will prepare for work tmrw. Not much else to mention right now. Have a great Friday everyone!
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Checking in with 269 days sober. Tuesday will be 9 months and headed to Luau. Having a wonderful time ! All calm in relationship. Sobriety and God is good.
Back home it has rained every day since we left. Unfortunately my cat Woody has not been seen. Hopefully he is just hiding in a warm spot dry.
Take care my sober people. I have mentioned that no way if I had not become sober 3 weeks in Hawaii could never have happened.
Aloha
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7m 24days AF
1 month 2 days smokefree
Blehā¦winter is kicking in hard. Feeling a lot of distance towards the people around me.
Didnāt use to like it but now Iām either numb to it or starting to enjoy it.
Either way is fine by me, not struggeling with these emotions just writing it down I guess.
Might be important later however when I want to analyze my psyche. Maybe Iāll want to change that some time in the future.
Wanted to drink tea and take a walk with a friend but honestly felt too detached to enjoy it. Realized after an hour Iād rather be on my own doing literally anything else.
Shame though, we used to be very close but now it feels like a job. Times change I guess. 
āFriendā of mine is moving to england. Wanted to to the whole sobriety thing until she got confronted with her bad behaviour once and you know the rest.
If she wasnāt uterlly self serving Iād be inclined to feel more sympathy but as is Iāll just fake whatever emotion I have to fake until sheās gone and thatās that.
Weird how this is actually still affecting me. Thought I would be better than that but I guess when you idolized someone for so long you lose that rational part of you. Or you delude yourself into thinking: āhey this is worth itā
Seems familiar doesnāt it?
Maybe I should put that in the list of things I have to treat as an addiction.
Not the first time this has happened and I believe it to be a core reason for my addictive behaviour. The obsessive need for companionship or rather a family. Filling the void but instead of concrete I used jelly. Bad tasting one at that because self harm doesnāt care how you hurt yourself as long as you do.
Sorry for the long update but Iām grateful to get it off my chest. Take care everyone. 
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Thank you Dana, that was very nice of you to say and nicer to hear. I sometimes believe Iām a bore with my long winded posts. 
When you find that which motivates you it becomes easierā¦
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Logging out for the night.
My weight lifting never happened as a surprise son showed up at door at 9:30am to hang out and do his laundry. Always a pleasant surprise so I hung out with him till about 2:30pm when his mom had to leave for work and he headed back to the cityā¦ a wonderful day.
Not to completely throw in towel, I hit the bike for 45mins on a higher level and got a bit of a sweat on.
Then it was pizza night and kicked back to watch an old movie. Good Will Hunting. I just love that movie. With all of his quirks and idiosyncrasies, Robin Williams was a genious in my estimation. Just an amazing man with so much good in his heart. Just a wonderful person and a great movie.
Well thatās me today. While it wasnāt how I planned it, I enjoyed immensely. Tomorrow I have an Upper Body ladder down day planned in gym and trying some jogging again.
Have a good night all. Peace 
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Checking in on day 486ā¦looking forward to the weekend aheadā¦no plans, after a busy time last weekend, so I will just enjoy the luxury of time and freedom 
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22 days sober. I found out I have to pay a Ā£100 fine plus other costs because I made a silly mistake. Normally, I wouldāve gone right for the vodka but, this time, I didnāt. It popped in my head but not remotely as a possibility. Iām happy about that. Pissed off about the fine though 
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You are doing great Thomas! Keep working your recovery my friend. Day 3 and climbing 
@s_unrelax 1 week is great work! Take things ODAAT ā Some say its easier get rid of all vices at the same time and others feel one at a time. You know your mind and body best. Just keep stacking up the days my friend. 
I totally get this and glad you are aware of this trigger and protecting your sobriety. Keep at it friend ā you are doing wonderful
@lastry Hope you enjoy your takeaway and cookies with icecream ā sounds like heaven to me 
Hope you start feeling better soon Fiona. Congrats on your sons 2 months sobriety chip 
Glad you are pre-planning and prepared for the urges. Repeatedly being around alcohol so early on can be a huge trigger. Remember we are here for you and so proud of your 1 month milestone tomorrow. Love the positive attitude
@tailee17 Loving the pictures. Glad you are having such an amazing time. I do hope your cat is safe and just hiding out the rain 
@chevy55 I do love that man and that movie ā sounds like a great day connecting with your son. I enjoy these type of surprises even when they disrupt the plan we had laid out. 
@scaredsmol Sorry about the fine but glad that you are not using alcohol to help you manage the stress of it. This is a huge step forward and you should be proud. 22 days and counting
Checking in on Friday evening
702 days free of alcohol and weed
1117 days free of cigarettes
Not a great day but I did manage to get some stuff accomplished. Feeling off and really hoping for sleep. Not much else to report - wishing everyone a wonderful addiction free day / evening ā sending you all so much love
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Saturday arvo, currently 37Ā°C so staying indoors today. Yesterday was similarly hot and I did struggle with sobriety slightly. I was so hot and thirsty at times that I tricked myself into thinking a beer would quench my thirst. Thankfully I was strong enough to grab some cold water instead but I would be a liar if I said it was an easy choice.
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@Seb, Well done !, Happy to hear that you faced situation with cold water 
@scaredsmol Good , You are changing the way of thinking and stay away from alcohol.
Day 8
Everything going good, I finished my last task from a client which is a payment gateway integration into a existing app. I struggled with many challenges but because of sober I got more energy and interest to fix the issue. now the integration is successful,
When Iām sober Iām not lazy and I have more energy and I never give up. So everything happens when stay sober.
Hope all doing well.
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Day 223 no alcohol
Day 11 no vaping
Day 70 running at least a mile a day
Feeling really discouraged. Its been over 7 months since Iāve stopped drinking, 70 days since I started working out EVERY DAY and doing my best to watch what I eat. And I still havent lost a single pound conpared to 7 months ago. I actually cried a few minutes ago about it. Doesnt help that my mom also started screaming at me about something else. I just want control over my life. I feel so angry but have no way of relieving the anger in a way I feel is sufficient, so Iām just sitting here with it. I usually donāt get cravings to drink anymore but boy does it sound tempting right now. Especially after 7 months and I havenāt even lost a single pound. Itās like, whatās the point? (Obviously i quit for more reasons than just weight but holy shit this is so annoying and i feel like Iām just a failure. I look at other people who will start to see results much faster in their bodies and it makes me feel like what the hell is wrong with me.) Then i have two friends who have both separately casually mentioned to me how much weight theyāve lost without trying. It was a while ago at this point but Iām still pissed off about it. They know I have a history of an eating disorder. One of them goes āitās crazy, Iāve lost 14 pounds in the past two weeksā and the other one same shit, āomg im down 10 pounds (as of the past couple weeks)ā like thatās awesome for you guys but also not healthy to lose weight that fast, im glad you really felt the need to tell me that though, even though you KNOW Iāve been trying so hard to lose weight for MONTHS. I have no words. If I hear one more friend tell me some shit like that Iām gonna (respectfully) tell them itās not helpful to hear that shit. I want to scream and cry.
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I am loving your numbers and that you are sticking to your new healthy routine. I totally know how frustrating it is to be doing the right things and not loose weight.
For me Iāve had other health issues that caused weight gain and wouldnāt allow me to loose any. Every time I worked out I would gain weight and found out this was due to inflammation. I had major gut underlying gut issues and an overall inflamed system. I just got 23 months of sobriety and working this time on repairing my health and finally seeing some results. Still not nearly the type of results my friends see with similar routines but hey I am just happy to be finally seeing the scale go down LOL.
I do relate to your post and know how frustrating this all is. I am very sorry that you are dealing with this. Maybe check into if you have some issues that are causing a delayed reaction? Like inflammation or thyroid issues for example. Donāt give up hope and keep doing what you are doing. You are living a healthy lifestyle my friend and I do hope you start seeing the results soon
Totally acceptable to let your friends know that you happy for them but ask your friends not to bring this up as it is not helpful in your journey.
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Working weekend coming up. Iām not that thrilled about it but Iāll manage. In less then a weekās time Iāll be off for ten days. Donāt have anything planned but itās a nice prospect anyway.
Yesterday was nice despite the awful weather. I visited Van Gogh Museum for an exhibition of Impressionist art, and was happy to see my favourite Van Gogh from the fixed collection was back from travels abroad. Ater that I biked to my top grocery on the edge of town, got a whole collection of bulbs, roots, tubes and other veggies for next to nothing and made myself a huge pan of soup. Which turned out very nice and is now mostly portioned up in the freezer for some cold nights to come.
On my way there I saw this image, looked so much like Van Goghās painting. Life imitating art right. And on my way home I visited my bike shop and talked about a wild plan building my own bike with their help. Will see if anything comes of it but exciting anyway. It was a good day. Letās have as good a day as we can today too friends. Sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love.
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Checking in day 250.
Cool number! I like 8 months but think 250 days is better.
Early check in today, usually do it when Iām tired and in the evening about to fall asleep.
Hope everyoneās weekend is going great
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@JazzyS My Taco Bell was good, thanks I wasnāt feeling too good today tho. Super fatigued as well. Idk if it was the weather, the stress of yesterday, my period starting, or all of it, but I was just done with today before it started. Iām so glad to be home and going to bed soon. Tomorrowās a new day 
@Bones_80 Congrats on 2 years Ian Good to see you checking in
Felt that today 
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Like I said, not a great day. Freezing rain, fatigue, and upset stomach(no thanks to Taco Bell Iām sure 
I tend to forget that since I donāt eat there often). Just a total lack of caring about anything but getting back home to comfort. Itās alright now that Iām here, but still looking forward to going to sleep so this day is over. Body is overly tense and mentally, Iām exhausted. Hope I can wind down soon and not lay awake in bed(altho that hasnāt been a problem lately). Iām hungry, but my stomach still isnāt quite right. Just glad I wonāt be waking up to an alarm See you in 24
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Thank you for listening and for the words of encouragement, i really appreciate it 
I think my appetite is the biggest issue right now. 23 months is so amazing! Iām rooting for you š«¶š»
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